720 hours and 22 minutes since he took over Lucifer from Sam, and stayed here.

680 hours and 31 minute since he last saw Dean, well at least since the last time he was sure it was Dean and not some stupid projection made by Lucifer to torture him.

The time passes and Castiel can feel that he loses himself a bit more with every minute. His mind isn't clear anymore. At first, he could tell the difference between hallucination and reality, but now everything's the same. He closes his eyes so not to see the Lucifer sitting in his favorite spot – at the back of his bed, it doesn't stop him from talking though.

"Hey, little brother, where is your precious hunter now? He left you didn't he? He used you again and moved on with his life. He's probably banging some stripper in a cheap motel room while you, little fallen angel, sit here with me all alone, with your heart extended towards Dean."

Castiel covers his ears so not to hear what Lucifer is saying.

"Dean will come back. He loves me, at least as a friend, he would never leave me" he keeps repeating these words in Enochian everyday but with each passing minute he believes it less and less. What if Dean really left him, if he really moved on, if he is never coming back?

"You are so cute when you try to be optimistic, Casie." Lucifer mocks him. Castiel tries his best not to respond, not to react at what the devil is saying, he tries not to give in, because then the torture would become even more unbearable. He won't give him the pleasure.

"Oh come on brother, you have been ignoring me for days, I'm bored. Let's talk about your crush, shall we?" Lucifer gives him a grin and Castiel freezes, his hands start shaking.

"Ups. Did I touch a delicate subject? I'm so sorry, I though Dean knew about your feelings. Well I'm sure he does, he just don't give a crap. You are just another angel to him, Casie. Another strong soldier, to fight his battles, just a whipping-boy when something goes wrong" Cas can't take it anymore he tries to jump on Lucifer and wipe that confident smile of his face, but before he can even do that, Lucifer is already behind him, whispering in his ear:

"Don't be mad at me, Dean's the one who left you. Don't worry I'm not going anywhere, I'll never leave you, Casie!" Cas tries to grip Lucifer again but he misses him. For a moment he notices Dean sitting next to his ward door, but he quickly morphs into Lucifer. Castiel can never be sure if that's Dean or not. He's too afraid to look at him, because he couldn't take the pain which would pierce him, if that was only one of Lucifer's pranks. Cas falls back to bed with tiers in his eyes, staining his beautiful and pale cheeks.

"Oh come on don't be such a drama queen! I'm only saying what you already know." Cas feels his heart tightening, a sob coming from his mouth when he says:

"You were right. Dean never came back for me." He spots that the projection of Dean, which was sitting at the door, stands up and walks away before he closes his eyes. Just before Cas goes numb again, he murmurs:

"He never came back for me"