AN: Merry Christmas and a Bishie-filled New Year!!! As for why I didn't update when I promised, time kinda just slipped away and then I got sick and was lying unconscious for a couple of days...oki, I'll let you read the story now and save my rants until after the chappy........
Double Reflections
Chapter 15
Genrou was dump-struck. He had never seen such an expression on Houjun's face before. It had always been either covered with a fake smile, which didn't reach very far from his mouth, or been totally expressionless except for a few recent occasions when Houjun had actually smiled for real. Even on those times, however, his smile had been small and fleeting, like it was just a flash of mirth in a well of endless sadness, but what Genrou now saw in front of him was something totally different. It was Houjun alright, and he was smiling, but this time the emotion reached everywhere. There had always been something missing, but now Houjun looked...complete.
***
Houjun felt like his whole being was filled with love towards Genrou. The baffled look on the other boys face made him realize that Genrou had probably thought he would be mad at him, accuse him of being a liar and just tell him to go away, but Houjun didn't want to repeat the mistakes he had done in the past. It was so rare for two people to truly find each other like they had done that he wanted to cherish the bond they had slowly created between themselves.
Houjun knew that he should do something to show Genrou that everything was going to be alright. No, he didn't have to. He wanted to.
Houjun took a deep breath. He was scared of being rejected, scared of discovering that it had all been just an extremely elaborate prank, but if he hesitated now, he would keep running away the rest of his life.
He just had to believe.
Slowly Houjun took a step forward.
***
Genrou almost forgot to breath again as he watched Houjun close the small distance between them. He felt Houjun's arms wrap around him hesitantly, like the other boy would have been afraid he was just an illusion that would disappear as soon as he touched him. Clumsily Genrou answered to the embrace. He felt Houjun press against his chest, and then heard a small voice say:
"Is it okay...if I just stay here?"
***
Houjun felt Genrou wrap his arms tighter around him as a response to his words. He clutched tighter to the red-head and noticed there was something warm trickling down his neck.
Tears?
Then he realized that his own cheeks were wet too. When he had understood that Genrou would really be there for him the salty liquid had started flowing down from his eyes. The sudden relief after so much mental strain had been too much for them both, they had started crying.
Tears of joy.
Just for this one moment, he would be safe under Tasuki's wings.
***
Genrou was resting his head on Houjun's shoulder. Even at a moment like this he was surprised to discover that the blue-haired boy was almost as tall as him. Then he realized that he still hadn't answered to Chichiri's question. Well, he was quite sure he had already got his message across without any verbal means, but somehow it felt important that he stated it out aloud.
"...kay.."
His first try came out only as a muffled whisper. Genrou raised his head a little so he could properly move his jaw. Houjun's bangs were tickling his ear.
"It's more than okay. Being able to hold ya like this, to bring ya happiness, it's all I ever really wanted...besides a fancy car and jack-pot in the lottery, but they don't exactly compare with this", Genrou added with a frown. He heard Houjun chuckle close to his left ear. "Hey, I was just bein' honest..."
Houjun looked up and seeing the expression on the blue-haired man's face made Genrou smile too, and suddenly they were both grinning like maniacs.
***
"You know, that is one reason I love you, the way you say everything so openly..." Houjun hugged Genrou tight, feeling snuggly and light-headed for all the emotional tumult he had gone through that night. "You're always so alive..."
"That did bring the tension down a little, though, didn't it?", Genrou smirked.
"It doesn't matter...all that matters is that I love you..." Even though Houjun had known he loved Genrou for quite a while now, it still came as a shock when he said it. Stating it out loud made it suddenly seem so much more real. Houjun felt like he was so full of emotions towards Genrou that he was sure his brain would explode soon. He was still a bit uneasy, but when he heard Genrou's next words he knew everything was finally okay.
***
"I love you too..."
Genrou felt odd saying aloud something he usually connected only with books and movies, but it felt good nevertheless. He hugged Houjun tight, and for a while that was the only thing in the world that really mattered.
AN (from the time I first wrote this chapter): Sappy, sappy, sappy......but I was in a sappy mood, oki? And besides, there can never be too much sap...^_^
AN: So, that was all of Double Reflections for this year. I've written a part of chapter 16, but I think it's kinda cute to leave the guys snuggling in the darkness for the New Years Eve....and I think it gives a nice ending to this year.....I hope you liked it....and now I'll stop before my ultra-low self-esteem kicks in again.....
Now there'll be a couple of announcements...
First of all, Sweetdeily has been kind enough to host DR on her page. Actually it's been up for quite a while now, but I never wound up posting the URL......gomen...^^;;;
well, here it finally is:
http://www.angelfire.com/anime4/honeysweets140/FYfics.html
There's also Meg's Papier-maché Emotions (go read it if you haven't done that yet!!! it's cute!!! ^_^), and there'll prolly be some more.......
Last summer I started building a little web page I nevr finished, but I intend to continue it in near future and start posting extra suff there. Currently iy looks so crappy that I won't even post the link yet, but I'll try cleaning it up before I post the next chapter.....
And now to the important part ^_^: I wanna wish Merry Christmas to Krissie!!! ::glomp:: ::would wish merry christmass to everyone else too unless she was so busy glomping Krissie:: Well, I hope everyone makes it alive through holidays and continues reading this next year too!!!!
Krissie, I love you...........
Double Reflections
Chapter 15
Genrou was dump-struck. He had never seen such an expression on Houjun's face before. It had always been either covered with a fake smile, which didn't reach very far from his mouth, or been totally expressionless except for a few recent occasions when Houjun had actually smiled for real. Even on those times, however, his smile had been small and fleeting, like it was just a flash of mirth in a well of endless sadness, but what Genrou now saw in front of him was something totally different. It was Houjun alright, and he was smiling, but this time the emotion reached everywhere. There had always been something missing, but now Houjun looked...complete.
***
Houjun felt like his whole being was filled with love towards Genrou. The baffled look on the other boys face made him realize that Genrou had probably thought he would be mad at him, accuse him of being a liar and just tell him to go away, but Houjun didn't want to repeat the mistakes he had done in the past. It was so rare for two people to truly find each other like they had done that he wanted to cherish the bond they had slowly created between themselves.
Houjun knew that he should do something to show Genrou that everything was going to be alright. No, he didn't have to. He wanted to.
Houjun took a deep breath. He was scared of being rejected, scared of discovering that it had all been just an extremely elaborate prank, but if he hesitated now, he would keep running away the rest of his life.
He just had to believe.
Slowly Houjun took a step forward.
***
Genrou almost forgot to breath again as he watched Houjun close the small distance between them. He felt Houjun's arms wrap around him hesitantly, like the other boy would have been afraid he was just an illusion that would disappear as soon as he touched him. Clumsily Genrou answered to the embrace. He felt Houjun press against his chest, and then heard a small voice say:
"Is it okay...if I just stay here?"
***
Houjun felt Genrou wrap his arms tighter around him as a response to his words. He clutched tighter to the red-head and noticed there was something warm trickling down his neck.
Tears?
Then he realized that his own cheeks were wet too. When he had understood that Genrou would really be there for him the salty liquid had started flowing down from his eyes. The sudden relief after so much mental strain had been too much for them both, they had started crying.
Tears of joy.
Just for this one moment, he would be safe under Tasuki's wings.
***
Genrou was resting his head on Houjun's shoulder. Even at a moment like this he was surprised to discover that the blue-haired boy was almost as tall as him. Then he realized that he still hadn't answered to Chichiri's question. Well, he was quite sure he had already got his message across without any verbal means, but somehow it felt important that he stated it out aloud.
"...kay.."
His first try came out only as a muffled whisper. Genrou raised his head a little so he could properly move his jaw. Houjun's bangs were tickling his ear.
"It's more than okay. Being able to hold ya like this, to bring ya happiness, it's all I ever really wanted...besides a fancy car and jack-pot in the lottery, but they don't exactly compare with this", Genrou added with a frown. He heard Houjun chuckle close to his left ear. "Hey, I was just bein' honest..."
Houjun looked up and seeing the expression on the blue-haired man's face made Genrou smile too, and suddenly they were both grinning like maniacs.
***
"You know, that is one reason I love you, the way you say everything so openly..." Houjun hugged Genrou tight, feeling snuggly and light-headed for all the emotional tumult he had gone through that night. "You're always so alive..."
"That did bring the tension down a little, though, didn't it?", Genrou smirked.
"It doesn't matter...all that matters is that I love you..." Even though Houjun had known he loved Genrou for quite a while now, it still came as a shock when he said it. Stating it out loud made it suddenly seem so much more real. Houjun felt like he was so full of emotions towards Genrou that he was sure his brain would explode soon. He was still a bit uneasy, but when he heard Genrou's next words he knew everything was finally okay.
***
"I love you too..."
Genrou felt odd saying aloud something he usually connected only with books and movies, but it felt good nevertheless. He hugged Houjun tight, and for a while that was the only thing in the world that really mattered.
AN (from the time I first wrote this chapter): Sappy, sappy, sappy......but I was in a sappy mood, oki? And besides, there can never be too much sap...^_^
AN: So, that was all of Double Reflections for this year. I've written a part of chapter 16, but I think it's kinda cute to leave the guys snuggling in the darkness for the New Years Eve....and I think it gives a nice ending to this year.....I hope you liked it....and now I'll stop before my ultra-low self-esteem kicks in again.....
Now there'll be a couple of announcements...
First of all, Sweetdeily has been kind enough to host DR on her page. Actually it's been up for quite a while now, but I never wound up posting the URL......gomen...^^;;;
well, here it finally is:
http://www.angelfire.com/anime4/honeysweets140/FYfics.html
There's also Meg's Papier-maché Emotions (go read it if you haven't done that yet!!! it's cute!!! ^_^), and there'll prolly be some more.......
Last summer I started building a little web page I nevr finished, but I intend to continue it in near future and start posting extra suff there. Currently iy looks so crappy that I won't even post the link yet, but I'll try cleaning it up before I post the next chapter.....
And now to the important part ^_^: I wanna wish Merry Christmas to Krissie!!! ::glomp:: ::would wish merry christmass to everyone else too unless she was so busy glomping Krissie:: Well, I hope everyone makes it alive through holidays and continues reading this next year too!!!!
Krissie, I love you...........