Thoughts
1 Chapter 1 - Innocent?!
I know this idea has been used like, MILLIONS of times before, but it's my first fic so please be nice. Also please review, I want to see if I've got what it takes.
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"Gohan! Time for dinner!"
Usually Gohan would have been getting up from his wooden chair that was positioned at his studying table, and rushing out of his bedroom so he could beat his Tousan to dinner.
But that was not the way that it was.
Instead, Gohan slowly rose from his chair and laid his pencil on his homework. He pushed in the chair slightly and slowly walked out of his bedroom towards the dining room.
His shoulders were slumped as if he had been defeated. He was staring at the shiny, wooden floorboards as if there were people all around him that were teasing and glaring at him, and the only way for him to avoid them was to stare down at the floor.
"Come on Gohan, I know you can walk faster than that!" ChiChi giggled placing some shiny bowls filled with tasty delights on to the table.
Gohan remained speechless and sat at his chair. He lifted his head to look at the chair where his Tousan usually sat, holding his chopsticks and eagerly waiting for Kaasan to say that he could eat. Nobody was sitting there though, and to Gohan it seemed like nobody had ever sat there, which was wrong. Without his Tousan, nothing seemed right any more.
ChiChi's smile turned into a concerned frown as she noticed Gohan's emotionless face. She slowly sat down at her chair and picked up her chopsticks hoping that that would show Gohan that he was now allowed to eat.
But Gohan remained still, gazing at the empty chair and sometimes peering down at his food.
ChiChi's eyebrows lowered and she began to slowly eat her meal.
Gohan still stared at the chair. He then twitched as if he had suddenly realised where he was and who he was with. He looked back down at his food and took in its aroma. The scent was pleasing to his senses, so he slowly picked up his chopsticks and also began to eat slowly.
ChiChi had stopped eating now, for she was too concerned about Gohan to eat any more. She had noticed how slowly he ate.
For the past few days everything had seemed to be in slow motion when ChiChi saw Gohan. He now studied and completed his homework slowly, ate slowly, walked slowly, everything!
ChiChi had tried being more positive to see if that would lift his mood, but it hadn't.
He also hardly talked any more, as if he was mute.
ChiChi was tired of her son's strange behavior so she asked, "What's wrong Gohan? For about a week you have been acting this way, and it's just not like you. You're usually happy and high-spirited, but now you seem to have become dispirited."
The only things that moved were Gohan's eyes as he looked at his Kaasan before responding, "Nothing's wrong Kaasan."
ChiChi then slammed her fist on the table causing all the plates and bowls to spring into the air and to come crashing down with a clanging noise, "Don't you dare try and say that nothing is wrong Gohan! It's quite obvious that you are depressed!"
Gohan raised his voice slightly and answered, "I said that nothing's wrong Kaasan."
ChiChi was now very frustrated and furious. It showed by the way her fists were clenched and her whole body was quivering.
She then breathed in and out slowly realising that Gohan wasn't going to say anything more to her when she was acting like this. She rose from her chair and gestured towards his bedroom saying, "Let's talk."
Gohan also rose and followed his Kaasan, staring at the floor as he walked.
ChiChi sat down on his bed and he sat down beside her.
ChiChi then put on one of her best fake smiles and said, "Now please explain what is wrong Gohan."
Gohan breathed out deeply and began, "It's just not the same without Tousan. Everything about life does not seem right without him."
ChiChi rubbed Gohan's back and said, "But you were fine before. You were the one who made me happy saying that he wanted it that way so that he could protect us. I didn't fully understand at first, but then I learnt his reasons. Why now are you upset?
Gohan continued, "I was OK until Mirai Trunks left to go back to his time. You see, I used to talk to him about my troubles and he would talk to me about his. Being able to talk to him showed me that he had also gone through many terrible tragedies and that I was not alone. It was the only thing that kept me happy. But after he left, I didn't have anyone else to share my thoughts with who would fully understand. At first I tried to hide it, but there was no point. So that's why I am depressed right now."
ChiChi's frown enhanced and she asked, "What are your thoughts though? What is troubling you so much that it has made you so heavy-hearted?"
Gohan looked up into his Kaasan's face.
ChiChi saw that glistening tears were forming in her son's usually bright, clear eyes.
"It's my fault. Tousan was killed by Cell because I had wasted the opportunity to kill him in the first place. I had been too stubborn, and instead of listening to Tousan, I continued to toy with Cell. Cell eventually ended up starting to self-destruct, and there was nothing I could do about it. I remember Tousan appearing before me, saying how proud he was of me. He then said to say sorry to you for him being so selfish, and said goodbye…"
Gohan then burst into tears. He was sobbing uncontrollably and was masking his face with his hands.
ChiChi was astounded by this. Gohan had never told her about why Goku had died until now, and she could see why.
She hugged Gohan and said with tears in her eyes, "It's not your fault Gohan. I would have done the same thing to that yaro."
Gohan lowered his hands from his face, still sobbing and cried, "No you wouldn't have! You would have listened to Tousan and killed him! I am a murderer! A slaughterer!"
ChiChi made hushing noises and said softly, "You are not Gohan! You are my sweet, innocent son who will one day make a great scholar."
Gohan then pushed his Kaasan away from him shouting, "Innocent?! How can I possibly be innocent after what I've done?"
He quickly stood and enveloped himself in white ki causing his homework papers to be blown around the room.
"Gohan, don't go!"
It was too late. Gohan fled through his window and was gone before ChiChi could do anything about it.
1 Chapter 1 - Innocent?!
I know this idea has been used like, MILLIONS of times before, but it's my first fic so please be nice. Also please review, I want to see if I've got what it takes.
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"Gohan! Time for dinner!"
Usually Gohan would have been getting up from his wooden chair that was positioned at his studying table, and rushing out of his bedroom so he could beat his Tousan to dinner.
But that was not the way that it was.
Instead, Gohan slowly rose from his chair and laid his pencil on his homework. He pushed in the chair slightly and slowly walked out of his bedroom towards the dining room.
His shoulders were slumped as if he had been defeated. He was staring at the shiny, wooden floorboards as if there were people all around him that were teasing and glaring at him, and the only way for him to avoid them was to stare down at the floor.
"Come on Gohan, I know you can walk faster than that!" ChiChi giggled placing some shiny bowls filled with tasty delights on to the table.
Gohan remained speechless and sat at his chair. He lifted his head to look at the chair where his Tousan usually sat, holding his chopsticks and eagerly waiting for Kaasan to say that he could eat. Nobody was sitting there though, and to Gohan it seemed like nobody had ever sat there, which was wrong. Without his Tousan, nothing seemed right any more.
ChiChi's smile turned into a concerned frown as she noticed Gohan's emotionless face. She slowly sat down at her chair and picked up her chopsticks hoping that that would show Gohan that he was now allowed to eat.
But Gohan remained still, gazing at the empty chair and sometimes peering down at his food.
ChiChi's eyebrows lowered and she began to slowly eat her meal.
Gohan still stared at the chair. He then twitched as if he had suddenly realised where he was and who he was with. He looked back down at his food and took in its aroma. The scent was pleasing to his senses, so he slowly picked up his chopsticks and also began to eat slowly.
ChiChi had stopped eating now, for she was too concerned about Gohan to eat any more. She had noticed how slowly he ate.
For the past few days everything had seemed to be in slow motion when ChiChi saw Gohan. He now studied and completed his homework slowly, ate slowly, walked slowly, everything!
ChiChi had tried being more positive to see if that would lift his mood, but it hadn't.
He also hardly talked any more, as if he was mute.
ChiChi was tired of her son's strange behavior so she asked, "What's wrong Gohan? For about a week you have been acting this way, and it's just not like you. You're usually happy and high-spirited, but now you seem to have become dispirited."
The only things that moved were Gohan's eyes as he looked at his Kaasan before responding, "Nothing's wrong Kaasan."
ChiChi then slammed her fist on the table causing all the plates and bowls to spring into the air and to come crashing down with a clanging noise, "Don't you dare try and say that nothing is wrong Gohan! It's quite obvious that you are depressed!"
Gohan raised his voice slightly and answered, "I said that nothing's wrong Kaasan."
ChiChi was now very frustrated and furious. It showed by the way her fists were clenched and her whole body was quivering.
She then breathed in and out slowly realising that Gohan wasn't going to say anything more to her when she was acting like this. She rose from her chair and gestured towards his bedroom saying, "Let's talk."
Gohan also rose and followed his Kaasan, staring at the floor as he walked.
ChiChi sat down on his bed and he sat down beside her.
ChiChi then put on one of her best fake smiles and said, "Now please explain what is wrong Gohan."
Gohan breathed out deeply and began, "It's just not the same without Tousan. Everything about life does not seem right without him."
ChiChi rubbed Gohan's back and said, "But you were fine before. You were the one who made me happy saying that he wanted it that way so that he could protect us. I didn't fully understand at first, but then I learnt his reasons. Why now are you upset?
Gohan continued, "I was OK until Mirai Trunks left to go back to his time. You see, I used to talk to him about my troubles and he would talk to me about his. Being able to talk to him showed me that he had also gone through many terrible tragedies and that I was not alone. It was the only thing that kept me happy. But after he left, I didn't have anyone else to share my thoughts with who would fully understand. At first I tried to hide it, but there was no point. So that's why I am depressed right now."
ChiChi's frown enhanced and she asked, "What are your thoughts though? What is troubling you so much that it has made you so heavy-hearted?"
Gohan looked up into his Kaasan's face.
ChiChi saw that glistening tears were forming in her son's usually bright, clear eyes.
"It's my fault. Tousan was killed by Cell because I had wasted the opportunity to kill him in the first place. I had been too stubborn, and instead of listening to Tousan, I continued to toy with Cell. Cell eventually ended up starting to self-destruct, and there was nothing I could do about it. I remember Tousan appearing before me, saying how proud he was of me. He then said to say sorry to you for him being so selfish, and said goodbye…"
Gohan then burst into tears. He was sobbing uncontrollably and was masking his face with his hands.
ChiChi was astounded by this. Gohan had never told her about why Goku had died until now, and she could see why.
She hugged Gohan and said with tears in her eyes, "It's not your fault Gohan. I would have done the same thing to that yaro."
Gohan lowered his hands from his face, still sobbing and cried, "No you wouldn't have! You would have listened to Tousan and killed him! I am a murderer! A slaughterer!"
ChiChi made hushing noises and said softly, "You are not Gohan! You are my sweet, innocent son who will one day make a great scholar."
Gohan then pushed his Kaasan away from him shouting, "Innocent?! How can I possibly be innocent after what I've done?"
He quickly stood and enveloped himself in white ki causing his homework papers to be blown around the room.
"Gohan, don't go!"
It was too late. Gohan fled through his window and was gone before ChiChi could do anything about it.