HI!
This is something different that i tried out and i hope it works alright! It's just a one off as i decide what kind of story to do next. Thanks everyone for reading my other one (Chuck, Morgan and the new spy's) and giving all the great feedback for the last chapter. I'm thinking of a sequel already:) But i'm going away soon so one shots will just fill in the time till i leave and during my time away.

Annnnnyway. This song is by Brooke Fraser, NZ singer :D. And it's called Still in love. I was just listening to it the other day and this idea popped into my head.

It's mostly from Sarahs point of view and it's from season three. I used a couple of the shows lines in there, but i also some stuffs missing like Carinas visit hasn't happened or anything. I hope it's OK though and if you like it i have another one in mind. Which will be a lot fluffier. Although this still has it's fair share of happy Charah. :)

Disclaimer: Do not own Chuck and i do not own this song, like i said Brook Fraser, Still in love.

I'm not hanging on your every word
I'm thriving on my self-sufficiency
I'm not listening to the things I've heard
About me and you

She's back. Back in Burbank, back in the life she tried so hard to forget. The teams back together. Chuck was happy, Casey grunted semi approval and Sarah, well, she didn't know what to think. She hurt. She stung and almost felt numb. She was trying her hardest to not let it bubble to the surface, trying so hard to not pop like a champagne top. When he left at the train station, she froze. How could he do that? She wished so hard to be angry, to slap him, scream at him for hurting her, but she couldn't. Instead she watched him go, then she tried to move on. Had a mission by herself, did things on her own. Tried not to think of him. His voice, his smile, his warm brown eyes and his nerdy yet incredibly endearing nature. She tried to forget.

She met up with Carina while she was away, she spoke to Casey every now and then. Casey knew she wanted to know how he was doing, how training was going. But she didn't, she couldn't bring herself to ask. Carina bombarded her with questions, 'hows the team?' 'Hows Chuck?' 'Why aren't you there now?' Sarah avoided the questions which made Carina suspicious and slightly worried. She saw the sadness in Sarahs eyes and every time Carina spoke about Chuck she could tell Sarah was trying not to listen.

But shes back now. She's spoken to him a little bit. She may have slapped him. It was for the mission she tells her self. Well, a gently slap was for the mission. She may have sneaked in a little extra force she can't quite be sure...

He can tell she's hurt and she knows he's hurting too. So she smiles, she greets him and tries hard to make small talk. When Ellie spots her, Chuck and Casey in the Buy More Ellies eyes immediately brighten with happiness. Sarahs returned! She runs over and gives Sarah a hug. Sarah can't help but sink into the hug a little bit. Ellie always has been so kind to her, and a hug right now is secretly what she needed. Ellie insists she comes for tea, Casey too.

Ellie doesn't know what happened exactly between Chuck and Sarah, other than Chuck screwed up and she's gone, Sarah was gone. That's what Chuck told her anyway. He had the endless plastic containers of cheese balls out, the beard started to grow and Ellie at first, felt for her brother. She was sad for him. But then, she was angry. What the hell was he doing? Sitting around scoffing on cheese balls all day so the crumbs would get stuck in his beard. It was disgusting and not what Bartowskis do. So when Ellie saw Chuck finally get off the couch, shave his beard, she knew something had happened. Sarah must have been back. And she was right. And Chuck was going to get her back.

So the first thing that came into Ellies mind, was a family dinner.

People think there must be something to the way
I talk about you every chance I get
But if I think about you night and day
Doesn't mean I'm ready yet

As soon as she arrives at the dinner in her black skinny jeans and red blouse she gives him a smile when she walks in the door. Chuck sees that it doesn't quite match her normal big ones, the ones she would give him before the train station, before he screwed up. The smile that would reach her eyes, her teeth would show and her eyes would sparkle along just as bright as the smile itself. He gives one back, although his smile seems to fail in size as well.

"Hey." He greets softly and leads her in apartment. "I'm glad you came."

Sarah swallows a little and nods her head. "Me too." I couldn't say no to Ellie.

The dinner goes well, she starts to forget the dark cloud hanging over her. She feels comfortable, back where shes suppose to be. Laughter filling the air, stories from Morgan and his trip to Hawaii. She herself can't help but start to talk again, about him specifically. She starts to feel happy.

"Ohh!" Sarah laughs. "That jelly fish sting was terrible. I remember Chuck racing up the sand tripping over himself to tell me."

Chuck laughs and shakes his head in embarrassment of the story. "Your eyes were like saucers when you saw my leg. You guys should have seen her eyes!"

Sarah nods and gives him a smile. "The rash started on your ankle and went up just before his knee."

"Sarah saved me though." He tells the others, who are just sitting at the table marveling at Chucks and Sarahs interaction. Even Casey can see the spark back, the smile on both of his partners faces.

Sarah nods proudly remembering her driving him home and rubbing vinegar on it for him. She laughs at the memory of his face when he winces with the sting of the vinegar.

Then her phone beeps and she reads the message. It's from Carina.

Hope you work out things with Chuck. Or you can always come visit, the offer still stands xxx

She closes her eyes briefly and runs her hand through her hair. In the last twenty minutes things were good, she had forgotten the pain she felt. She looks back up at the people sitting around. Morgan, Casey, Ellie, Devon and Chuck. Chuck. She looks at him and he's watching her, worry in her eyes. She can't do this, she can't go back to how things were. She made a mistake, she threw herself at him. Told him she wanted him, a life with him. Every night she was away, he invaded her thoughts. He was all she thought about, she could barely sleep. She couldn't let her feelings for him show again. She could feel them aching in her heart. She wanted him so bad.

She quickly stood up from her seat and placed her wine glass back down.

"I just need to go to the bathroom." She said quickly not allowing herself to look at Chuck. She quickly turns on her heel and briskly walked with speed down the hallway. Spotting the bathroom she opens it up, steps inside, shuts it quickly and slides down the door. Maybe she's not ready.

Maybe I am knee-deep in denial
Or maybe I'm just trying to move on
Maybe I should keep away awhile
But if distance is right I'd rather be wrong

I don't love him, I don't love him. She tells herself as she sits glued to the bathroom floor. She's been in there for a little longer than any bathroom trip should take but she can't hop up. She can't go back out there. Thoughts of jumping out of the bathroom window flicker through her mind but she shakes her head. That's ridiculous. Ellie finding out that she escaped a family dinner through their bathroom window doesn't seem quite right. Family. She drops her head back onto the door so it makes a quiet thud. She remembers when Chuck practically told her she was part of his family. They had just found Devons engagement ring he had for Ellie. They gave it back to him and they watched through the window at the proposal. He asked her to come in when he went to congratulate, she said it was family time. He said he knows.

Distance. Maybe that's what she needs. She laughs sadly, she did that. Maybe it wasn't for long enough? Maybe she should just find Carina again, take her up on her offer. Make her drag her out to endless nights in the town. She could throw herself into another mission. A deep undercover mission this time.

There's a soft knock on the door and she hears his soft voice coming through the barrier between them.

"Hey Sarah? Are you OK? Deserts ready.." He attempts to crack a joke. "I think Morgans going to eat you piece."

Wiping her eyes she stands up and straightens out her top. Wait, why am I wiping my eyes? She looks in the mirror and her blue eyes stare back at her, brimming with tears and slightly redden.

She quickly blinks and tries frantically to wave her hand just in front of them to dry her tears.

"Uh, OK coming." She quickly says noticing the shaky voice escaping her own lips.

Dammit, Dammit, Dammit. She stops the attempt at drying her eyes, she'll just avoid his eyes and maybe he won't notice. Maybe she should say she's not feeling well and will head home? That could be a good idea.

Opening the door expecting him to be gone and back at the table she looks up and is slightly taken back when she sees him leaning against the wall. He locks eyes with hers and she forgets about the watery mess she's become. He doesn't though. He sees her red eyes and his heart instantly drops.

"Sarah.."

She quickly drops the eye contact and looks towards the dining room. "If you don't mind I think I might skip desert, I'm not feeling that well.."

"Sarah, ar-"

"I'm fine Chuck." She quickly interrupts and nods her head to the dining room. "We should go."

"No, wait." Chuck quickly says and grabs her lower arm. Her eyes shoot to his gently grip and he can feel her tense from his touch.

"Sorry," He quickly says and bring his hand back to his side. "I just, can we talk?"

Sarah wants to say no. Her Agent Walker is screaming for her to say no. She slipped, she let her guard down. She screwed up. She went with her heart, for once in her life. And it back fired.

She finds herself nodding though, because as much as she knows she should just leave, keep away from him for a while. She really doesn't want to.

'Cos I love the way you're smiling at me
When you know it's true
I'm still in love with you
And I love the way you're really trying
Not to let me see
You're still in love with me too

He leads her into his room and she walks in and casually looks around why he tells Ellie they will be out soon. Casey was on his way home when Chuck came out and his eyes widen in surprise when Casey stops him and in a low mumble, tells him to not hurt Walker. Chuck swallows, slightly intimidated by the big guy and gives a quick nod.

When he's back in the room Sarahs sitting on his bed, hands on her lap. She looks up at him and he beams his smile at her. He knows it's probably not the lightest conversation their going to have but Ellie insisted on sending him in with two bowls of lemon souffle and he couldn't help but smile at the gesture.

"Ellie insisted."

Sarah finds herself staring at his smile and she adverts her gaze up to his eyes. She watches him for too long, and she hopes he can't read what she's thinking. That she loves his smile. That she loves his warm brown eyes. That she loves him. He's still smiling when he walks over and she scolds herself, she can't be thinking this. She gives him a slight nod of the head.

"Yum."

He passes her the bowl and sits down beside her. He can feel the closeness as his shoulder lightly brushes hers and he tries to hide the emotions on his face. The love and complete awe written all over it. She looks beautiful. Her hair, her eyes, the blush on her cheeks, her lips. Everything. Everything about her he loves.

He sees her lips curve up slightly and he wonders if she notices the look in his eyes. Quickly scolding himself for staring he looks down at his souffle and digs at it with his fork.

I am way to proud to verbalize my feelings
And you are way to mean if you just let this brew
It's a complicated hand that you've been dealing
Time to win me over: fold and make your move

She knows she won't be starting the much needed talk. She won't be gushing out all her feelings. It's not her. Sarah Walker doesn't do that. She's never been one who talks about her emotions and what she feels inside. Chuck is though. He's very good at it, it scares her a bit when he's so open with her. She also loves it. But why isn't he saying anything?

She knows its not the easiest conversation to start, where do they start?

In silence they sit and twirl their forks in their bowls and Sarah finds it surprising that Chuck hasn't said anything yet. It's very unlike him. She finds herself though, ready for the talk. Wanting him to start it. Tell her why he stayed. What he was thinking? She wants them to work it out, she wants him to tell her that everything will be OK. That they will be OK.

Chuck feels the words rushing through his head. All the things he want's to say. He feels like his brain is a quickly increasing dictionary. Words, words and words. He almost feels dizzy.

He places his bowl on the bed and turns so he's facing her. Here i go.

"I'm so sorry Sarah." He says so softly that she can't lift her eyes from the souffle.

"I know it looks like I left you at the station, so I could become a spy instead of being with you. But that's not why I chose to stay, I swear."

She takes it in. Lets the words wash over, she moves her palms around the bowl and looks up at him. The honesty in his eyes. The love.

Smooth some calm over this situation
I can't get past the way I feel for you
It's the little things that make this worth the effort
It's the small, little, insignificant things you do

Chuck feels slightly nervous when he sees her head tilt up to look at him. He's happy the tears have dried up but the slight red rims still make his heart ace. It's hard to see the woman you love cry, especially when you know it's your fault. He pictures her face at the train station. He pictures it when she gives herself over to him, gives him his ticket and tells him his false name. And just before she kisses him, he saw the love in her eyes. He was sure it was love. It was warm, kind and she looked so brave. There she was quitting her life as a spy for him. He needs to explain what was going through his head.

"But I couldn't run away with you. It's not that I didn't want to because I did, of course I did. But having the intersect, all the abilities and everything. I, I knew that I could help save the world. I could help people. And your confidence you always had in me, you know? You told me that being a spy is choosing something bigger. Putting aside all the personal feelings for the greater good."

Sarah feels her eyes starting to fill with tears again, she can't help the love she feels for him. The pounding of her heart trying to claw it's way out of her chest to him. He was a hero, he always was. It was such a Chuck thing to do. To help people, save the world. Putting his life on the line for others.

Chuck puts his arm back on the bed, "And I," He pauses when he feels a sludge on his fingers and a cool liquid dripping on his hand. "Oh god." He says as he lifts his hand up sticky with lemon souffle and ice cream.

Sarah watched his hand come up and the ice cream dripping down his wrist. She can't help but laugh lightly at Chuck, as his face turns red and he looks for a towel to wipe his hand on. Her smile reaches it's full potential. She can't help it. The little, silly, random things he does, makes her love him even more.

"I'll ah, I'll be right back." He says quickly and dashes into the bathroom, inwardly telling himself off for being so clumsy.

Sarah picks up his bowl and puts it on his table when he's left and she sits back down finishing hers off. Ellie is a great cook, it's very nice.

Racing back in he halts at the door and slows down, "Sorry about that." He says giving her an embarrassed smile.

"It's OK."

Chuck nods and sits back down and Sarah decides before she lets him say anything more she should speak.

"What you did was right Chuck." She can see he's about to speak so she quickly continues. "And, I, I know it was a good decision. You have so much potential Chuck and I know you will be a great spy. I was just.." She tilts her head and gives him a half smile. "I made an impulse decision, and I got hurt. I was hurt, angry but mostly disappointed in myself for, you know making such a rash decision."

Chuck shakes his head in guilt. "I never wanted to hurt you."

"I know."

"And I just, I chose to become a spy for you know Ellie, my family, my friends and.. you." He says reaching for her hand not even bothering taking notice of the slight widening of her eyes.

"I wanted to be a spy with you, saving the world with you, so we could be together...for real. I wanted to be that hero you told me i was. You believed in me more than anyone in my life Sarah and i thank you so much for that. You were always supporting me, giving me confidence and i wanted to show you how much you gave to me. I wanted to be a spy to help save the world." He smiles. "With you."

That make me love the way you're glancing, hoping
When you know it's true
I'm still in love with you
And I love that I'm barely coping
When you let me see
You're still in love with me to

She sees the hope in his eyes, the look that's begging her to give him another chance. She looks down at his hand over hers and she feels instantly warm. She looks back up to his eyes and she wants to run her hand down his face, she needs to touch him more.

"I love you and I, I always have." He speaks out and he is surprised with the confidence portrayed in his voice.

She taps her foot on the ground, not knowing what to do with the words that roll so smoothly from his tongue. The honesty, the warmth and love behind them. She can barely breath. She knows how he's felt about her before, she finds him easy to read. But just hearing those words causes the butterflies to start. Stroking her thumb along the back of his palm she takes a small shaky breath. She is going to do it again. She's going to give her heart again. She stops just before she's about to say anything. She realizes that she never took her heart back. It's always belonged to him.

"I'm in love with you Chuck."

She says it ever so softly that she's sure she's never heard her voice so emotional. She can't believe she's said it. The looks he gives her when he hears her say it is almost enough for her heart to stop beating completely. His lips curl up into his Bartowski smile and she can't help but mirror it.

"Hey Chuck, Sarah I'm off now!" Morgan calls from the other side of the door and Chuck doesn't let his eyes off Sarah.

"Bye buddy!" He quickly calls and prays that there will be no more interruptions.

"Is Sarah there?" Morgan calls again and Chuck can't help but give a frustrated chuckle.

Sarah turns her head towards the close door, with an amused smile. "I am Morgan, good night."

"Oh good! OK, see you!" He calls and footsteps let them know he's gone.

"God-" Chuck starts but gets stopped by the soft lips of one Sarah Walker. His eyes open in surprise then he quickly wraps his arms around her waist to pull her closer. He is never ever going to let her go.

Sarah can't help but smile into the kiss as it starts to heat up, she feels the bowl still on her lap but expertly places it onto the ground, never breaking her lips from Chucks.

She's never felt so happy. Of course she couldn't go back. She could never go back to just partners, friends. She just needed to go forward, with him. Her skin starts to cover in goosebumps at his gently touch. His soft hand cupping his face as the other lightly strokes past the skin where her top as slightly ridden up. She gently pushes him down on his bed.

Chuck races his hand gently over her arms when she pushes him down but they stop when he feels goosebumps on them. Pulling away from the kiss, his eyes filled with concern.

"Oh god, you have goosebumps, are you OK? Let me get you a jacket."

Sarah laughs at his worry and shakes her head. "There not cold goosebumps.." She says shyly.

"They aren't?" His voice fill with adorable confusion.

"No," She smiles and bites her bottom lip softly. "There from you."

"From me?"

Sarah laughs and shakes her head. "It's a good thing." She says and leans in to kiss him again.

Chuck forgets what he was talking about as her lips are on his again. He can't help the constant grin plastered on his face during the kiss. She was amazing, wonderful. She gave him another chance and he's never felt luckier. He will never mess this up, ever. The woman of his dreams is kissing him, on his bed in his arms. He pulls he down on top of him as her hands roam under his t shirt. He feels the tingle start from his toe and runs straight up his body. Sarah smiles into the kiss and she knows what he's going to say.

"I..completely..know what ..you mean ..now." He says between kisses as his body fills with goosebumps from her soft touch.

In love, still in love with
In love, still in love with
In love, still in love with you

Yeah so that's it! I hope it was OK, just a bit random i guess. I tried to make it link with the song but it turned out to be very hard! i often read the great song fics on here and i'm always so impressed!They are so great! So this might be a bit of an amateur ! It was tough! Thanks for reading :) Reviews are fab! :)