Bella left in quite a hurry last night, I don't understand what is going on with her, one minute she was holding me, the next she said she had to go and just left. Jacob was very nice about it, he said maybe she needed to feed, and was scared to stay here and hurt me. I have to say I've never thought about Bella hurting me and that is insane to me, not now that I know her. Anyway, she left, I texted her, but she has yet to answer.

"It's okay Ally, she is going to call" said Jacob and he put his hands on my shoulder.

Maybe she won't, maybe this is the end,

And for what, a forgotten phone

No, Alice, you heard her, it is because you are a crazy

"Come on Ally, smile a little" he said whilst dragging his nose on my cheek

Then I heard a knock on the door, and a growl from Jacob. I went to the door, to find Bella standing there.

This is giving me whiplash

"Hey" she said sheepishly

"Hi" I sighed

This is the awkward-est of all moments

Maybe she came to break-up with you

"Can I talk to you for a minute, please" she says quietly

Yep, that's break-up introductory line, congratulations, even your soul mate can't stand you how about that.

"Al, please"

Say no, run back to the house, she can't break up with you if she doesn't see you, right!

Pathetic

"Hum, Jake …is…in the house…I don't want to….you know….be rude"

Yep good, that awkward, weak defense

"Please it will only take a minute, I am sure he'll manage on his own" she said more sternly

Everything ends, you knew it, you always did, and you're not worth it.

"Okay" I answered resigned

"Okay" she smiled

She took my hand, then pulled me in her arms.

How can she hold me with such gentleness, all that to break-up with me

And this might not be the thing to think about now, but how am I supposed to get back home, no way she holds me as I cry for her

She finally slowed down and stopped. She put me down. She didn't look me in the eyes, that's insane, I am the eye contact avoider, and now as I desperately want to look at her, at least I'll know. That's what I'll miss the most, the way she looked at me, like she saw something the entire world was blind to.

"Alice" she called for my attention

"Yeah" I said, finally giving up and looking at my shoes.

This hurts so bad, and she didn't even utter the words, that is insane, I can't even

I kept waiting and she didn't say anything, the intense pain in my chest grew so much more intense, I didn't realize how far up the pulled me out of my depression, nor how much I could fall in again, or maybe I'm digging maybe I am falling deeper than before.

"Just get it over with" I sighed

"What?"

"We both know why you're here just do it"

She stayed silent, I looked up, she looked so sad, the saddest eyes I've ever seen, I think she was crying, I think I'd rather she was.

"You think I am going to hurt you" she whispered brokenly

"No, of course not" I rushed saying "I know you will never hurt me like that"

"Like that?"

"Physically" I let out

"How will I hurt you Al" she let out defeated "How?"

"I know what we are here for Bella"

"Do you?"

"You're breaking-up with me" I let out

Why does she look so sad, she is the one doing the breaking up, why am I the one feeling like the bad guy?

"No, Al, that's not it, sit next to me please"

It can't be worse than that, can it?

I sat next to her.

"What is happening?" I asked quietly

She put her hand on my shoulder, pushed me down, I laid on the ground, she put her head in the crook of my neck, it is unusual for us, she is seeking comfort from me.

"Please tell me what's going on" I said as I run my fingers in her hair.

"I am scared"

"Why?"

"Alice there are so many things I have to say"

"Why did you leave in such a rush last night?"

"I am scared you won't believe me"

"I will always believe you" I said truthfully

She lifted her head and stared at me.

"Alice, I am so scared, I try to be strong for us, not to let it show, but I am terrified"

"Of what?"

"Of losing you"

"You won't"

How could she, I am hers, for now and as long as she'll have me

"I have waited for you, for so long, and you are so you, it is terrifying, you are beautiful, gentle, you make me want to protect you as much as your strength impresses me, I want to grow old with you even if we don't get a single wrinkle, I want a house with you, and a dog, I want to wake up next to you and I can't tell you all that because I am so scared you'll leave, so scared I'll scare you off, so fucking scared all the time, and I can't keep it in anymore, please Alice don't run, I am begging you don't be scared of how much I care"

I laid there, looking at her, for a second everything felt so unreal, so out of place, a star scared of a rock, I was trying to process all of that

She saying that is the sole proof you needed, she doesn't know you, and she loves but a ghost, someone she made up in her mind, not you, who would want eternity with you.

"Say something" she whispered

"I am scared you love an idea of me, and not me" I blurted out

"When you think really hard, you bite your lip, ever so lightly, sometimes when you eat you'll hum, I don't think you know it, you gently hum, the first time I saw you, you were wearing a blue necklace, you wore it again on our date, it looks really pretty on you, sometimes… sometimes I feel like there is a voice in your head pulling you away from me, and I don't know what it says, all I know is for a split second you look like the loneliest and saddest creature in the universe, and it kills me, because I want to fight that voice, but I can't I am deaf to her, you always try to touch me gently, you know that the odds of you physically harming me are inexistent, yet you always grab my hand with the utmost softness, your hearts beats really quietly at night, it's almost terrifying I kept my ears on it all night the first few times we spent together, you.."

"Bella" I interrupted "why are you telling me all this"

"Because I know you, I don't know everything about you, and you don't know everything about me, something about me might scare you or anger you, and it scares me too, but you know the important things about me, I think… I hope"

"It's different"

"How?"

"Because you're you and I am me" I said, so she'll understand

"Alice are you going to leave me because I love you?"

"No, of course not" I said "I am scared that you because you don't really" I finally admitted

She pushed herself up, and grabbed my hand to push me up as well, she brought me to her, and put her hand on my waist.

"I know that scares you, and that's why I wanted to give you time, I wanted us to figure this out gently, slowly, I wanted to prove beyond any doubt my love for you, but then he came and started messing everything up"

"Who?"

"Jacob"

"Bella.." I started

"No, Alice I am not, this is not…. The reason I brought you here is that Edward said that my anger will keep getting the best of me if I don't do anything, and that the best course of action was communication, so just hear me out, I won't put pressure on you anymore to do anything I just need you to know something, he is trying to take you away from me"

"Bella, Jake would never do that, he is my friend, we have a bond" I said defending him, he would never try something like that

"I know … I know… But imagine for a second he was, I need to know does he stand a chance? Are you ..Is it possible that you'll leave me for him"

"No, never"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, Bella, you don't have to be scared, he isn't trying anything though"

"He is love, I swear, but it's okay my trust should be in you, I shouldn't just be angry, I left earlier because he said something and I wanted to kill him, I think something primal in me reacted but I fought it and as I ran to get my ideas back in place I realized that you shouldn't be with me because there are no alternatives, you should be with me even if there are alternatives, and that is terrifying because I have to have faith that you'll choose me every single time"

"I would" I replied honestly "Every single time"

"You would?"

"Yes"

"Thank you"

"You don't have to, I love that you talked to me, no one ever does that, everybody thinks I am always on the verge of running and I think a part of me is, but not with you, I'll never run form you"

She made me sway as she kissed me slowly, ever so gently, that is my Bella, my loving, tender soul.

"Do you think you'll feel better if….if you stayed with us in the house" I asked

"You don't need to do that, I trust you, I do, I don't trust him, but I trust you" She said

"I know, but you always do your best to quiet my fears, I want to do the same with you"

She kissed me again and smiled against my lips

"I will come over often, if that is okay but I don't need to sleep over I trust you, but I'll watch over you" she said

Unbeknown to them a few miles away a conversation was occurring discussing the future of the Cullens in Forks as of this new fraternizing with humans situation unfolds.