This is the squeal for "Longing" I am so sorry you guys had to wait this long for it, but I have been super busy with work and couldn't think of how to begin here. But I was hit with inspiration at work tonight and I couldn't wait to get home and write it. :) A huge shout out to my wonderful beta reader doccubus21. :)

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We make our own fate :

Everything was different now. Bo confessed her love for me, and I for her. Though I showed her with actions rather than words, I hope she understood my feelings because in that moment I couldn't speak. After hearing Bo's confession, my words were so choked up in my throat all I could do was show her how much she means to me. I made love to Bo; it was amazing! I was doing something that rarely happened, I woke before Bo, she was always awake before me. I am glad I woke first however because, I rarely get a chance to watch Bo sleep. I am cradled in her arms, my head on her chest. As I watch her sleeping, I am over whelmed with nothing but pure love for her.

Our love is forbidden. With Bo being a succubus, we are far from being a monogamous couple. But somehow with Bo, everything seems possible. Our love goes against all fae laws and traditions; fae are forbidden to love humans. In fact The Dark had one of their own killed under human law for loving a human. But, Bo is different; she all but spits on fae law and tradition. I guess that is one of the many perks of being unaligned. She does what she wants, when she wants and doesn't really have to answer to anyone other than Trick, but he is her grandfather and the blood king above anything else. She has a direct line to infinite power, for her to control. She is even more amazing than anyone could ever know, she has stepped into my life and everything is turned upside down. I can't ever have enough reasons to just touch her.

XxxX.

I truly don't wish for Nadia to wake up. But she has to in order for me to be free. Unlike many of the others wards of the Ash, that have to serve until their death, my servitude is different. In the fine print of my contract it says, if I find a cure for Nadia then we can go free and back to our human lives. But if Nadia was to wake up everything would change between me and Bo. I would have to take care of Nadia, support her as she adjusts to life after five years in a coma.

I would have to stay away from Bo. My breathing hitches in my throat. I try to breath but the thought of losing Bo, even for just a couple months, is tearing me apart inside and out! I am sitting up on the bed now. I snake my fingers interweaving them with Bo's. My breathing starts to slow back down. In the minutes that I had sat panicking, Bo had started to awaken next to me.

"Lauren?" She says as she sits up squeezing my hand, I squeeze her hand in return to assure that I am right here.

"You ok babe?" Bo asks in a sleep thickened voice.

"I am fine baby go back to sleep."

I feel her hand tighten around mine. I know she knows, that something is wrong. Hell even I know something is wrong to have a small panic attack over mere thoughts of losing Bo. This isn't like me, I am, well I was, always cool and collected. That is until about a year ago, when an unruly unaligned succubus walked into my life.

"Lauren you need to talk to me." Her voice more awake now and I know there is no way I can avoid this conversation.

"It's okay, I just had a small panic attack, that's all." I try to manage a small smile for her. Her fingers leave mine and I instantly miss the contact of her skin against mine. She wraps her arms around me and pulls me closer to her.

"A panic attack? Lauren that's serious!"

"No it isn't." I try and convince her that it is nothing and she doesn't have to worry.

"Lauren I may not be a doctor but, I know panic attacks are not something to be ignored," Bo says, voice totally serious.

I lean back into her embrace and accept the comfort I feel there. When I am in Bo's arms I feel like I am home, it is where I belong, now and forever.

"You're right Bo, they are not something to mess with, but millions of people everyday suffer from them so I am goi-"

I dash from my bed, and from Bo's embrace, rushing to the bathroom. I suddenly felt sick, which isn't like me at all. "Lauren!" I hear my name being called. I know Bo is only a few steps behind me. The next thing I know, I am losing everything that is still left in my stomach from the night before, which isn't much. I am mainly throwing up bile now as my stomach convulses over and over again.

I feel Bo take my hair out of my face and it starts to calm me down immediately, as she starts rubbing my back in a soothing manner.

I finally finish throwing up. I turn around and wrap my arms around her and feel her pull me into a tight embrace.

"Lauren, please tell me what's wrong, baby?" Bo says with worry in her voice.

"I don't know I just got sick all of a sudden." It's all I can croak out, my throat feels like its on fire. My head is spinning and pounding like I have been hit with a sledge hammer across my head!

"Bed" I barely manage to say. I feel myself being lifted from my spot on the floor as Bo takes me to our bed.

Tbc...

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