Metamorphosis by mishasalvatore

Summary: After Edward leaves Bella is left in a catatonic state. But a after a tragedy leaves her shaken will she finally give up on her life or find the courage to pick up the pieces back again.

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or vampire diaries. I don't own Damon *sob*.

Authors note: I really do owe an apology to all my readers… sorry for the very late update.

Chapter 13:

BPOV:

Bella opened her eyes a little only to shut them close and realize the heavy pounding in her head. What the hell. Her head felt like it could burst into two, and despite having what she knew was a good night's sleep she felt really tired. She felt a hand wrapped around at her waist and pulling her close, she opened her eyes to find herself staring at Damon's perfectly sculpted chest. She could smell him being so close to him, her head rested along the place where his heart should be- where his heart was… beating. She tried to vaguely remember how she could have got here, she realized that this was Damon's room, but she was in no hurry to look around for now her entire attention was consumed by Damon's peacefully asleep face.

She traced her finger down his cheek; he really slept like a baby. Bella wondered at how angel-like his face looked when she knew that he was the entire opposite, maybe this is what he looked without the mask of anger and betrayal on his face. At her touch he wrapped her closer and nuzzled at her hair. Bella had to admit this was feeling pretty good; his arm slithered up and down her back it, through the silky material of the black shirt she was wearing. Wait what? Shirt? Where was her dress? At this moment Bella's mind rationalized that she was in bed with a very shirtless Damon, herself wearing nothing but a shirt, his shirt? What on earth happened last night? Bella sat right up on the bed causing Damon to awake too.

"Bella, you okay?" he asked still sleepy and somewhat worried.

"Yeah I'm fine… but" the rest of Bella's words were lost in the terrible headache that followed next, she clutched at her hair and groaned.

"You're hung over, no need to worry, I'll fix that with some coffee" Damon got up to leave, his jeans now hung really low in his hips, reminding her exactly why she so aggravated.

"Damon we..."

"We need to talk, what the hell happened last night, why can't I remember anything? It's pretty common if you have had an excess of alcohol, and for the first time" Damon finished her sentence in his typical snarky way, rolling his eyes, causing Bella to do the same.

"I wanted to know why I'm in your bed, wearing your shirt?" she knew what she was going to hear, she was now angry at Damon, sure she did feel something for him lately, but that didn't mean that she wanted to lose her virginity to him in a drunken stupor. Like the many girls he would have brought home from a bar. She clutched at her hair tighter than before and looked at him with a hurt expression causing him to recoil. He turned to leave before looking at her seriously and replying

"If you're wondering about my shirt, I didn't want to add about you getting your vomit and alcohol all over it… and if I carried you home drunk you're dear cousin would have driven a stake through my heart, on that note you should call her and tell her I didn't touch you…at least not in that way" he said suggestively wagging his eyebrows.

"I'll fix you some breakfast while I'm on it" he said before disappearing downstairs.

Bella didn't know how to feel, the anger she felt towards Damon was baseless, but what was that other feeling, she should be glad, she was that she didn't do something stupid while drunk… but then why this feeling… why did she feel disappointed. Did she want Damon? She blushed at that, didn't most women want him, and there was that immense feeling of contentment, it felt so good being with him. But was she ready for this again. Welcoming him into her life, was that a good idea. Bella remained occupied with this as she got into the shower and was snapped out only to realize that she had nothing to wear. She had no choice but to raid Damon's wardrobe, she looked around to see that the majority of his clothes were black , she selected an open neck black t-shirt that reached somewhere midway down her thighs, and kept falling of her shoulder. She let out a sigh as she smelled it, the scent was musky, dark and powerful, sexy… it smelled like Damon.

She looked around the room carefully, and smiled, it was like him too, dark, mysterious, but it seemed human. It looked lived in; it had his mark on him.

She hurried down to find Damon making breakfast for her.

"Pancakes?" she smiled at him.

"Yupp" he said popping the 'p' grinning at her after seeing her choice of outfit.

"Had to borrow, and do you always wear black."

"Better black than… pink" he replied wrinkling his nose. Bella had to burst out laughing at that, she didn't like pink either.

"And I know you don't like pink either", right guess.

"You seem to know a lot about me"

"I'm trying"

"About last night… I'm sorry I reacted that way, I… I didn't expect that…"

"Bella, nobody expects me to be the good guy you shouldn't too"

Bella couldn't stop herself, she found her feet move out of their own accord and went to wrap her arms around Damon from the back as he was cooking.

"I just didn't want it to be this way when… I didn't want us to be a drunken one night stand"

"Are you suggesting something Bella" he asked in a seductive voice turning around.

"Maybe, but my pancakes are getting cold" she said playing along.

Bella noticed that Damon sat down to eat with her and even took a bite of the pancake.

"How… how can you eat?"

"Because I want to… and because the pancakes are good."

"No, I mean if you're a vampire… how you can eat human food"

"My body functions pretty much normally, I can eat, sleep, unless I get my daily dose of blood." He pointed to a freezer which Bella knew contained blood bags.

"It was nice having you sleep beside me…" she finally confessed out loud.

"It was nice… you're so warm, and not ice-cold and you actually slept…"

"Unlike Edward?"

"Yeah cold-ones are supposed to never sleep… Edward used to spent the night looking at me, and they have rock-hard ice cold skin"

"Looking at you the entire night… creepy… and the sex must have been terribly uncomfortable"

Bella almost choked on the coffee Damon made for her.

"What!"

"What?" he looked at her surprised.

"Damon… well I… I'm a virgin" she said blushing a very deep shade of red.

"Well it's good you didn't hook up with the sparkly ex… I think…" he leaned in closer so that she could feel his breath on her "…you need a real man"

Bella couldn't help herself and burst into laughter.

"At least that got you to laugh" Damon said with an adorable pout.

"I like being with you Damon." She said seriously, looking into the blue eyes she liked so much.

"You don't know many things about me yet"

"Tell me… I don't plan on running away"

They were interrupted with Damon's phone ringing.

"What's up little brother?"

"Here" he threw the phone to Bella.

"Hello"

It was Elena's voice that answered.

"Bella where are you, I've been worried sick"

"I'm fine, I'm with Damon"

"You spent the night at the boarding house."

Elena's tone sounded almost accusatory.

"Yes I did Elena, and I'm with Damon you got to quit worrying so much, I'll be home in a while okay"

"You're with Damon, that's exactly why I'm so concerned"

"I can take care of myself Elena" she finally snapped before hanging up.

To Bella Elena's reaction seemed a bit exaggerated, this whole town was swarming with vampires, at least she knew Damon wouldn't hurt her, she trusted him.

"Why is she acting so strange?"

Damon had got strangely silent.

"I snapped Jeremy's neck" he said quietly

"You did what?" she shouted. But then...

"He's still alive"

"He was wearing the gilbert ring… the wearer comes back to life if the cause of the death was a supernatural creature.

That was just too crazy…come back to life.

"Why did you do this to Jeremy?" she asked sadly

"Because I was angry at Elena… I know it's not a wise comeback but, I couldn't think of anything else, I was…stupid" he concluded.

"I… I don't know what to say"

"It's not just Jeremy; I'm guilty of taking a lot of lives… I'm not proud of some…some I don't regret. And I will not regret doing it again if there's a need for it."

Bella just remained frozen there, so many lives, so many families, destroyed? Ripped apart? Damon did feel guilty, only for those killings that he thought were unnecessary. What about the rest? Were they not human?

A part of Bella also rationalized that once Edward had been the same and she had been unconditionally in love with him.

But Damon had killed for fun; he had killed just to release his frustration. What should she do! She had felt absolutely safe and comfortable with him last night… all the time. But what about the others, she was divided. This time she had fell for a real vampire, even if the bloodlust was not as strong as Edward's, Damon was a killer. But she liked him… she didn't know what to do.

DPOV:

"I guess there are a couple of Elena's clothes in Stefan's room, you can borrow them, and I'll take you home"

"Yeah… okay"

Damon noticed Bella seemed to be lost in lost, and knew that his confessions are what she was thinking about. Damon wanted very much to make another confession to her, that he was falling in love with her, but he wanted Bella to be sure about him.

Bella was silent all the way to Elena's house, Damon wanted very much to stop the car right there tell her how much he loved her and how much he wanted to be with her. But he knew Bella would want to make her own decisions and he would let her do just that. There was also the nagging feeling in the back of his mind that somehow, he was just not good enough… he hated it when Katherine made him feel that way, and Elena too… but with Bella nobody had to tell to tell him, he knew that Bella deserved a lot better and this time Damon Salvatore would let Bella decided for herself. And this time whatever was her decision would be his decision too.

"Thanks for… last night Damon" Bella said awkwardly before hurrying into the house, he found Elena waiting for Bella at the porch eyeing him with an angry look.

"Stay away from her Damon, she's been through enough!"

"That's for Bella to decide, but you have my word… if Bella doesn't want me around, I'll leave her alone, in fact I'll leave you all and this town alone"

"What do you mean?" she looked shocked.

"I'll leave town Elena"

BPOV:

"Bella are you alright" Bella heard Elena call out to her as she entered her bedroom.

"Elena I'm just fine… Damon actually took care of me... he"

"He cannot be trusted Bella"

"Elena I think I know whom I need to trust and whom I don't. I'm not a child; I've had enough babying to last a lifetime… I don't want anyone telling me what to do. And as for Damon, he would never hurt me" she said emphasising 'never'.

She didn't know why she felt the need to defend Damon, was she actually feeling protective towards him?

Elena looked surprised for a moment and then sat by her on the bed.

"I know you've been through a lot because of the Cullen's, but Bella I just want the best for you… and yes I do agree Damon acts differently when it's come to you… he … he told me he'll leave town if you don't want him here"

That took a while to sink in… why? Why would Damon do that? He lived here… why would anything Bella wanted matter to him especially someone like Damon.

"I'll be in my room Bella, call me if you need anything okay"

Did Damon have feelings for her? Was that the reason then? Bella couldn't deny that she liked Damon too, she couldn't deny that despite whatever Damon was he would never do what Edward did to her, she couldn't deny that despite everything she loved being with Damon. He made her laugh, he made her feel like a whole different person, and he made her happy. She never felt inferior in his company; it always felt right, hand in hand, side by side. She came with a lot of baggage, but Damon wouldn't care less about it. So should she care about Damon's past?

Bella let out a deep sigh, she would go crazy. She should talk to Elena about this.

"Elena?"

She walked to Elena's room to find it completely deserted.

"Elena!" Bella begin to panic now and rushed to the living room. Elena was nowhere.

She ran into Jenna as she rushed out of the house

"Bella, wassup, what happened" she asked concerned.

"Jenna did someone come in, did you invite someone over in the morning."

"Yeah I guess so, this guy he said he was Elena's friend, but he left when I told him she was not home…"

That was enough for Bella to hear

"What happened?"

"I'll see you later Aunt Jenna" she said and ran out of the house.

Elena had definitely been taken by someone; she didn't pick up her phone. Bella was worried, she didn't know what to do… she dialled the number that next came to her mind.

"Hello Damon!"