Dear Edward,

I miss you. I wish you were here, and you hadn't left. But life here just isn't the same. I can't stand all of the weird stares and whispering that I get from people. I thought they would die down by now, but they just keep happening. No one can wrap their head around the fact that you're gone. Alice has lost her happy-go-lucky personality; Emmett doesn't play games or practical jokes anymore. Esme is always in her room, and Carlisle almost never comes home from work. My father's worried about me, and all of us. He says I'm like a robot; I still move and work properly, but there's no life. But you have my life- you were my life.

Charlie is forcing me to go back to school tomorrow, after a week of absence. That first day after you left was horrible, and I just couldn't take it. I lasted until third hour before I left. But even around town, nobody stops staring. No one, except your family, gets why I couldn't just move on and get over it. And I can't just get over it. I have nightmares of that night, the night you left me. I'm afraid to sleep now, and even if I fall asleep once I start dreaming that's it for that night. But since I start school again tomorrow, I'm going to try and sleep before I have to get up.

I love you.

Bella