CPOV

Under the impulse of the moments before I decided that I'm going to teach them how to behave during Church services. "I decided that we are going over how to behave in church since you obviously don't know how to. Any ideas?" I asked. "Be quiet" Emmett said the obvious and looked at Edward who studied the ground in shame while I wrote it on the flip chart which I bought. Bella giggled. This isn't something to make fun of, not even for Bella. I'm going to ask her. "Tell us another, Bella." I said rebukingly. "Ugh...no singing loudly if you can't hit the right note?" She said trying not to laugh as she thought about Emmett. I look at her sternly but nodded. Alice laughed quietly about her being scolded. "Alice, what about you?" I said with a reproving look. "I…ugh…" This wasn't something she could foresee. She could just see the outcome if she says something but she had to think about what to say. "Err... no sexual activities during church." Alice said finally. "Good. Although I have to add something to that statement. No leaving during church service to do it." I said looking at Emmett and Rosalie. "No going to the priest when he's handing out the communion wafer. Well, this doesn't take effect on Bella obviously." Rosalie said remembering her husband. I suppressed a grin as I thought about the look on the priests face and nodded. "Try to join in the prayers and don't laugh." Edward said quietly "Well, there are a few more like using the holy water when you enter the church, pay attention to the priest or don't mess with emotions. Any questions?" I asked even if I don't know if asking that is such a good idea. "Why are they handing out wafers?" Emmett asked. I began explaining it to him.

BPOV

My thoughts drifted off when Carlisle started explaining. I thought about different things as my eyes dropped. I drifted into sleep.

I opened my eyes and everywhere was a bright light. It was blinding me so I had to blink a few time so that I could see. Well, I didn't see much more through because there wasn't anything beside that bright light. What is this about? Suddenly a voice started talking. A deep and calm voice. "Hello Isabella. Don't be scared. You won't be hurt in anyway." The voice said kindly. I couldn't help but believe it. Who ever belongs to the voice must be very nice. "Excuse me for being rude but who are you?" I asked politely. I was trying not to offend who ever this was but I was curious.

Again this deep voice talked. "People are having many names for me but I'm the one you know as God." Wow, I was talking to God right now. I think I read about a woman which had dreams of God. She wrote that he told her about her task to fulfil and she wrote that you just have to let it happen. If you're getting a task then you should try to fulfil it. I hope I can do this. "What can I do for you, Lord?" I asked. "Your newest friends with one exception lost their faith in me. The one called Carlisle does believe in me. They visited me today but just because Carlisle made them to go." God answered. "Do you want me to get them to believe in you again? Do they have a soul? Was I right? Why me? I know that I'm not the best Catholic." I looked down in shame. "Don't be ashamed. You made a mistake. Mistakes can be forgiven if you ask for forgiveness. You don't have to be ashamed for making mistakes as long as you regret them. To your questions. Yes, I want you to tell them about my word. They do have a soul. The choices they make are what matters. Not what they are. I have chosen you because your the one who is close to them and believes in me. You're not as bad as you think. Keep on." The voice was fading with every word.

"You can go." I heard Carlisle saying. Suddenly I was wide awake. Never ever in my life I would have guessed that he would choose me. In fact I never ever thought that he actually know me let alone visit me in my dreams or even give me a task seeing as I just a few years ago started believing. I jumped from the couch out of Edwards grasp and was running to the only rood I knew from in that house. I almost tripped twice but I made it there without being hurt. I started praying and I promised God to try.

As I finished I stood up and turned to the door when I saw that Carlisle and Edward followed me. They were looked really confused. "Carlisle I need to talk to you in private. In real private. It's important. Edward, I'm sorry but I can't tell you. You'll understand when I will tell you some time. Trust me." I said. Carlisle and I went to my house because there was noone as Charlie was fishing.

CPOV

"What's the matter? What is this about?" I asked Bella. I was really curious about the matter when she told Edward that she couldn't tell him. I mean they are a couple they usually don't have secrets. "When you were explaining the thing with the communion bread to Emmett I fell asleep. Sorry about that but I didn't sleep so well last night and I already knew it." Bella apologized. "It's okay as long it doesn't happen again. You didn't join to sleep, did you? Anyhow I assume you dreamed something. What was it about?" I asked curiously. I wasn't mad at her for sleeping as she knew this from attending church for a couple of years. "God visited me in my dream. Actually there was just bright light and then a voice started talking. The voice was so nice. It was deep, calm, kind and warm. I wasn't scared at all. Oh, Carlisle, I think I was quite rude to God." Bella said. Tears were flowing down her face by now. I enveloped her in a hug. I can't image her being rude towards God. Actually to be rude at all. Why would she believe this? "Shh. Surely you weren't. I can't think that you could be rude even if you wanted to. Please don't cry, honey." I smoothed her. She calmed down. "Now tell me about it." "He was so kind and told me not to be afraid and then I asked 'Excuse me for being rude but who are you?' That was so rude. Why couldn't I just have waited?" Tears treated to fall again. She apologized for being rude so that's not rude. "Oh, honey. You weren't rude. It wasn't rude at all." I calmed her. "Are you sure?" I nodded. "Okay. Well then he answered 'People are having many names for me but I'm the one you know as God.' I was speechless. I mean you don't talk to God everyday, do you? Anyhow I remembered that I have read about a woman which also had dreams of God. She wrote that he told her about her task which she should try to fulfil. So I asked. 'What can I do for you, Lord?' God answered. 'Your newest friends with one exception lost their faith in me. The one called Carlisle does believe in me. They visited me today but just because Carlisle made them to go.' " I interrupted her. He knows me? Me a vampire? "He knows my name? He knows me? Wow, this incredible. Never ever would I have thought. I'm sorry. Please go ahead." " Yeah, I know this feeling. Anyhow I asked then. 'Do you want me to get them to believe in you again? Do they have a soul? Was I right? Why me? I know that I'm not the best Catholic.' I was quite ashamed at that moment. I mean I had confessed to God that I'm not a good Catholic. Everyone would be ashamed, wouldn't they? But I was rude, Carlisle. It was rude to interrupt him like that and then ask so much questions. That's so rude." Bella sobbed. I rubbed small circles on her back till she calmed down. I let my mind wander about what she said. Surely it's kind of rude to interrupt someone but God is forgiving. "I think he forgave you that you interrupted him. God is very forgiving." I told her my thoughts. "I don't think so. Well, God actually answered me. He is so kind. 'Don't be ashamed. You made a mistake. Mistakes can be forgiven if you ask for forgiveness. You don't have to be ashamed for making mistakes as long as you regret them. To your questions. Yes, I want you to tell them about my word. They do have a soul. The choices they make are what matters. Not what they are. I have chosen you because you're the one that is close to them and believes in me. You're not as bad as you think. Keep on.' The voice was fading with every word and then I woke up." Bella finished the story. I knew that we have a soul. "Did you pay attention to what God said? He said 'Mistakes can be forgiven if you ask for forgiveness'. If you think that you're not forgiven for being rude than you can ask for it. Well, if you need help with your task or if you just need an open ear you know where I am." I said to confirm my answer from before and to show her that I will help her if I can. "How… how do I ask for forgiveness?" Bella asked not knowing. Now I see the problem. "Like you ask everyone else. You can ask something as simple like 'Please forgive me God.' or you can say a prayer or you can go to confession or you can talk to God, explain him why and ask him to forgive you. You have to know God is like a caring parent he will be among the first to forgive you before anyone else does if you are sincere about having done something wrong and often you'll see that the only one who haven't forgiven you is yourself. Also you have to know that God wants you to know that you are forgiven, Satan wants you to feel guilty. He knows your feelings of guilt keep you (in your mind) separated from God." I explained softly what my father told me hundreds of years ago. "Thank you. I have so much to learn. I think I need to know more about that to be able to help someone. Do you think Pastor Weber would help me?" Bella asked me. I nodded. "I will ask him next time I see him." Bella planned to do next Sunday. "What punishment did they received for their behavior?" Bella asked me. "Well, I forbade Emmett and Rosalie to have any activities that include a bed and two not dressed people for a week in order to learn how to contain themselves. It will punish Emmett enough to count for the communion wafer incident. I took Alice credit cards for a few days for calling Edward in her thoughts. From Jasper I took his books for the incident with the couple and to stay fair I had to take Edwards Volvo keys. But since he did regret it and the shame was already punishment he will get his keys back the day after tomorrow." I repeated what I said while she slept. We talked a bit more and the we bid goodbye and I ran home.

If we do have a soul and are allowed to join heaven then I should pick up praying again. Also I have to ask God to forgive me for not praying for years. Suddenly I changed directions. In a matter of seconds I stood in front of the church once again. Solemnly I entered the church and blessed myself with holy water. I randomly pick a pew and sat down. I let myself get some peace before I slid of the pew onto the kneeler to pray a prayer of supplication.

I prayed to God to forgive me. To forgive all the sins that I made through the years. I prayed for the poor souls in purgatory. I prayed for my wife and my children. I prayed for Bella to find the right way to help. I prayed for everyone who I couldn't rescue. For the poor. For everyone who is troubled to choose the right way. And then I finally let my emotions come over me. I sobbed into my hands. I jumped when someone laid his hand on my shoulder to comfort me. It takes a lot to make a vampire jump. I didn't look up to see who this is because I knew. Firstly because my father used to be often in the church also and then because of the scent. I calmed myself down, the hand on my shoulder helped a lot. Just to know that someone cared.

I pretended to wish away some tears as I looked up. "Thank you, Father John." I thanked. "You're welcome, son. Do you want to talk about what ever is troubling you?" Father John asked. "I made a big mistake, Father John… I didn't pray in years. I thought… I thought it was no use so I … I just stopped… But recently I discovered that… I was wrong… I should have known better. If… If I wouldn't have been so stubborn, I would have taken my children to church and … and told them that… this is important… I'm so sorry. I really should have known… with my knowledge and faith." I told him my guilt knowing that God probably has already forgiven me. "You can still try to teach them. You just keep making them go in church on Sundays and perhaps they grow to like it. You're regretting it so God has already forgiven you. But with which knowledge and faith should you have known better?" Father John asked. "I'm the son of a pastor." I confessed.

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A bit of a cliff but I don't think that any more would fit in this chapter. I know it's kind of short but I can't help it.

I'm still sorry for any mistakes, because English is still not my mother language. German is. But please tell me about my mistakes so I can get better.

Also I'm still sorry if there are any similar or almost similar things to another fanfiction. I must had to remember some things from reading it but forgot that it was from another fanfiction. I'm truly sorry if that has happened or will happen in the future.

I'm still not trying to offend anyone and I can assure still that I'm Catholic myself. I'm even an altar server. So no offense!

Well, I hope you enjoyed reading this. I certainly enjoyed writing this. I would love to get a review. Even if it's just a tiny one. Just one.