Hey guys.
Here´s a new chapter
In this chapter there´s gonna be more than one POV. First a little Dimitri from where we left of at chapter 4 and then continuing with Rose POV.
There will be a little lemon in one of the flashbacks but it is not marked!
Ages of some the characters:
Dimitri (26)
Rose (turning 21 the day after the concert)
Mason, Eddie, Christian, Lissa (22)
Mark, Oksana (23)
Mia (20)
Victoria (19 almost 20)
Songs in this chapter:
Misguided ghosts (Paramore)
Magic (Tina Dickow)
Love me like you do (Ellie Goulding)
Make you feel my love (Adele)
Disclaimer: I sadly don´t own the VA series, the VA characters or the songs. I only own the story line.
ENJOY!
Back where we started
Chapter 6.
Dimitri POV.
I couldn´t help the jolt of warmth that ran through me when her eyes connected with mine. Just like I couldn´t help the words that left my mouth. "Roza…" it was gentle, almost like a sigh.
I know she saw and she flinched as if slapped. She seemed to remember where she was and said that she would take a break.
I wanted to follow her and my eyes stayed glued to her as she made her way to the door.
The moment Rose was out the stage door my sister whirled around to face me and slapped the back of my head. She gave me a pointed look and said "You´re an ass. You should have told her the truth back then and I think if you get a chance to, tonight or at least soon. Tell her and maybe she will understand why. I don´t know if she´ll forgive you but…. You don´t know if you don´t try." She gave me a pat on my shoulder and made her way to the bar. "Well I´m going to get a drink. Are you coming?"
I just nodded to myself and followed without saying anything. I knew she was right.
The rest of intermission we just talked and enjoyed our drinks. However, in the back of my mind, thoughts of Rose were a constant.
The stage went dark, the door opened and Rose came out.
Rose POV
As Jane did my make-up I couldn´t help but think back to that night again. I know I shouldn´t because it´s going to hurt me later, but it´s too close to the front of my mind to ignore….
First flashback:
I pushed him upwards so we were on our knees on the bed. Needing air, I pulled my lips away from his mouth. I gazed up at him through long lashes. His eyes were dark, almost dark, with a raw passion and I shivered in response. I released my hold on his hair, slid my hands down to the hem of his t-shirt and pulled it up until I reached his chest. Dimitri lifted his arms over his head, tugged on the back of the collar, then pulling it the rest of the way off and threw it on the floor somewhere.
I bit my lip as hunger and need washed over me at the sight of his breathtaking, naked, tanned muscular chest and abs. I reached my hand up and lightly touched his chest. His heated skin felt smooth and silky. The hard muscles rippled beneath my fingers and I felt him shudder.
Dimitri yanked my head up and slanted his mouth across mine. He quickly removed my bra and then like a blur of motion the rest of his clothes, except my panties and his boxers were on the floor. He pushed me down and the mattress gave under our weight as he stretched me out on it. He settled back on his knees between my legs, licked his lips and with hooded eyes looked at me, scanning down my body. I could feel myself blush self-consciously under his gaze and became nervous as the thought, of what we were doing and soon going to do, set in.
"You´re so beautiful….." He whispered, gently sliding his hands up my legs and everything else disappeared. My skin prickled and grew warmer as he his hands slid higher and higher up my body with the rest of him following, crawling, behind them. Anticipation grew in me and my breathing became heavier. His hands reached my breasts, lightly cupping them, and kissed a trail from my abdomen up to my left breast. When his mouth closed around my nipple, I let out a shaky gasp and closed my eyes. I arched my back and fisted the sheets in my hands. (My whole body felt like it was on fire.) The sensations going through my body were new, exciting, and frightening all at the same time. All I could feel was him and the things he did to me. My body was yearning for more and to get closer to him. He gave my other breast the same thorough attention, biting, suckling and lavishing around and on the nipple. One of my hands fisted itself on to his hair in a desperate attempt to get him closer.
Then the memory changed….
Second flashback:
"Rose I can´t continue seeing you anymore. I shouldn´t have let it come this far in the first place. I thought my feeling for you would grow over time, become more than just attraction, but they haven´t and it´s not fair to you or me."
"I think I need to find someone closer to my own age, someone more mature and someone I can actually see a future with."
End of flashbacks.
The memory of those words was like a slap in the face and I flinched. Anger bubbled, flamed within me and could feel my eyes harden. I looked at myself in the mirror and mentally cursed. I did not need this right now. Focus on the concert Rose. I had a job to finish and I wasn´t going to let this ruin it.
Adrian came through the door and I knew it was time. I took a deep breath. Time to shine Rose and time to face the past.
"Rose, it´s time." Adrian said, resting his hand on my shoulder.
I patted his hand and stood up. "Okay, I´m ready." I made my way to the stage door. The rest of the band waiting for me. I knew it was only me going in at first to introduce the rest of them, when it was time. "Hey guys. You all good to go?"
There were murmurs of yesses. "Good. See you out there."
I took a deep breath and forced a smile on my face. I made my way through the door and onto the stage. People started cheering as soon as they saw me. I sat down on the chair and took my guitar of the floor.
"Thank you." I said as the cheering quieted down. "I´m going to play two songs with Mason, a guitarist in my band and good friend, before the rest of the band gets out here." Just as I finished a smiling Mason came out with a guitar in slung over his shoulder.
He was wearing a pair of blue jeans, a white shirt and black Nike shoes. He was 6´3, strong build, had short messy red/orange hair, Skye blue eyes and cute boyish face with freckles. He was like a big brother to me, a year older and the male version of me.
He took a chair beside me and plugged in his guitar.
I gave him a grin before looking back out at the audience, avoiding the gaze I could feel practically burning a hole in my scull. "This song is one of my favorites from the album. I think most of you can relate to it. It´s called Misguided Ghosts…. "
I turned myself slightly toward Mason so we were half facing each other, half facing out and moved the mike with me. I searched Mason´s eyes silently asking if he was ready. He gave me a brief nod. I took a breath and counted us in. " 1, 2, 3, 4…"
I am going away for a while but I'll be back don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place and it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes
and run from them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them
With no conviction
'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles
Now I'm told that this is life and pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify our broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on
and run to them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not useless
We are just
Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost and still they echo me
They echo me in circles
The crowd cheered and whistled. "Thank you. This next one is based on a real story a friend of mine told me once. I just added a little more to it. Here it is: Magic."
We started playing the song.
I don't do this sort of thing, I said
As he leaned in and ran his fingers through my hair
I could see he didn't believe me
And I could tell from his sweet smile he didn't care
He slipped his hand under my skirt
And for a moment I looked deep into his eyes
I didn't see much in there
Apart from an emptiness I sadly recognized
Let me take you far away from here, he said
I know some magic that is sure to pick you up
I thought of me alone in my cold hotel bed
And I said, yeah, well, why not
He took me back to where he lives
We had a drink and tried to start a friendly chat
But neither of us felt much like talking
About the lives that we were there to forget
And so he laid me on the bed
And we undressed; the street lights sliced us through the blinds
His skin felt warm against my body
But my body couldn't hold on to my mind
I drifted far away above this stranger's room
My thoughts walked down the crowded streets of yesterday
Until he stopped and asked if he had come to soon
I shook my head and turned away
We laid a little while in silence
'Til I got up, got dressed and splashed cold water at my face
I better go, I said politely
I don't usually stay out this late
People were laughing as I had hoped. I quickly set my guitar down, stood up and leaned forward giving Mason a big hug. "Thank you." I whispered quietly to him.
"No problem Rosie." He murmured and pulled out of my hold, smiling.
I turned back to the crowd. "Thank you." I smiled. "Now here´s the rest of my band."
Eddie, Christian, Lissa, Mark, Oksana, Mia all came out waving at the crowd. Mason moved over to his place. Eddie plays the base, Christian the drums, Mark on the piano and Lissa, Oksana and Mia my back-up singers. They got in their positions.
"The next song we´re playing is an old song for me. I wrote this a couple of years ago. It´s a personal song and it´s called Love Me Like You Do….."
I turn around to face my band and they started playing.
You're the light, you're the night
You're the color of my blood
You're the cure, you're the pain
You're the only thing I wanna touch
Never knew that it could mean so much, so much
I could feel a smile pull at my mouth as I turned around to face the crowd, feeling the music, the beat flow through me. My eyes closed as memories surfaced. I could almost feel his touches on my body.
You're the fear, I don't care
Cause I've never been so high
Follow me to the dark
Let me take you past our satellites
You can see the world you brought to life, to life
So love me like you do, love me like you do
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Touch me like you do, touch me like you do
What are you waiting for?
Fading in, fading out
On the edge of paradise
Every inch of your skin is a holy grail I've got to find
Only you can set my heart on fire, on fire
Yeah, I'll let you set the pace
Cause I'm not thinking straight
My head spinning around I can't see clear no more
What are you waiting for?
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Touch me like you do, touch me like you do
What are you waiting for?
Yeah, I'll let you set the pace
Cause I'm not thinking straight
My head spinning around I can't see clear no more
What are you waiting for?
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Love me like you do, love me like you do
Touch me like you do, touch me like you do
What are you waiting for?
As the song ended I was a little out of breath but I felt good. No matter what memories came with it, this song it always made my happy.
I tried to avoid Dimitri´s eyes because I knew I wouldn't get the response I wanted. He didn´t feel the same as I did, as I still do, when this happened. When I wrote this song. I never did understand why he changes his mind about us. He seemed to love me, seemed to care. Then suddenly he just seemed indifferent.
They crowd hollered loudly. "Thank you. Now on to the next song. This one is called Make You Feel My love." I said.
The band started playing and again I felt the music deep within my bones. Almost like an extension of myself. I let the words flow out of me….
When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.
I can´t make you love me. I know. I just wish you did…. I guess I couldn´t resists any longer. My eyes found his almost instantly. Those deep brown of endless pools that I love so much. I know my eyes are easy to reed, because my feelings shine through and right now I can´t stop them. I can´t stop the lone tier running down my face.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.
I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love
Unknown POV:
Clearly Belikov couldn´t understand a threat when given one. Oh, just look at him drooling over her. Yuck.
Although it´s been 2 years with no contact with the girl but this would not do. I know he has passes to the after party and I know he will try to talk to her. I cannot allow this. But I guess I just have to wait until later to see how it goes and then make a new plan on how to keep them apart….. Yes, they will suffer….
So here you have it. You got a surprise chapter too.
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