Baka and Test – Summon the Beast: Unforgotten Memory

Chapter 1: Betrayal and a New Start

Note: Taken from the Novel, Manga, and Anime setting.

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Original Title: Baka and Test - Summon the Beasts/バカとテストと召喚獣

Written by axeloftheflame

Author's Note: Hey guys, this is an improved version of our old chapters that my Beta has chosen to re-work. He's a very nice guy to actually do that. Anyways, you may see a few changes but it doesn't affect the overall criteria of the story, just fixing some minor errors of times gone by.

I find myself on Fumizuki Academy's infamous rooftop. Only a handful of students ever come to this place and only a few come when it is the end of our school day.

From a distance, through the fence stopping me from moving any closer, I can see other students doing club activities. I envy them, the feeling of fulfillment after a long afternoon's practice or meeting with friends is something I truly admire.

You are probably asking yourselves why I am thinking of such depressing things… the truth is actually, my friends betrayed me.

"Damn, my eyes must be red by now…" I cursed under my breath as I rubbed my eyes to wipe away my tears. Yes, I've been crying this whole time up here where no one can find me. It was the only place I know that I feel safe…

On my other hand, I held a knife but I ignored it to stop myself from crying. Things have been stressful and now I feel really down... no it feels like I became a disappointment.

You see my class… or rather our Class F lost to Class A during a dramatic conclusion between both of our class representatives. Yuuji, our class representative, was very confident in our victory and explained to us why.

Realistically, I find it hard to believe that he would willingly lie and make his childhood friend, Kirishima-san, promise to always remember the answer. An apparent gambit he has prepared for a very long time. I'd call him devious with such a tactic but we're Class F. There's nothing to be surprised about once you enter our shallow damp waters.

During a climatic test of Elementary School-Level questions, the gambit came into fruition. The question which was a long shot from the start really came up into the exam. Everyone cheered in joy for our assured victory… if only there wasn't a setback when Yuuji made the plan.

He, apparently due to his cockiness and laziness, didn't study hard enough and only managed to get about half of the total score in comparison to his childhood friend who only lost a few points due to the our perceived gambit.

That day, not only did we lose more of our room's school supplies… but we were reduced to using cardboard boxes! The joy that we felt when victory was within hands' reach… and the humiliation that came hurling down on us after left us in a silent retreat. At this time, most of our classmates have already left and didn't want to stay any longer to drown themselves in self-pity.

This leads me to the reason why I came to this very place…

Flashback… Akihisa's POV

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We returned to class F with our heads looking down at our tatami mat floor in shame. I knew that we'd lose to them but never have I felt so much humiliation that it makes me want to throw a tantrum… but I'm not a kid anymore to do that. However…

"…"

Everyone was silent, nobody wanted to start a conversation and I fear to put myself at risk in such a delicate situation but this is different. These guys that stayed in our classroom are my friends. And if there is one thing I know about friendship then it is to cheer friends up when they feel down. So I did just that,

"Hey guys, we may have lost to Class A but did we expect anything less? They are the brightest students in our academy," And that is coming from a Probationary student's mouth to say the least. "I'm sure we'll get them next time! That is, if our class rep is going to come up with a new plan."

For some reason, I felt my determination return as I said that. Though it may just have been adrenaline after finally saying something I think this feeling that I feel is good. This cheerfulness I feel wasn't absent on my smile as I had come to notice.

"Dude, just shut the hell up will you?" I turned my head to Yuuji who said those so bluntly that it surprised me.

"W-What…? What did you just say?" I couldn't believe my ears at what he said. I asked just to make sure I heard him right… but that was a foolish move in my part.

"Are you that much of an idiot that you don't understand what I told you a few seconds ago?" Oh, now his back to using sarcasm. What's wrong with this guy? I guess I might as well retort to his answer.

"Look, I know what you said but why are you even saying it in the first place?" This was the first time I felt hostility from my friend/enemy… frenemy for short.

"What are you so mad about?"

I added unconsciously as Yuuji's expression changed into frustration and with a voice full of disappointment he said, "I am mad that we lost."

But it was inevitable that we'd lose. What would you expect from a class full of idiots and weirdoes? We were lucky that we even made it into the last event… which was also your match Yuuji. These thoughts were left unsaid as he continued.

"We should have won! But we lost because of you," Wait, what!? Did he just blamed me for our lost!?

"What!? Why the hell are you blaming me for!? You're the one who couldn't even pass an Elementary School's Test Exam!" I felt outrage, disappointed even; that my friend would blame me for our loss when it was clear that he lost splendidly by his own childhood friend!

"Also, if you haven't noticed, I'm not the only one who lost." I pointed out as I'm not the one to blame. But this only annoyed Yuuji for some reason.

"So what? You're the Class- no; you are the school's idiot, so the blame goes to you." I winced slightly by his words. You have no idea what mundane things I do around school that teachers make me do instead of doing it on their own. It's not even helping me improve in my academics by the slightest!

I turned and glanced to Kouta's direction for some support but he unexpectedly nodded and agreed with Yuuji. I know Kouta had won the match he was in with an equally strong opponent from Class A… so he has the right to look down on me, a failure, even though he was only good with at least one subject.

"Are all of you… thinking the same thing about me?" I asked as I turned to everyone else. For some reason I find my hands shaking even though it shouldn't. Fear struck my heart when the thought came to me that they thought so little of me.

"…well," Kouta started as I couldn't help but put a hand on my arm to stop it from shaking. "You could try to study more… Yoshii… then maybe you… wouldn't have lost to that girl."

Kouta Tsuchiya… better known as Muttsurini or Voyeur said without the slightest hint of hesitation.

"You also should be putting more into the fight instead of joking around during a serious battle, Yoshii-kun." I turned and this time I found myself staring at the most cutest face I know… Hideyoshi.

Hideyoshi Kinoshita, a person who is classified as a person who belongs to the mysterious third gender agreed with both Yuuji and Muttsurini even though she- I mean he, got beaten up by his sister most of the time.

My thoughts are scrambled, my balance shifting every few seconds, my mouth open but failing to utter a sound. By then I knew for sure… that I was at a loss for words at that moment.

But then things got more heated… when she joined the conversation…

"The three of them are right, Aki. You could have done better in that fight!" Minami who's been my friend in the past year said without a hint of hesitation.

I was staring at her… though I was trying to look pass her and deep into her mind. I was trying to read her mind… to try and understand what she was doing but all I ended up doing was making myself foolish in front of her.

"Even you Minami?" I barely managed to have said out of shock as I continued. "Didn't you lose to them as well? Why are all of you piling up the blame on my shoulders?"

I wanted to speak more but I felt myself hoarse and stopped. I couldn't say what I wanted to say even though what was happening right now has become very crucial.

"I know… but I have put up a better fight because I was on par with Class B. I could have won that match… if I wasn't facing Hideyoshi's sister," Minami was right… she was, and still is, the only person I know whose math scores are nearly unrivaled.

In the end, I wasn't nearly surprised when they agreed with her. The match she had was brutal as it became a reminder to us the difference in our strengths. Hideyoshi's sister is of a different league than us.

"But even so… your scores are the lowest… even by Class F standards." Minami continued which wounded my pride.

It was already painful to receive wrestling holds every day when she finds the time… but it hurts a lot more when she strikes at my weakness. But she is my friend! I… she's only saying these things for my best interest… right? But… even so I… I…!

"It's not fair! It wasn't my fault that we lost! Why blame me!? This isn't fair!"

I ended up snapping at them from all of the insults and accusations they have hurled onto me. There is so much pain I can endure because of my Prohibition Status but this is on a different level!

It's painful… it hurts so much… their eyes… they are judging me… looking at me like I'm trash…! Please…! Stop looking at me with those eyes! Stop it!

"But Akihisa-kun,"

In the midst of all the pain I am feeling I heard a voice call my name. I looked up, I didn't notice I was clutching my head while thinking, as Mizuki looked at me… but the way her eyes met mine made me feel guilty.

"They are right in a way."

By this point, I felt my whole world collapse. Mizuki, my first crush and the reason why I am risking my life in these Class Wars in the first place, is looking down on me with the look of disappointment and pity.

"You could focus more on studying so you could become more useful to our class,"

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I don't know what was going on anymore. The pain in my heart grew until my breathing became abnormal. I wasn't hearing her… I just focused on staring at her soft pink lips as they move and say things I could no longer hear.

One thing was for sure… even Mizuki, the person I aspire to do anything so that she'll be happy, agreed with them. Agreed with… everyone,

"You too Himeji-san?" I held the urge to cry. With the little strength I had left, I mustered the courage to keep on talking even though I didn't want to anymore.

"But why?" I noticed my voice has gone soft and the feelings behind it are now empty. "I thought we are friends? Yet all of you," I turned around, giving each and every one of them a glance before I continued. "Put the blame on me."

Silence… again with this damned silence! It became irritating now. That no one was answering me. I couldn't bear with it anymore… so I snapped.

"Yuuji was the one who failed the exam on purpose!" I accused with all my might at Yuuji as I pointed at him. For a moment he was taken aback but managed to speak.

"What do you mean? Dude, I didn't fail it on purpose." Yuuji ended up putting his hands on his head as he lay down. He's face now facing the ceiling without a care in the world.

"Yes you did!" I retorted as his aloofness irritated me. "You even said to us that Kirishima-san will make a mistake because of your promise!"

And with all the strength I can muster the next few things I said were things I'll never be able to take back for the rest of my life.

"But you failed on purpose because of said promise! You couldn't capitalize on the opportunity because of the relationship you had! You hesitated because of Kirishima-san-"

I couldn't finish as Yuuji shot back up with a glare on his eyes. For a moment, I was contemplating if I had touched a subject that was taboo but my frustration won over as I put that thought aside.

"You don't know anything so you don't have the right to say those things! So shut the hell up!" Any day, Yuuji would have the last word in our arguments but not this time.

"So I was right? You failed so that Kirishima-san would earn Class A's approval. All this time you spoke of how you will win against her when all this time you were trying to help her!"

My stubbornness has gotten me a lot deeper than what I had expected but there was no turning back now. With a bit of confidence and determination I raised an accusing finger at Yuuji and gave him a glare as I said, "Admit it! Even though the two of you have a strange relationship you do have some feelings for her! That's why you reciprocated the way you know how to! As a jerk*ss friend! Am I wrong Class Rep!?"

I didn't know if my accusation managed to shake him out of his wits or if it was an urge to want to punch me but the only thing that came out of my remark is his silence. The silence ate away the adrenaline I felt from earlier as I put down my hand.

After a while, Yuuji decided to speak but the tone in his voice became dark and uncaring. A side of Yuuji I didn't see very often that I nearly forgot the reason why he became a Class F student.

"You don't know what you are talking about, Akihisa." And the depths in which he said every word made me shiver down my spine. "But, if you are right, then at least I have a girl who likes me."

He then looked into my eyes. For a moment, I felt vulnerable. It felt like he was peering through my very soul as he continued.

"Unlike you, no girl would ever like an idiot like you."

These words left everyone speechless. Even I was at a lost at how shaken up I was at how he said it. Everything he said, every word that uttered out of his mouth, came at me like a ton of bricks breaking my every bone till they turned to dust… and that's what probably Yuuji is implying with those dark uncaring eyes.

"Wh-" I started as I barely managed to hear myself speak, "what d-did y-you j-just s-say?"

And every word I spoke sounded shattered and broken.

"You heard me!" He shouted as he now glared at me with all the anger he can muster. "No girl with a right mind wants to go out with you!"

By this point, he bombarded me with more hurtful words that I barely managed to stand my ground.

"Even if you have a kid I'll bet he would be a lot more stupid than you and your wife will leave you after she realizes how much of a fool she was for even marrying an idiot like you!"

But worst of all, was the last thing he said. It was the final straw, the one line that no one should ever dare cross.

"How are you even alive?! The rest of the world would be better off without an idiot like you!"

Speechless is an afterthought. What I felt back then was an afterthought. Everything that happened then became an afterthought. No amount of words would begin to describe… the pain that I feel right now.

But now… now things have really and truly… gotten way out of hand.

"S-So?" I barely managed to say after what had happened. "W-Who cares? Maybe you're right… I'll never find someone who will ever share a life and loving family with me,"

By this point, I noticed something warm fell down my cheeks. When I place my hands on them, I noticed that it was wet and when I brought my hand to my field of vision… I knew right then that I was crying.

"I… I-I," I was shaking uncontrollably as I continued, "I don't care anymore…"

I didn't stop myself from crying. I never felt myself wanting to stop crying even after what happened. I was in so much pain. I could barely breath, barely stand, and barely even speak to say what I wanted to say. I made no sound of desperation as the tears continued to roll down my cheeks.

"You're right… Sakamoto-Inchou-kun. The last part… maybe you are right." I didn't look up as I continued to cry. "That the world would be better off… without me,"

I didn't even look up as I asked, "do you all feel the same way?"

No response.

I guess they do.

I can't think straight anymore.

My chest is clenching down my heart.

It's too painful to even think.

I have enough of this.

I want this pain to end.

Now…

"Fine," I said as I turned to the closest door outside our classroom, "you'll never have to see me again. Even though our time was short, I… I'm glad to have at least met all of you,"

I opened the door without thought but stopped when I noticed two people standing in my way. I didn't have time to argue with them but that's probably what they wanted… to have one final laugh at the school's idiot.

"I can't believe how stupid I was for having feelings for the both of you. But now that I know what you really feel about me… I won't be disturbing you anymore. Gomenasai… sayonara, Minami-chan…. Himeji-san."

I moved out the door but couldn't help but think out loud.

"Friends… I thought they were there to comfort each other in a time of need…" I didn't turn back as I didn't want to look at them anymore. "Guess it was only me who thought of all of you as friends."

I felt so stupid… to even think of them as my friends.

"I guess… I never had friends to begin with. All of it was… fiction. Our connections are… fiction. The things we experienced… fiction. Our time spent together… a delusion of what I thought was friendship. All of it… became fiction. Or maybe it has always been fiction to begin with?"

Am I really satisfied that this is all that I had achieved in life? Fictional school lives with people who I thought were my friends and experience a fictional romance while trying to create relationships with them? Am I really going to end it all just for that? I don't want to end it like this. I want to live and experience the happy school life that I deserve!

Without a second thought, I walked out of the door and by some sick twist of fate the person I didn't expect to bump into is Kirishima-san… Yuuji's childhood friend.

"Yoshii-kun?" She started then noticed me crying. She was about to ask but I stopped her from even bringing it up.

"I don't know why you even love the guy, Kirishima-san. He doesn't even return your feelings nor admit to himself that he has feelings for you. I know the two of you made a promise together when you were young but times have changed."

I looked up and saw the glow of her beautiful violet eyes. A feeling of regret filled my stomach as I was about to say something to a person who isn't even remotely involved in my life… and even though I knew it was wrong I ended up saying things that should have remained unsaid.

"He is no longer the person you once knew, the person who made a promise to you, the person you once loved… no longer exist. If he still did… then he would have accepted your feelings so that the two of you can be happy together."

Kirishima-san places a hand over her small lips as I placed a hand onto her shoulder. I didn't know what kind of face I made back then but I was sure it was something she will not soon forget.

"I am truly sorry… Kirishima-san," I whispered into her ear as I walked pass her. I tried to chuckle at the sorry state I was in but all that came out of it was a cough as I walked ahead and not turn back.

After I few more seconds I made a break for it. I didn't want to see them. I didn't want to talk to them anymore. Everything that we had fell apart because of one argument. Things couldn't be the same again. Things will never be the same again…

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Back to the present… Akihisa's POV

And now I am here on the roof taking in the last few things I wanted to see before I end it all. It was a funny thing to think that I can easily get a hold of a knife from the school's Home Economics room.

This school trust their students too much if they leave their cabinets open for me to take. Maybe now they'll think twice for leaving such a room unattended once I'm gone.

I doubt there will be anyone who will miss me. I am not sure about my family but I hope that they will rest easy once they end my funeral. Though I really miss my parents, I haven't seen them in a long time. Onee-chan has been busy with her studies at Harbor University that she rarely calls now.

I wondered why they even gave me a place to live by myself to begin with. Was it so that they wouldn't have to worry about me as I try to live my life by myself? Or is it that they just wanted to get away from me? Have they left me here so that they won't have to deal with me?

"Damn…!" I couldn't help but say as more tears came down my cheeks. I felt so depressed that I can barely hold the knife in my hand properly.

No one wants to know me better… to know the real Akihisa Yoshii.

"The sun is beginning to set…" I looked over the horizon the once majestic blue skies turning changing into an orange hue. The sun glowed as its rays of light radiate outward to anything that it reaches.

I smiled… the sight before me was a natural everyday occurrence that everyone ignores. But this time, it made the lonely me happy for once.

"I guess this is it. I'm taking the easy way out of this but I'm an idiot after all. They'll forgive me for taking this rode…" I said to no one in particular as I got control of my hands again.

What will be there in the afterlife? Will I be reincarnated into something else? Will I be taken to hell for my foolish actions? I doubt heaven would open the skies just to save me… I guess I'll have to find out myself shouldn't I?

I raised the knife a few inches to my neck as one final tear dropped to the cold pavement. I'll feel the pain but after that it will be gone… along with everything that I feel right now.

My hands were shaking… I guess even now I feel nervous in ending it all. It will be a quick death… or so I heard. Just a few more seconds and I'll be gone.

But I stopped myself when I heard someone yell behind me which made me nearly drop the knife I was holding. I turned immediately as the yells became louder and clearer for me to hear. A strange sense of familiarity overwhelmed me as if I knew who that voice belonged to.

"Who could it be? I was getting close in ending this pain. I just hope that they won't open the door and come out here." My prayers were unanswered as the door burst open to reveal a person with orange hair and an obnoxious attitude.

"Honey~! Are you here-desuno? There is no need to hide from me~!" I felt myself cringe ever so slightly by her bewildering display of affection. Her twin orange curls aren't even helping as she continued to ignore my existence.

The person who came out is Miharu Shimizu, the class ambassador of Class D. Not only is she from a rival class she is also my rival for Minami's affection.

I cursed slightly underneath my breath for ever ending up at this situation. This girl hates my guts and despises me to the point of treating me like garbage whenever she has the chance or when Minami was around.

Even today, she isn't giving up in her conquest to win over Minami's affection.

"Are you there honey~?" The aura of love sent a chill down my spine as she came running into my direction. For a moment, I felt scared of the thought that she will tackle me to the ground and accidentally killing us both.

However, such worries are unfounded as the sooner she saw me she immediately halts her sprint. It was impressive actually, to see her go into a full sprint and then into a complete halt in a millisecond.

"Hold the phone, you're not my honey! You're that damn pig in her class!"

Okay, I know that she is referring to me but I'm not the only one she calls a pig because she calls every boy like that. I'm the only she despises enough to keep reminding me. For as long as I can remember she has called any person of our generic gender a pig who even came close to ear level. She has said it a bunch of times but the meaning behind it has lost their meaning. To put it in terms you'll understand, she sees males as pigs.

I stood there thinking about this in silence but noticed that she was waiting for me to say something back. When she noticed that I wasn't going to answer she scoffed and adjusted her glare on me.

"Shimizu-san… can you humor me a bit?" I don't know what I was saying as the person in front of me hates me but I didn't care. "Just answer this question, it doesn't have to be honest or anything for that matter."

She gave me an annoyed look before speaking, "Go ahead pig. I'll answer when I feel like it."

At least I got her approval otherwise there wouldn't be a point in asking her about it.

"Why do you hate me so much? I tried to rationalize it in my head but no matter how much I try I can't remember a single day that I've been bad to you. You hate me so much that you actively assault me with words while still treating other men the same."

I let my words sink in for a bit before I continued.

"If you feel that it would be better for me to be gone then I ask of you to leave me now. I have things I want to take care of without you disturbing me,"

I said with a depressed sigh. Miharu raised an eyebrow as I look back down on the pavement. What happened next came to me as a surprise.

"There's got to be something wrong if you are ordering me around. Did something bad happen to you? I'd really want to hear about it." She looked at me with a slight hint of glee as she said that.

In return for such a gesture I gave her a cold stare. Her sly smile disappeared as she noticed this but blinked in surprise. She looked at me directly in the eyes, what I saw on her reflecting eyes are my shallow face and irritated red eyes.

"I don't have to play your games, Shimizu-san. You don't really care what happened to me. You just want to use me like everybody else!" I said with a hiss. I was so lost in my anger that I continued to speak.

"Yuuji has used me since the very day we met! Whenever he has a plan on his mind it would always involve me in it! In the end, I always got hurt! What kind of friend does that!? Sure I agreed to help him knowing the consequences of his actions but he would sometimes lie to me and I still end up getting the short end of the stick! Do you know how tiring it is to be used as a ragged doll!? Everything up to now has all been a frustrating game to him!" I ranted without a care in the world. I don't care if the person in front of me is my most hated enemy, I didn't care anymore.

"What about you, Shimizu-san? I have something to say to you as well," She flinched as I called her name, "why do you continue to love Minami even though she has proven time and time again that she doesn't love you?"

Her expression changed from surprise to grim as I continued. "She has made it clear many times in the past as she had told me."

I didn't know why but I felt curios to know why she continues to pursue Minami. The way I said it sounded soft and caring that I find it confusing. However, I knew that Shimizu wouldn't give me an answer.

"But I guess you don't have to tell me the reason," I said again with a softer tone as I looked back at the setting sun, "you don't have to tell me your reasons."

I gave a shallow yet soft sigh as I looked back at the scenery before me. I really feel the most calm when I see the setting sun every day, a habit I have picked up recently.

I turned back to Shimizu who I expected to leave by now but didn't. She silently stared into my sullen face as she tries to think of what was going on… but I didn't expect for her to actually say these next few words, "…okay, I'll tell you why."

I was surprised and she became annoyed when that was made clear. She continued even though she has no reason to even tell me these things.

"I wanted to be happy," She started as I stared at her, "I know we can be happy once she finally settles her feelings towards me."

I continued to stare at her with confusion as she ignores it.

"Once she finally realizes her feelings for me the two of us will live happily as we make a beautiful daughter and live the rest of our lives in love and peace,"

She said that with the most pure of intentions that she raised her head up high and puffs her nearly non-existent breast. The determination in her eyes tells me that she wasn't joking around.

A moment of complete silence reigned over as I expected more but didn't. "Is that all… Shimizu-san? Is there anything else you wish to add to that?"

She looked completely annoyed at me even though I didn't laugh at her dream and desire and the fact that people of the same gender can't be pregnant and have offspring.

"What do you mean by that?" She asked with complete annoyance as she continued. "That's all."

I don't know why but I feel that I need to apologize to her.

"Please don't be mad, Shimizu-san. I think your dream is quite envious." I started as she gave me a look of confusion. "You see, my friends and I had an argument. But I think you should try and move on and forget about Minami."

She was about to say something but I stopped her. "I am saying this because I believe you should find somebody else who will make you happy, a person who accepts who you are and loves you all the same."

I turned my back on her as I looked at the sun finally reaching the horizon. "You should find someone who will love you for who you are and not someone who barely even knows about you."

She spoke as I finished the things I wanted to tell her, "What do you mean by that? Wait,"

I turned around with my eyebrow raised as she pointed to my pocket.

"What are you going to do with that knife?" She asked with shock and surprise as I completely forgot about it.

I gave a sigh, I didn't think that she'll notice it but that's just a false assumption. I took out the knife and held it with my right hand.

"This is meant for me actually." I tried to explain further but Miharu snapped.

"What the hell is wrong with you!? First, I find you a complete mess. Second, you kept a knife hidden in your pocket like it was nothing. Third, you are telling me to move on though I don't know the reason why. And lastly,"

She took a deep breath as she stared at me with serious eyes.

"Just what happened to you that you'll end up like this, Akihisa?"

That was the first time she ever called me by my name… my first name at that. I didn't think she even knew about it as she liked to mock and ridicule me.

But I put that aside so that I can answer her question.

"If you must know, Shimizu-san, then let me start from the beginning. But first, let me tell you why you should move on." I was staring at her eyes as I said that. Miharu nodded and ignored the fact I was staring at her.

"As you know, you've spent a lot of time trying to get her attention. However, she responds negatively to your approach. Even if you just wanted a short talk, she didn't give you the chance to."

I saw her eyes shift slightly away from me. I guess I was right about that since Minami always ran away whenever she even came close to her. Though I would end up facing Shimizu-san and have her mock my existence… I kind of pity her.

"She told you many times that she doesn't want a relationship with the same sex though it would mean a lot to you if you manage to become her friend. However she pushed you away… and denies that you exist or that your feelings are true at all,"

I gazed at the orange hue above me. I guess I find solace in the fact that I can feel the heat of the sun on my face. But soon, the cold surround us in its embrace.

"You became optimistic and thought that Minami was just being shy with you but deep down… you are hurt. You can deny everything that I have said until now but how long are you going to pursue this path? Will you continue until you went so low that you'll start getting desperate?"

Shimizu looked at me with a fierce and defying glare. However, her shaking form betrayed those determined eyes. I truly feel sorry for her… and it is my duty to make her move on with her life.

"So… will you continue to love her? Are you done of all the things she does to you? I know that I am done with her… though I guess you'll find that more important than what I've been trying to tell you this whole time."

I closed my eyes. I never felt this tired before, maybe it is because I've been using very difficult words till now? I guess they were right in calling me an idiot. It's really hard to try and convince the one person who sees me as an enemy more so than a human being.

Yet I find her staring at me speechless for the first time since I met her. Was she contemplating the things I said? Or is she planning a way to beat me up in the most devastating way possible? I silently chuckled at that. She is a man-hater after all; it won't be a surprise for her to go ahead with it.

But then… why do I feel devastated when tears fell from her eyes. She noticed this and tries to wipe them away but fails as more came raining down from her.

"Akihisa," she started as her tear filled eyes stare into mine, "you're right. Everything that you said up until now, all of it is true."

She said with a pained expression in her eyes. The realization must have dawned on her like a gigantic hammer after a long trial. Everything she did and tried… is for love. A pure and innocent form of love that she has realized the moment she met Minami.

Though it became difficult to try and communicate her feelings to the one she loves, she goes ahead and does so anyway even though she will end up getting hurt. I never knew that she loved her that much. More than her whole world… and more than I had for Minami…

"Don't worry," I said as I put a hand on her small shoulders. She looked up as I gave her a weak yet friendly smile. "Shimizu-san, your feelings for her aren't wrong. But now that you know that she will never accept your feelings… you can finally move on."

I didn't know what I was doing anymore. It felt… strangely good to help another person out than going down a long trip with no return.

"At least you won't be driven to the point that you'll end up like me," I whispered that one but sadly she heard me.

She looked at me with confusion before she realized what I meant. "What do you mean by that? What exactly happened to you and what do you plan to do?"

But then her eyes shifted lower probably to my pocket. Soon, it became too apparent what I was planning to do with the knife.

"You-!?" She slapped my hand away as I looked at her. She didn't look at me with repulse but rather she became worried. "Were you planning to kill yourself here?"

I gazed down at the stone pavement. I didn't really want to answer that question.

"Answer me!" She yelled.

A small smirk crept into my face. Look at me in this situation, I feel so pathetic that the enemy who hates me to death is worried about me. I couldn't help but cruelly laugh at this situation.

"Why do you care all of a sudden? I thought you, of all people, would rather have me gone from the world so that you will finally have Minami to yourself." But my smile went away as she looked into my eyes with a different sense of intimidation.

The feeling I received through her eyes was that of guilt. Why would she feel that way?

"I don't know what I want anymore!" She finally confessed which came to me as a surprise. "You said it yourself; I'll only end up hurting myself if I continue!"

A pang of guilt strikes me; I now realize my insensitivity. This person is someone who can easily get hurt after things became clear to her.

"Will you at least tell me why you are doing this? What drove you to the ground that you would even consider taking it?" Miharu asked with the softest expression she ever gave me since I met her.

"Please tell me," I caved in. Though I didn't realize why I did I just knew that I won't escape now that I did. I put the knife on the cold floor as I leaned on the fence separating me to a rather nasty fall.

I closed my eyes and felt the cold wind kiss my cheek. I guess there is no harm in telling her what happened. At least then, I'll have someone who will know what really happened today.

And so I went over everything that happened today as she intently listened. She became shocked when I told her that my friends blamed me for our lost and then her expression became sour. I continued even though I basically confessed to the fact that I had feelings for both Minami and Mizuki. I even told her what I was thinking this whole time while I was alone here and what Yuuji said to me.

"That's when you found me here and the rest… well you know the rest, Shimizu-san." I kindly joked as I finished my tale.

Shimizu-san remained silent after I was done talking. I turned my head a bit to see the still setting sun. The skies are now turning blue and the buildings ahead are slowly, one by one, turning on their lights. This is what I liked about Fumizuki Academy; the scenery ahead is just breathtaking.

"Well, I guess you should be going now." I started after a long moment of silence as I turned back to Shimizu-san and grabbed the knife on the pavement. "I'd rather do this alone than have someone watch so-"

But I was abruptly stopped when the knife on my hand flew a few feet away from us. I looked up and saw Shimizu-san panting. She just slapped away the knife in my hand with everything she had even though it freaked her out.

"What are you doing!?" I yelled but I was slapped again and this time she aimed directly at my cheek.

I grabbed my still aching cheek which probably turned red from the pain as I stared at Shimizu-san who is still panting for breath. Then, she looked at me with teary eyes and this made me feel guilty more so than before.

"Don't-" She paused as she takes a final breath of air, "don't give me that crap, Akihisa!"

I paused. For as long as I know her this was the first time she ever screamed at the top of her lungs for anything. She then gave me a glare and her expression turned fierce albeit her still teary eyes.

"Did you ever stop to think about the people who cared about you? People who love you like your family? Won't they miss you when you're gone?! Did you really believe that they wouldn't because they haven't visited you in a while!? Have you asked them if they would!? No, you haven't! I can't speak for your friends but your family does and still loves and cares about you! You don't have to do this anymore! Don't you know anyone else who would rather have you alive than gone?!"

Miharu yelled all these things in a girly way. After she was done, she looked at the ground. I gave a long sigh as I closed my eyes.

I began to think. I thought about my friends, I think they would miss me but that was just wishful thinking. It's kind of painful to know that two girls I showed interest in wouldn't miss me.

I was about to give up on this idea but then I remembered them, people who would miss me if I was gone.

First was my older sister, I knew that she would miss me if I was gone.

The next person on the list is Tetsujin-sensei our homeroom advisor, he always pushed me to do my best even during class or when I felt down. He was the only one who taught me how to pull through difficult battles when I least expected it.

Then there was one person left, a little girl I met a long time ago who likes to hang out with me when the two of us had time. The girl's name, if I remember correctly, is Hazuki. I didn't know her last name because I would always forget to ask whenever she was around but that wasn't important anymore.

These three people, though I don't know much about them care for me than anyone else in my life.

I opened my eyes, a smile slowly making its way to my face as I turned back to Shimizu-san who finally stopped crying.

"You're right, Shimizu-san. I do have people who will miss me. I can't let them down now that I know they will. Thank you for opening my eyes,"

Now that I know I am truly loved I can't be the same again. I'll have to change in order to meet everyone's expectations of me. I have to become strong so that my friends won't use me anymore. So that I can stand up on my own and be proud about it.

"Today, I promise you, I will die and be reborn." I proudly declared to her as she looked at me with confusion.

"Reborn?" She asked but was glad that I didn't think about ending my life anymore.

"In a way, I'll be born again. I don't want to be the same guy I've always been. I no longer want to be treated like an idiot. I want to change- no, I will change! If not for me then for the people who care for me, I'll become strong and be happy with what I have achieved for once in my life." I said as I turned back as the sun has now finally set. Today marks the day that my old life has come to an end and a new one is now born.

"This is the start of a new life for me, Shimizu-san." I turned to her with a relaxing smile.

"Miharu," She said as I looked at her with a raised eyebrow.

"What?"

"Starting today, you can call me Miharu and without honorifics. " Shimizu-san- I mean, Miharu said as I nodded.

"Well, I guess this is a new chapter in my life as well Akihisa." She said as she gave me a bright smile in turn.

I gave her a questionable look as I asked, "What do you mean by that?"

"You said so yourself didn't you? I want to move on but to do so I'll have to start a new chapter, a new beginning for me to become happy." I smiled, I am glad for her.

"So does this mean that you're not going for the other team anymore?" I asked a bit curiously with a knowing smirk.

"Why would you want to know? Do you think a pig like you will have a chance with sweet little me if I started dating boys?" She asked with a bit of a scowl as I just chuckled.

"It's not that really…" I weakly retorted as I felt my face fluster.

"Your face says otherwise though," She pointed out as she gave a sigh.

"I don't know what I will do starting today but I know now that it will be pointless to pursue my honey further. I don't really want to go out with someone who keeps hurting me all the time." She stated with honesty as I saw her slightly blush. The thought freaked me out a little as I try to convince myself that it was just the last bit of light remaining in the sky.

"I don't want to go out with pigs though; I've seen what they are like." She said rather annoyed at what she said as it made me wonder what it was about but dropped it.

"Well, Miharu, just as there are pigs among men there are also women who are a lot worse than them." I spoke out as I try to rationalize her point.

"But let me tell you this; not all men are alike, there are some good ones out there too. Guys who take care of their girlfriends and do not mistreat girls with any ill intent, just ungrateful jocks and husbands do that." I said with a bit of acknowledgement as Miharu look at me with surprise.

"I… I want to believe, Akihisa. But I doubt it; is there one man who is not like the others?" Miharu asked as I thought who might be a good candidate for her.

"Well… how about me? I haven't really done anything to you or force myself on you nor laugh at you when you told me why you love Minami." I pointed out as I don't really have a strong argument to begin with.

"There's also the fact that I help you move on…"

I silently added though I didn't really want to brag about it.

"Hmm," She contemplated it a bit. "I guess you convinced me. I'll believe you… for now. You're quite lucky, to convince me to trust men."

She gave a mischievous grin at that. I didn't think that I actually convinced her to trust me.

"I'll try to get to know men better as well… though I'll do so one step at a time,"

"Well, does this legally make you bisexual nor or-?" I asked as Miharu answered even before I finished.

"For now at least, you can say that I am. But, I won't be starting to date any men right away. Are you perhaps interested?" She asked me with a suspicious glance as I scratched the back of my head.

I held out my hand to her as I said, "Because I will be your first guy friend in your new chapter. Will you be my friend, Miharu?"

I think I sounded rather forceful there which made me blush as Miharu kept staring at my hand. She shook my hand in the end, which made me relieved, as she accepted my proposal.

"Please take care of me from now on, Akihisa." Miharu said as I couldn't help but smile.

"Likewise," I turned back to the scenery behind me as the buildings are now like stars in the sky. "I don't plan to forgive me old friends so easily… but I need to get smarter if I want to change."

I want to ensure that when I change I will be able to protect those who really see me as a friend. That's when an idea came to me like lightning as I turned to Miharu.

"Miharu… I am planning to ask him for help. Will you come with me?" I asked as Miharu looked confused but accepted my invitation.

"Lead the way,"

And I did. We went to the teacher's lounge where some of the teachers are still inside doing paperwork. At this time, there is only one person left who bothers staying this late.

I opened the door and inside I found a man whose table is filled with papers. The sound of the door sliding open was loud enough for the teacher to turn and see us.

"Yoshii, why are you still here?" He asked as I bowed in front of him.

"Tetsujin*" I started out of habit, "I can you please become my tutor so that I may become smarter?"

(Tetsujin means Ironman in Japanese)

Tetsujin-sensei looked at me with a raised eyebrow. There was a bit of suspicion in his eyes before he asked, "what made you come to me?"

"Because you are the only person I know who wouldn't hold back on a student's education."

Tetsujin continued to stare at me; I was still prostrating before him as he did. I needed this really badly if I want to change. Tetsujin turned back to his desk and brought something out… I looked up and saw it was a transferee paper.

"What's that sensei?" I asked out of curiosity as Tetsujin raised an eyebrow before noticing the folder on his hands.

"This? It's just some papers I needed to sign." He said as he puts them away. Though I didn't really read it much I noticed that the date of transferring is just in a few weeks.

"Yoshii, you never once wanted to take any of my lessons seriously. What made you want to change into an outstanding student?" Tetsujin asked calmly as I remembered that he remembers the lost we had with Class A.

"Does this perhaps have anything to do with your loss against class A?" He asked as I was thoroughly convinced that our teacher has really sharp intuition which is as great as his instincts in finding students who lost in summoning wars.

"You would only be half right," I answered him as I continued. "There's more to this than that."

Tetsujin raised an eyebrow again and brought a coffee mug to his face. "What do you mean, Yoshii?"

"I can't tell you everything right now but please become my tutor. I beg of you. I don't want to be mistreated like an idiot anymore." I begged as I continued to stay in my prostrate form.

"Then tell me, I have all the time in the world to listen. If your story interests me… then I might just comply,"

I looked up at him and he gave me a reassuring nod. He will tutor me and that made me relieved but now I have to tell him the reason behind it.

I stood up and faced Tetsujin-sensei before taking a deep breath. Once again, I told my side of the story of what happened today. However, I left out my talk with Miharu as it was a private conversation. I finished my story hoping that it was enough to convince him to tutor me.

"I see."

Tetsujin turned back to his desk as I felt dejected. I didn't think that my teacher was this shallow about it but I really didn't expect it. However, my worries turned to curiosity when he spoke.

"Okay, Yoshii! I completely understand everything now so I'll do my end of the bargain and become your tutor!" He declared which made me shocked and surprised.

"Thank you, Sensei!" I said as I bowed as he put a hand on my shoulders.

"But if you want to change… then I'll have to let you in on a secret about Probationary Students." When the words 'probationary students' reached my ears, my head snapped up.

"But first, I want you to go home and get some rest. The two of you will need it. Here's my address, be there early around 8 in the morning. There I will tell you the secret and then start your training." Tetsujin said as he turned to his desk to give us his business card containing his address. He gave one to me and then gave one to Miharu.

"Okay," The two of us agreed as I turned to Miharu with a raised eyebrow.

"Wait your coming too? Why?"

"I figured you might need a friend if you want to change. I also think taking this chance will help me get better and improve as well. Though I heard that Tetsujin-sensei's classes are said to be devastating," Miharu pointed out as this made me slightly shiver in fear.

"Don't worry; I'll be there to help since we are going to be taking private lessons." She said with a wink to reassure me as I sighed in defeat.

"Alright, then let's both become better than before."

I didn't think I'll find a comrade in Miharu but things have changed. The two of us will do our very best to make our dreams a reality.

"If the both of you are coming over then be ready. I'll be teaching the two of you for two weeks straight. So… you may want to write down your wills and say goodbye to the life you had before."

I felt grim as he said that but he continued.

"You'll be missing school during the whole ordeal but I will work you two to the ground until then."

That was reassuring. And knowing Tetsujin-sensei, he really meant every word that he said. This means that Miharu and I are in seriously deep trouble but I digress, these next two weeks is just what I need to change. We'll just have to hold out until then and hopefully the two of us will survive.

Two weeks later…

It's been exactly two weeks since that fateful day. Everything seems normal that morning as students are strolling to school.

I'm no longer the person I was once before. I have gone through a complete change thanks to the help of Tetsujin-sensei and Miharu.

The Secret that Tetsujin told me actually involved our avatars. At first I was surprised by that notion but then he explained everything to me clearly. I couldn't believe the transformation I went through after that experience.

But with this, I can finally fight back. I can finally stand up to anyone who dares oppose me and my friends. I won't be standing still when someone mocks me or Miharu.

Also, in the long time I've been training, I perfected the plan on sabotaging Class F. It was the ultimate vendetta against the people who have used me for their own gain.

I'll show them, I'll show them the pain they gave me and give it back tenfold. I won't forgive them. I'll make all of them suffer until they know what I felt that day.

I'll make sure of it…

Here is the revision of Chapter 1 that my Beta, Alewar Warinot, made. I hope you like this revised chapter much better than the old one and please leave a PM if you like it.