a love that leads to nowhere
A HariPo freeverse piece
by mew-tsubaki
Note: The Harry Potter characters belong to J.K. Rowling, not me. I will always have a soft spot for LouisHugo… -w- Read, review, and enjoy!
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Let's not !CRY! about it
Let's not .::FiGhT::. about it
Let's just give
U
P
Because it's quite _useless_
There's no right
(Only /wrong\)
There's no good
(Only *BAD*)
There's no "us"
(Nothing but "you" & "me")
There's no h-o-p-e
(There's just that
s
i
n
k
i
n
g
.feeling.
as we come down off an
illicit HiGh)
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I want to s!c!r!e!a!m
I want to
¤THROW¤
every spell I know
at you
Because you're so
±InFuRiAtInG±
(frustrating)
(lovely)
(adorable)
(mine—right?)
Do you even
(((hear)))
yourself?
You never were a planner/schemer/mischief-maker
You left all the d;e;c;i;s;i;o;n;s up to me
&yet you don't trust me?
Now?
After the years of secret-friendship-something-more?
You…don't
[l.o.v.e]
me?
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It's not a matter of
trust, Hugo
It's a matter of
Crime&&punishment
It's an issue of
**ShOcK** & no ,awe,
It's an issue of
never-told memories
&&of
"k*i*s*s*i*n*g cousins ;)"
written off as
"just :)best(: mates"
It's a problem with
us, staying |single|
with you, coming home to me
with me, coming home to you
with us,
living in our own, little
•world•
(a world no one will ever broach…
or understand)
now & never
It's not a matter of
{l?o?v?e}
It's a matter of
"Could I live without you if they ever
K÷N÷E÷W?"
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Why?
Why must you torment me so, Louis?
Because your words are pure
\torture/
«heard by my ears»
(seen by my eyes)
[smelt by my nose]
{tasted by my tongue}
-and all the sensations burrow down,
to be felt in my heart-
I remember 2two2 fights—
•1: a scuffle outside of the kitchens,
where we decided to be best friends forever
and…
•2: a silent battle that lasted for months, and ended with us choosing to be in love forever
(I hold those 2 fights dear to my heart)
[Don't make me remember this one, too]
{Don't ruin us}
«DON'T BREAK ME»
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Even as we debate,
you're slipping from my fingers, in a
F
R
E
E
F
A
L
L
ready to burst
All I ever was good at was breaking things
:please believe me when I say that I'm
B/r;E\.a'K-i,N!g
too:
But I'd rather things be…
This way.
Fair.
Cruel.
Best.
Because I know what will happen—
-we'll hear the yelling
-we'll see the disgust
-we'll feel the rejection
-we'll lose one thing we both love more than life (f_a_m_i_l_y)
We will never feel right in daylight & in darkness
ever again
i cannot let that happen
i will not let that happen
so i will be the one to hurt you
Because it'd hurt you so much more if they did it
&&I'm okay if I know that only I can hurt you this badly
So stop living in the past,
&& recall this fight.
It's our last.
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Instead of wasting
our final night,
I shall give you my closing
a:r:g:u:m:e:n:t:
You call it the past
I call it our present & future
-that's what scares you, isn't it?-
"FUTURE"
.you don't think we have one.
No, we won't be like our cousins
I can't see us with kids, anyway
Maybe we'll just be doting uncles,
Regaling the children with tales
Of their parents' childish stupidity,
Daring to include tales of our own.
.and.
Just for giggles, we'll
Use "story-time" as the
Springboard for acceptance—
They'll like us, forcing the rest of the family's hand.
.then.
Suppose it's all fine?
That we can continue to be ourselves?
All that, is it enough for you, to make
You stay?
±with me?±
maybe it doesn't !look! as though we have a future
now
but maybe that's just it—
we've got to M*A*K*E a future
now
for us
[and I will whisper this idea in your ear,
plant it in your head as you sleep,
so that you'll be unable to be anything but
•hopeful•
I will tell you that Rose knows, Victoire knows, Dominique knows, & all the others are guessing
I will tell you that we've got options
to keep us happy
I will tell you that the thing I hold dearer than life is not family
but my spot
in your arms
in our bed
in your life]
So do us both a favor:
Shut up & never get this stupid idea in your head ever again.
Period.
(It means "I love you forever and ever, no matter what may come.")
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X3 As much as I love LouisDraco and HugoViktor (2 M&MWPs), I will always fall back on LouisHugo. They're one of my all-time fav pairings, cousincest aside. I just love them so much, especially when Louis' attitude riles the normally-pleasant Hugo. Their fireworks are 8D to me! :333 And I wanna give a shout-out to NickyFox13, because we were recently talking about the "doting uncles" thing—hon, I'm so riding this idea until it's dead. -w- Thank you!
And thanks for reading—please review!
-mew-tsubaki ;]