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"You want us to what?" Remus was gapping at Dumbledore. It had been a few weeks since he had assigned him and Nymphadora to be a team in the hunt for Death Eaters. They had gone on a few missions together and were successfully gathering information. Remus always made sure his mind was set on the task. It was harder than he had anticipated. On multiple occasions he found himself standing too close to her or looking at her too long, but he managed to remain on task most of the time. She was just so damned distracting. The way she did things would just enchant him. Being this close to her on a regular basis was the worst thing for his resolve. He was finding it harder and harder to convince himself of reasons why he shouldn't be with her.

'She's too young.'

It's only a number mate.

'You're a werewolf Remus.'

She sure as hell doesn't seem to care.

'But you haven't got a knut to your name.'

Well she doesn't seem like the material type.

He was getting closer and closer to breaking his resolve, but there was one argument that would always stop him. 'You don't deserve her'. She was too good for him that was for certain. All of his insecurities would surface again. Too old – too poor – too dangerous. It was a constant battle within himself that would keep him up at night sometimes. His restraint was stretched almost painfully, and now Dumbledore was asking them to do this.

Tonks was actually very pleased with their new assignment. Over the last few weeks she had been trying to subtly show Lupin that she was interested in him. But she was about as subtle as the Whomping Willow. Trying to lightly brush her body against him would turn into nearly knocking both of them on to their butts. She was hopeless and she knew it. But this assignment was perfect. She would be given an excuse to be close to him and be just a touch too inappropriate and no one would judge her. Things can get quite naughty when you are out clubbing.

"I want you and Nymphadora to run surveillance on a recruiting operation at the young people's dance club in London, Remus. They have been recruiting heavily from that area and we believe that it is because of this night club. We can handle Death Eaters who are getting on in their years, but a good chunk of Voldemort forces are young men and women, we can't allow him to reach this young audience." Dumbledore stated in a matter of fact tone of voice.

Sirius spoke up from his comfortable chair in the library. "Headmaster I believe Remus understood what you said. I just think he's nervous about his knowledge of how to dance." A devilish grin crept across his face.

"I'm a fine dancer thank you Padfoot." Remus retorted; Dumbledore smiled at the two old friends as the bickered. "I was just taken aback by the strange request, but of course I will take on this mission."

"Thank you Remus. Nymphadora?" Tonks was snapped out of her own little world. She was already picking out her outfit, hair color and type. She didn't even register the conversation going on around her "Wha- Oh yea I'm up for it."

"Wonderful." Dumbledore said, clapping his hand together, "Bill, Charlie and Caelyn will meet you two at the Leaky Cauldron tomorrow night."

"Excuse me sir but did you say Caelyn?" Tonks wanted to make sure she was hearing right.

"Yes I do believe that this is the perfect opportunity to emit Ms. Redman." Tonks grinned to herself. "Anyways, you will be looking for the Death Eaters organization located in this club." Dumbledore briefed them on the specifics. He then showed them the Death Eaters they were looking for and what to make note of. Sirius got bored halfway through and left them to continue the briefing.

Remus walked her down to the door after Dumbledore had finished with them. It was late and all of the Order members had left after the meeting. At the door he managed to say an awkward goodbye, "So I'll be seeing you tomorrow then."

"Yep, I'll see you then." They stood there for a moment. Remus was twisting his hands together painfully behind his back to restrain himself from touching her.

"Well, good night Tonks." He smiled and nodded.

"Night Remus." She turned to leave, but thought twice about it. Before he could even react she turned back to him and circled her arms around his waist. It was things like this that led him to think that she could want him just as much as he wanted her. He would fantasize about telling her his feelings and her accepting them and even returning them. They were just fantasies and hopes that he would always talk himself out of. He couldn't be with her. No matter how much he wanted to and no matter how convincing the little voice in his head was, he couldn't be with her. She let go, and left through the door.

"Moony likes Tonksie." Sirius was singing as Remus walked up the stairs to his room. "Moony likes Tonksie. Moony likes Tonksie. MOONY LIKES TONKSIE!"

"You're very mature Sirius." Remus said sarcastically.

"Oh come on Moony don't be such a downer." Sirius said over his shoulder as he walked into the drawing room; this conversation wasn't over by a long shot.

"I'm not being a downer." Remus defended as he followed Sirius and sat down across from him.

"Are too." Sirius shot back, grinning. Remus rolled his eyes. "Come on Moony you're not denying it, and I know you like her. I wouldn't get mad even though she is my baby cousin, because I know you'll have a good influence on her."

"Padfoot." Remus said warningly.

"Actually I'm hoping she has a bad influence on you." There was that blasted devilish grin again.

"Sirius." Remus said exasperatedly, placing a hand on his forehead.

"Oh come on Remus. Why won't you ask her out?" Sirius asked, his voice fading from teasing to serious.

"Even if I did like her Sirius I couldn't just ask her to—you know." His voice became depressed.

Sirius rolled his eyes at how dramatic Remus was being about the whole thing, "Yes, yes you can just ask her to 'you know' because she is sure as hell willing to."

"Padfoot can't you see why I can't be with her?" Remus asked, he could feel the dam within him slowly breaking.

After a second of faux thinking, Sirius said, "No, I don't see one reason why you shouldn't try with her."

"Don't be blind Sirius. I'm a werewolf for Merlin's sake. I'm dangerous and could hurt her." He finally growled, sounding like his once-a-month furry counterpart.

"You won't hurt her Moony. You're on Wolfsbane, and even if you weren't you're too cautious and strong willed to allow yourself to hurt her. You would always stop yourself from attacking James and I at school when we first found out." Sirius said. Moony was definitely over reacting if that was all that was bothering him.

"Those were very close calls Sirius and we were younger and stupid." Remus stated blatantly.

"We both know you wouldn't hurt her and she wouldn't let you hurt her so there really isn't any reason why-"

Remus cut him off, "I haven't got any money Sirius. I wouldn't be able to do anything for her."

He sighed as he answered his friend. "You don't need money to make someone happy, Moony."

Getting desperate, Remus reached for his last argument. "I'm far too old for her Sirius. I was at Hogwarts when she was born."

Sirius laughed. "So, she likes older men. That just means you're more experienced. Women love that." He winked at Lupin. Remus flushed a deep red and averted his eyes from Sirius' wolfish grin. "Come on Moony let's get some sleep. Tomorrow I'll help you with what to wear on your mission."

"What's wrong with the cloths I own?" Remus asked, looking down at himself in confusion, albeit, happy to move on to a different topic.

"Nothing Moony, you're a very fine dresser, but if you're going to wear your normal clothes to the mission you're going to stick out like a baby mountain troll."

"Fine, but nothing too ridiculous." Remus caved as he let his friend push him towards the door and their respective bedrooms.

"No Sirius I refuse to put that on." Remus said, pointing a finger at the cloth in Sirius's hand.

"Come on Moony all the young kids are wearing it."

"Padfoot when was the last time you were out among the young kids? You've been in Azkaban for the last decade." Remus pointed out, crossing his arms.

"Don't rub me the wrong way Moony. I know more about the young people style than you do so just put it on and stop complaining." Sirius said sternly, holding out the clothes in his hand for the other to take.

"I'll look ridiculous." He grabbed the piece of clothing from Sirius and stomped off to change. A knock sounded on the door.

"What are you two doing in there I can hear you from the library." Sirius opened the door to let Ginny in the room.

"Perfect. Perhaps you can help. Ginny we are trying to get Professor Lupin ready for a mission."

"What does that have to do with me?" the redhead asked, curious.

"Well he's going to be around a younger crowd, and we can't have him going in his usual attire so we need your young eye." Sirius said, although fairly confident that they wouldn't really need Ginny…

Lupin came back into the room just then. "Sirius I really don't think this – Ginny." Remus jumped in horror. He looked ridiculous and he certainly didn't want his former student to see him like this. Ginny let out a yip of laughter at Lupin's appearance. He was wearing bright florescent baggy sweatpants that hung far below his underwear line. His oversized orange v-neck clashed horribly with his dark green flat-brimmed hat.

"What is he supposed to look like?" Sirius pouted at this.

"He's supposed to look like he's going clubbing." Ginny laughed again. She didn't want to hurt Sirius's feelings though.

"I'm sure if you were in the tropics all the teens would dress like this," Sirius looked a little happier. He had been somewhat right. "But here we aren't so… flamboyant." Ginny walked over to the closet and pulled out a white v-neck and some loose jeans. "Put these on Professor." Lupin ducked out of the room just thankful to get out of the ridiculous outfit that Sirius had picked for him. Sirius looked a bit put out. He thought he was doing something right. Ginny felt bad. "It was the right idea Sirius." He just smiled and straightened himself. He didn't want to be a downer.

"Anything else you need for the old Professor?" Sirius asked, rubbing his hands in a way that didn't bode well for Remus.

Ginny smirked. "Could you find me some bandanas?"

Tonks rifled through the files of her parolees. Merlin there was so much paper work she needed to get through. How on earth was she going to do this? She had a mission tonight and she couldn't just bail on this paperwork. She screamed into a pillow and buried her face in it. A knock sounded at the door. "Come in!" her muffled voice shouted.

"Come on Tonks we are meeting the Order members in an hour. How are you not ready yet? We're going to be late!" Caelyn very nearly shouted as she burst into the flat.

"Cae, calm down." Tonks said as she lifted her head from the pillow.

"Tonks this is my first mission and if you make me late I will end you." Caelyn said severely, as she glared at her friend.

"Okay. Okay I'm getting ready." Caelyn smiled and followed Tonks to her room.

"So who's coming on the mission with us besides Charlie?"

"Well you remember Bill don't you?" Tonks asked as she searched through her closet .

"Oh yeah that head boy who you tortured?" Cae clarified as she sat down on the bed.

"Yep he's joining us tonight." Tonks nodded to herself while she looked at the clothing that she had in her hands

"Sounds good. I remember him, he was the Gryffindor that all the girls dreamed about."

"Him and his brother of course." Caelyn blushed a deep red. Tonks smirked and started to get dressed.

"Is there anyone else coming? Charlie said that there would be five of us tonight." Tonks stopped dead. Oh Merlin. Remus would be there too. How had she forgotten to be nervous about this?

"Uh- yea a man named Remus is joining us." Tonks began to dress again.

"Remus? That sounds familiar. Did we go to school with him?" Caelyn asked, racking her brains for one Remus.

"No he's a fair bit older than us."

"Oh? How much older?"

Tonks took a deep breath. He was twelve years three months and six days older than her. She didn't even know how she knew that. "Oh about twelve years or so." Caelyn just accepted this information and waited for her to finish dressing.

Tonks was wearing her old clubbing outfit. It was a tight leather halter top that tied in the back with crisscrossing strings and cut off just above her naval. Her jeans hugged her hips and molded to her legs. She just wore simple flats so if she needed to make a run for it she wouldn't be caught in heels. She looked in the mirror and did her face. She didn't want to hold a complicated morph while she was scouting so she relaxed her face and felt her natural features settle. She made a few adjustments and was finally satisfied.

"Great. We have a half-an-hour we should head over." Caelyn said, standing.

"Cae it takes literally a second to floo there."

"Well then let's walk. Come on the fresh air would do us some good." Caelyn said, jumping from idea to idea.

"I'm not walking all the way across London." Tonks objected.

"Ok fine. How 'bout we walk a bit and then apparate?" It was obvious that she was nervous, after all, it was her first mission. Tonks was used to this sort of thing before she joined the order. She was an Auror. She was trained for this. Caelyn was a med student. She had no idea what being in the field was like. They walked a few blocks in silence. Caelyn was sorting out her nerves ad Tonks knew it was best to let her be. Tonks was trying to calm her nerves as well. It wasn't the mission that caused this reaction. She knew if and when the time came she would settle into her instincts and carry out the mission, but what riled her wasn't what they were doing. It was the people they were doing it with. It was the same with every mission she went on with him. She would feel the butterflies surge in her stomach and anxiety grip her veins. She would get so nervous, but when she saw him they would just disappear. His calming eyes would set her mind straight and she would begin to focus. They found a safe place to apparate and turned on the spot.

hope you all liked it. its really hard to write because of school. i will try to post at lease one chapter a month.. pls saty tuned and please review. i now have a beta woooooo... and i would like to thank them for helping me out with the story . thanks little-Medium-sized for being the best beta EVAH! check out her stories as well (they're as awesome as she is)