A/N: Hi guys, I kept postponing it on and on and on, because the third season is pure evil. But finally I think that I can find something to do with it and continue with this fic.

Just as a reminder, this is a "deleted scenes" concept. Each chapter stands on its own. This time I'm dealing with the third episode - the deep sea fishing one, when Steve and Danny are discarded on a dinghy in the ocean. Maybe the inspiration has to do with the fact that Steve is shirtless there most of the time... yumm...

This chapter is unique because it is written from Kono's perspective. She is, again, mishandles by the writers this season, so I feel obligated.

It's a Steve-Kono fic, but it's hard with stupid Catherine hanging around them all the time. It has a lot of Chin - Kono too, because it had to be handled by someone. Dahhh. This is what I was able to do. Hope you'll like it.

Please tell me what you think.

All I want is you

It's getting worse after his little deep sea adventure with Danny. Or, as Danny calls it, their "little cruise on the Titanic". She's quite sure they were never in any real risk of actually drowning, and that there wasn't actually an iceberg involved, but try mentioning this to Danny, who is still quite resentful about the whole thing, and you'll get a lecture about Steve being a danger magnet, how he was actually enjoying the whole incident, and why a boat is a completely suitable name for a fucking dinghy. It's not worth it really, and it will take hours.

She has to admit, she can see Danny's point when he rambles on and on about the danger they were in, she was pretty scared for them herself. This is precisely the problem, here. She was god damn sacred for them. Sacred for him.

()()()

She gets the phone call from Catherine when she's in HQ. Yes, yes she is fully aware of the fact she was not supposed to be there, on a weekend, when they're not even working... but it's no use to pretend she has a life, when she constantly finds herself there, doing paperwork or data analysis instead of something fun. Like... going on a deep sea fishing expedition, if she takes a random example. Only nobody asked her to come...

When she sees Catherine's number on the screen, she is almost tempted not to answer. She already feels guilty every time she sees her, with all the inappropriate feelings she's been having in regard to the girl's boyfriend... but her fear that it's something related to this exact same boyfriend of hers, as well as her apparently inherent masochistic tendency, make her push the button, all the same.

Honestly, the absurd and neurotic concern Catherine is expressing, to the fact that the guys were late, for an hour or two, is completely irrational. When you think about it, the only real danger she can imagine, is that they had a fight and tried to kill each other, and she's pretty sure Steve can take Danny with his hands tied behind his back, so this isn't even a real issue, if you ask her. Nevertheless, Catherine is persuasive enough, and something in the whole scenario sounds suspicious enough, that her own instinct makes her worry, too.

()()()

They set to meet at HQ, and she really tries to look operational and matter-of-factly about it, but she knows she is failing completely when she feels the tremble all over her body. It's lucky Chin is there to help with finding the boat.

()()()

The same thing happens when they're in the lab, and Charlie is giving them the results for the blood, and there's that moment when she waits for him anxiously with Catherine. She tries not to look at the other woman, and tries to stay calm and in perfect control, but her heart is beating so fast, and her palms are all sweaty, she finds herself praying silently "please. Please. Please. Just not him."

()()()

The idea of taking Catherine with them to the suspect's house is Chin's. The gracious, innocent, saint that he is. She almost chokes on the spot, when he just blurts it out, while they make their preparations. Fuck, he even suggests that she'll lend Catherine her backup Kevlar... It's so inappropriate, she can't fucking believe it. The girl is not even trained. She's a god damn intelligence officer, since when do they even get to use guns over there? The apartment is empty, and they can get away from there after a short while, on the way back she is so mad at Chin and Danny and god damn fucking Steve, that when she answers the call from the coast guard that asks her to vouch for her team leader's credentials, she almost tempted to say she has no fucking idea who he is...

()()()

A Stakeout with Chin is always slow and quiet. Nowadays it's a no less than pure torture, really. He is so closed up, and he is obviously still mourning, and she simply has no idea what he actually needs her to do. When she tried to come and stay with him at his house, several times, he constantly managed to send her away, so she simply gave up. When she tried to invite him to go to the beach with her, like they did when they were young, he declined, repeatedly, so that was also a total bust. It is almost like he refuses to be alone with her anymore, and he can only handle her in the context of the rest of the team, so, fine, she just keeps showing up, religiously, to all their group hangouts, in hope to have the opportunity to speak to him alone for a few minutes. When she tries, she realizes he is much more comfortable with speaking to Danny these days, so she has no choice but to let him do it. She keeps reminding herself, that at least he is talking to someone, and tries not to take it personally, but... her worst fear is that he blames her for everything. For the fact that she's still here, alive and kicking, while Malia is lying in the bottom of the ocean. She wakes up sweating in fear, wondering, if he hopes that things would have ended the other way around...

She tries not to think about it, and tries to give him his space, and his quiet time. But she is scared of the wall that is building slowly between them, she can practically feel it grow.

()()()

When Steve sends them to ambush Gill's apartment, and she sees him scrolling through Malia's photos on his phone, she takes the opportunity to attack the charged silence heads on. She offers to come and help him with Malia's things, because she remembers him mentioning something about it to Danny a few days ago. When he accepts her proposal, as a peace offering, and nods with a smile, she really has her hopes high. The next thing he does though, is bringing up Adam, and it's quickly deteriorates when they starts arguing again, and he can't hold himself back from expressing his revulsion for him. It's the hundredth time he says it, so the fight is almost unavoidable at this point. She automatically tries to defend Adam, to defend her choice and her freedom to make mistakes. She is trying so hard to defend herself, that she neglects to actually tell Chin the truth...

()()()

She gets out of the car, before things escalate to a real messy fight, and goes to the coffee place in the corner and just stands there in line. She is still riled up with Chin's lecture, but she has to admit, it's not his harsh words that hurt her this time. She wonders if the whole problem between her cousin and her, is the loss of sincerity, since the tragic events. Maybe if he would have admitted that he has a small part in him that is pained by the fact that she is alive, instead of the love of his life, and maybe if she would have told him, that having Steve back from Japan, and so close to her drives her crazy with need and inappropriate wants, and that Adam's place in her life is getting smaller and smaller every single day, since he held a gun to her face, and tried to kill the man she really loves, and that she is only holding onto him because Danny has Grace, and Steve has Catherine, and Chin had Malia, and still has in a way... and she is just so fucking lonely, and broken hearted... then...

()()()

When she's back, Chin is hanging from the roof, for dear life. She is so angry at herself and at her childish behavior. Incidentally, it's Gill's face that pays the price...

()()()

She blames herself. Really. When she met Katie and Jenny for the first time, she felt something was off. The tension between them was practically palpable. She had a bad feeling the minute she saw them, when she conducted the first interview, after letting them know about the murder. She should have listened to her instinct and kept her eyes open from the beginning, but she didn't. She was too preoccupied with Chin and Catherine's involvement, she just let it all cloud her judgment. She caught up eventually, the minute Steve and Danny told her about the conversation between Gill and Katie, the conversation which revealed the murder scheme. She tells Steve they should go. Now.

()()()

He says he can take Danny, but she explains that she has a bad feeling, and urges him to take her, and he is probably intrigued enough to do as she says, and to let her lead the way. She feels so nervous the entire ride there, her fingers are drumming on the dashboard, as she bites her lower lip... She really hopes they're not too late.

"Relax, what's wrong with you?" he asks her with a smile. She smiles back. Can't not to. His loop side smile is so adorable, and his beautiful face are illuminated by the lights of the cars coming against them on the road. She curses the physical influence he has on her.

"I don't know" she says truthfully, "something in that home environment, it didn't feel right..."

"You're just a little bit edgy" he shrugs "does it has to do with what happened with Chin earlier?"

"What?" shit. Chin told him. Her face reddens and she's grateful it's so dark. "No. No..." she mumbles "that was nothing... just a little domestic dispute..." she tries to joke about it, but he doesn't seem to buy into it.

"He's still on your case about Adam, isn't he?" he asks suddenly after a few seconds. She curses her luck. Either the guy doesn't talk about anything consequential, or he just doesn't know when to shut up...

"It's fine, Steve, don't worry about it..."

"He's completely right, you know." He says decisively, even though, she's quite sure, she didn't actually ask.

"It's none of his business" she grumbles. And neither it Steve's, she might add. "He is just being overprotective..." it's a poor choice of words, because she realizes, that this by itself will put her beloved team leader on Chin's side.

"If I order you to stop seeing the guy, would you do it?" he asks suddenly "if I said, it's compromising your position in the team, being associated with a criminal, I mean..."

"Are you going to do it?" she asks in amazement, because she has a strange feeling, if he is... her answer would be yes.

"I thought about it." He admits, scratching his face, but looking ahead, and not at her. "The guy tried to kill me, and you are so... no, I'm not going to..." He says eventually, and she releases the breath she wasn't aware she was holding. The pain of disappointment is so sudden, she realizes he actually doesn't have to order it, anymore. "Just try not to get your partner killed in the near future" he says "and believe me, I know it's easier said than done. I was almost tempted to throw Danny to the sharks, when we were alone on that dinghy..."

"So he was right" she exclaims, grateful for the fact that, suddenly, he is back to his usual sarcastic tone "he actually was in danger. I thought he was overreacting..."

"Nope." He says nonchalantly "this time he was actually spot on."

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"She ruined the lives of three people" she says to him after they leave the scene, and let HPD close the place down "I blame myself. I felt something was wrong there, but I didn't react on time."

"You couldn't have known." He tells her, as they make their way back to the car "sometime we try to ignore our feelings, because we have the basic instinct to think well of people."

"Are you talking about the case, or about me and Adam?" she asks him quietly. He looks at her seriously, and opens his mouth, as if he is about to say something really important. She just stands there, trembling, while his eyes burning, almost drilling into her soul. He keeps his peace though, and after a while, they just get to the car, and drive back in silence.

When they get to HQ, and he stops in the parking lot, next to her car, he turns towards her, just before she opens the door to get out.

"I have no right to talk" he tells her. "I am too, avoiding the truth for a long long time. I told myself I was trying to do what's right. I thought I was being noble and shit, but... it's not only me anymore, who is paying the price." She has no idea what he's talking about, and he never explains. When it looks like he's not going to say anything more, she gets out of the car.

()()()

She spends the rest of the night awake, tossing and turning, fighting against that sparkle of hope that is burning inside her. It begun burning there, since he looked at her like that.

First thing in the morning she calls Adam and explains that she can't do it anymore. She says that she's sorry, and that she really thought she loved him, but she's realizing now, that the toll is too high. He understands so quickly, she suspects he knew all along they were playing on borrowed time. He tells her he loves her, and that he hopes she will be happy, and tells her that he knew he was always fighting against a stronger man.

()()()

She meets the guys for a Tuna fish breakfast after her morning surf. She waits at Kamekona's long before they all get there, anxious to see Steve, after the last night discussions. She is Anxious to see Chin, too, because she wants to open a new chapter between them. She has so much strength and hope, suddenly. That sparkle is still burning, and it feels like it's even stronger in the daylight.

"Chin" she cries when he's the first one to arrive. "I want to talk to you, I have something to s..."

"Hold on, cuz" he smiles towards her "let's go to the sea."

He takes her by the hand, and they walk near the water, and he puts his arm around her shoulders, and tells her he's sorry, and that he was out of line. That he loves her, and trusts her, and he will always be there for her when she needs him, and he talks so fast, she can't even tell him that it's not necessary anymore. She wants to tell him that she broke up with Adam, and that he was right, and she's sorry, too... but he never lets her, just keeps breaking her heart for ten whole minutes, until he finally says the most important thing in the world.

"I will always be grateful" he tells her looking at the sea "for Adam, for saving your life and bringing you back home to me."

"Chin I..."

"I don't know how I would have managed this, without you, beside me..."

"I broke up with him" she blurts it out, because she can't hold the truth anymore when he gives her the most precious gift he could ever give.

"Thank god" he sighs exhaustingly, shaking his head. They look at each other, and just laugh with relief.

()()()

"Hey Chin, Kono" they hear Steve's voice from behind them. When they look back, he comes walking towards them from Kamekona's. "Where are you? the fish is almost done. You can't just leave me there all alone with Danny. He's telling the story all over again, to Max and Kamekona. If I'll hear it again, I'll have to kill him, and you'd be left with the paperwork. Come back. Now. It's a fucking order."

"I'll take care of it, boss" she salutes mockingly, and runs towards the other guys. When she looks back, she sees Chin telling something to Steve, and nods enthusiastically. When Steve is back to the table, with Chin, he looks at her in that intense, concentrated, brooding way of his, and she looks at him with a questioning look, blushing, as their eyes lock. It's like some kind of storm engulfs them suddenly, and throws them out to space, because it's like there isn't any sound, and there are no people around them, when they look at each other with almost palpable excitement. When Danny, suddenly pulls at her hand, and makes her sit beside him, the magic is broken abruptly, and when she looks up, Steve's gaze is gone. She sees Catherine then. For the first time. She is there, beside him, smiling and laughing with the rest of the team. The amount of pain that it causes her is so surprising, she feels she almost has to fight for air. When Kamekona is bringing the food, and the whole rumble starts all over again, with Danny complaining about drowning, and sharks and Steve, she is grateful, because it gives her a chance to gain some control on herself. When she's ready again to look up, it's really good. Because she sees the beautiful sight of a smiling Chin.

Steve runs along with it too, participating like he always does, in Danny's funny rants. But he makes sure he and Catherine stays away from her, as well as from the rest of the team around the table, for the entire meal.