Dear Annie,

I'm going into the arena again. I'm so sorry I can't stay with you.

Haymitch promised me you would get this and I trust him. My sweetheart Annie, I wish I had the chance to say goodbye, to tell you just how much I love you. Because I do, I love you more than every drop of water in the ocean, more than every star, more than life. I love you.

And I wish I could have had so many more years to tell you everyday for the rest of my life. I want to spend my life with you, I want to wake up every day next to you, go to bed with you every night. I want to see you in a beautiful white dress, smiling as you promise to spend the rest of out lives together. I want us to be parents and grow old together. I want to make you happy.

I can't do that right now. It beaks my heart every time I tell you I have to go back to the Capitol but I can't stop from hurting you because if I refuse I'll lose the only person I really care about. I wish you hadn't fallen in love with me, that I can't remain faithful. I'm going to try to stop that now, bring down the people who make me hurt you. I never want to cause you pain.

In the Games, the Capitol will try to kill me, I know that. I don't have to be the Victor for a second time around; I have to get out to another place. The less I tell you, the more protected you will be. Please keep safe. I need you to stay safe for me.

There are so many more things I want to say but I can't in a letter. I didn't want to have to do this at all, leave you. I own Mags my life for saving yours, she told me she would before. Mags told me to tell you that she doesn't mind at all, that she was glad to have finally been able to save a tributes life.

Soon, I will have to go into the arena. My thoughts will stay with you, the entire time. You will keep me fighting till the very end. I'll never forget the moment I saw you, in your reaping dress, it was green and blue, and matched your eyes. I remember watching you on the train, fascinated by you, but never realising why. After the Capitol killed my family, I didn't want to love anyone ever again, I wanted to stay far away so no one would die because of me. In the Games, I begged for you to stay alive, I pulled every string from any sponsor I could to try to keep you safe. And you won. I was ecstatic.

I never thought I was in love with you, even then. I hadn't loved in such a long time, I didn't remember what it felt like. The moment I knew I loved you was weeks later, after you had been in hospital and they had let you out. I watch you come over to me and not recognise me for a second; I could see it in your eyes. At that moment, I knew I couldn't live without you. It felt like I'd been stabbed.

Then you really saw me and gave me the tiniest of smiles, and I've tried to make you smile every day since then. Please keep smiling Annie. Don't let me see you sad. I never told you any of that; I never told you a lot of things. I'm sorry for that too.

Promise me you'll keep living, that you won't give up. Make me proud Annie. More than I already am. You're so strong, stronger than even you know. Be strong for both of us Annie because I am scared. I'm scrared for you and I'm scared I'll never see you again.

Yours forever and beyond,

Finnick