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For the hundereth time he pushed me away. He keeps telling me that he doesn't want me. Not now not ever. He even slapped me. I guess I can't do anything about it. I tried for a year. And he actually gave me hope. He was giving in after he struggled for some time. He always gave in.

Not for the last month though.

Whole month. He is much more in denial than ever. He's avoiding me. He's running away every time he sees me. Fuck, he acts like we don't know each other. I don't know why. What have I done to him he grew to hate me so much. I can't remember anything.

Or maybe... he was always so polite to everyone. Maybe through that year he tried to delicately show me he doesn't want me but now he is tired of this whole situation and desperate to get rid of me...

It hurts.

Serves me right. I made him upset. I had made him suffer. This beautiful creature was crying because of me. I wish I could suffer myself instead of him. I felt pain too back then. I wish I felt some more if it could prevent his pain.

I heared someone screaming. And then I saw Ritsu on the way of a truck. It was my fault. He was trying to get away from me and didn't see it coming.

I had to save him. Without a second of thinking, my body moving almost on it's own I ran to him and pushed him away. He was safe. Good.

Then the truck hit me.

I felt terrible pain through all my body. And nothing else. I found myself on the concrete looking into a pair of emerald eyes. Only one person I ever knew has such beautiful eyes.

'Ritsu...' I whispered. Tears were up in his wide opened, shocked eyes. 'Don't cry.' I tried to smile at him but I started to feel numb. I forced my mouth to say two more things. 'I'm sorry.' One more. I hardly felt my body at all. 'I... love... you...' He started to cry. He was crying so much I wanted to comfort him but even if I could he wouldn't like it. I closed my eyes. My lids were much too heavy to keep them opened. All I coul feel was unbearable pain and saddnes. I was fading in the darkness. I hoped that Ritsu would be happy. Without me he could be. Finally. Right?

Good luck Ritsu. I wish you happiness with someone who would love you as much as I do.

Suddenly I felt very light. I opened my eyes and understood everything. I was looking from the above at my bloody body, poeople around me and Ritsu. He was still right next to me gripping my hand.

I was dead.

I smiled.

Now, Ritsu, don't cry anymore. That's the best what could happened. Now you won't have to cope with me and I will always be right behind you, protecting you.

Don't cry.

I love you.

I almost cried writing it. I actually killed my favourite character!

Anyway, thank you for reading, please leave a coment! :) I'm thinking about making a good ending in the next chapter but I'm not sure about it. How do you want it? Please let me know! :) I need it ;)