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Letting Go and Giving In

A/N: This story is written as a collaboration by both Xo BellaItalia oX and MichelleRae. We hope that you enjoy the story and look forward to reading your reviews.

Chapter 1
(Isabella's POV)

I looked around my room at all the boxes that were full of my stuff. I was leaving Forks. I had just graduated from the University of Washington with a degree in English. I was moving to L.A. to work at a prestigious publishing house. But that wasn't the only reason.

I was also moving to forget.

To forget that the one I was hopelessly in love with wasn't in love with me.

His name is Jasper. He's my best friend. We met freshman year of college. Had most of the same classes and were joined at the hip. The more time we spent together, the more I fell in love with him. The day I told him would forever be in my memory.

…*Flashback*…

We were sitting in our favorite coffee shop and I just told him why I was leaving. I was in love with him.

He just sat there staring through me instead of at me.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and began to get up. I was half way out of my seat when he spoke.

"I'm sorry Bella. I-I don't love you. I'm with Alice."

"Yeah, I know." I choked out.

I walked out the shop and didn't look back.

…*End Flashback*…

So now here I am getting ready to leave for good. My dad was downstairs cooking dinner. He said he wanted to do something for me since I was always taking care of him.

I was making my way downstairs with the rest of the boxes when my phone beeped. I placed the box at the bottom of the stairs and took it out of my pocket.

It was Jasper.

Can I see you before you leave? ~JW

He had been sending me text messages and calling me ever since that day in the coffee shop. That was two weeks ago. I swore to myself that I was going to forget about Jasper Whitlock and move on with my life.

I chose to ignore it and put my phone in the back pocket of my jeans. I put the box with the others and walked into the kitchen to find my dad putting the finishing touches on Grandma Swans spaghetti and meatballs.

"Smells good in here, dad," I said sniffing the air.

He looked up at me and smiled sheepishly. "Well, I hope it's good." He replied while taking garlic bread out the oven.

I set the table while he put the food out. We ate in comfortable silence but I could tell he wanted to say something.

"Just say it dad." I told him.

He looked at me for a few minutes and sighed.

"I'm gonna miss you kid." He said, looking away. My father was never an emotional man, so I knew this was hard for him.

"I'm going to miss you to Dad." I replied.

He cleared his throat and just nodded his head. We started clearing the table together and I began to wash the dishes.

"I got this, Bells. You go ahead and enjoy your last night here."

"If you're sure," I replied.

He nudged me out the way. "Go."

I walked upstairs and gather my PJ's and toiletries to take a shower.

Ever since I got his text, Jasper has been on my mind. I keep telling myself that I needed to forget about him. He had Alice. He didn't need me. He had told me that he was going to propose.

…*Flashback*…

"I've decided I'm going to ask Alice to marry me." Jasper told me as we were walking around in Seattle.

I stopped dead in my tracks. "Really?"

He looked at me for a few seconds. "Yeah, I've got the ring already." He answered.

I looked away blinking away tears. "Don't you think it's a little soon?" I asked. "You haven't even been together a year yet."

"Look, I know you don't like Alice, I have no clue why." I snorted at that. "I at least thought you'd be happy for me."

"I can't be happy about you making a mistake." I replied.

"How am I making a mistake?" He asked angrily.

"Think about it Jazz! You're "the Jasper Whitlock" heir to the Whitlock oil fortune. She's after you for your money. Why do you think she's always wanting to go do extravagant things and pushed you to move in together after only dating for 3 months?"

"You're wrong Bells. You're wrong."

"Believe what you want, but I won't be around when you see that I was right." I said and continued walking, ignoring his pleas to come back. If I did, he'd see the tears falling freely down my face.

…*End Flashback*…

I don't know how long I stood under the water before I realized it had run cold. I shut it off, got out and began to towel myself dry. I glanced at myself in the mirror and wondered why I was even hung up on Jasper. He'd never want someone as ordinary as me.

I got in my PJ's and crawled into bed, ready for my new beginning tomorrow.

._.-:'~ Letting Go and Giving In ~':-._.

I had just helped my dad load the last of the boxes in my truck when my phone beeped. I took it from my pocket and looked.

I wish I was able to see or at least talk to you before you go. But, I know you're still upset with me. Be careful and I'll miss you. ~JW

I decided to at least tell him 'bye' and that I'd miss him too, so I responded.

I'll miss you too. Be happy. ~BS

That was my way of letting him go, in my mind anyways.

._.-:'~ Letting Go and Giving In ~':-._.

It was now my 4th week in L.A. and I was loving every minute of it. I started my job last week and it was everything that I hoped it would be. My boss, Rose, was amazing as was her husband, Emmett. We had gone out a few times and Rose called me out on holding on to my heart for someone else.

…*Flashback*…

"Alright, spill it."

I looked at her. "What?" I asked.

"You have had a bunch of hunks ask you out and you have turned all of them down." She responded.

"It's nothing. I'm just not interested." I told her.

"You want to tell me the truth or keep telling me that load of shit?"

That was Rose, as blunt as ever.

So, I told her. I told her every detail about Jasper. Even about Alice and who Jasper was.

She sat there stunned, taking in all I had just told her.

"Wow, Jasper Whitlock?" She asked. I snickered and just nodded.

"Has he tried contacting you anymore?" She asked.

"Yeah, I get text messages at least every other day. And the occasional phone call, but I let it go to voicemail."

"You should talk to him. He obviously has something to say." She told me.

"I don't know." I answered.

And I didn't

…*End Flashback*…

I was brought out of my musings by a knock on the door. It had me stumped as to who it could be. Rose and Em were the only people who ever came over and they were on a date tonight.

I opened the door and almost closed it back.

"Jasper?"

He looked like he hadn't slept in days. But he was still dressed and sexy as ever. Wrangler jeans, white T-Shirt tucked in with a turquoise dress shirt over it, sleeves rolled up.

"Bella," He whispered my name.

"What are you doing here?" I choked out.

I moved out the door and let him in. He looked around my apartment with a smile. "It looks like you." He said.

"Thanks." I responded. "What are you doing here?" I repeated.

He looked out the window and swallowed. "You were right."

I looked at him stunned. "What happened?"

"I had gone out to make preparations to propose, leaving her at the house. I came home with roses, wine, the whole nine yards. I found her in bed with none other than Edward Cullen. I asked her how long it had been going on; 4 months, she said. We had been together 9 months. She went on to tell me that if she hadn't got caught, she would have married me and then divorced me and taken me for all I was worth. "

He had tears falling down his face. He turned and looked at me and my heart broke.

"I'm so sorry, Jazz." I choked out.

He shook his head and smiled sadly. "It's not your fault. You tried to warn me." He stood and looked at me a little longer. "It also made me realize something else."

I stopped breathing. "What?"

"It made me realize I wasn't in love with Alice. I was just settling. When you wouldn't talk to me or see me, it hurt. But, when you left; it was like you took my heart with you. I knew I had to find you. I don't know if you can ever forgive me. If you can't, then I'll walk out that door and never return."

"What are you saying Jasper?" I asked through my tears.

"I love you Bella Swan. I love you so fucking much." He said.

I choked out a sob and started shaking my head at him. "You better not be just saying that or so help me…"

He cut me off by racing forward and crashing his lips to mine. I melted. I wrapped my arms around his neck and put my hands in his hair. He had one arm around my waist and a hand on the back of my head, holding me to him.

We broke the kiss because of the need to breath. Panting, we both just stood there staring at each other; brown eyes meeting blue.

"I love you." I said, breaking the silence.

"I love you too, so much." He responded.

He started kissing me again, but this time much slower. I wrapped my arms around his waist, un-tucking his shirt. I snuck my hands under his shirt and started caressing his skin, causing him to groan.

He moved his lips down my jaw to my neck. He moved his hands toward the bottom of my shirt, he pulled back to look at me, silently asking. I nodded. My shirt was pulled over my head and he tossed it to the side. He began kissing my collarbone, down to my lace covered breast. My chest was heaving. I let out a long moan when I felt his teeth nip at my nipple through my bra.

"Please Jasper." I whimpered.

"Please what, baby?" He replied.

"I need you."

He leaned back up and whispered in my ear, "You have me."

I groaned. "Make love to me."

He took my lips in a heated kiss while unhooking my bra. I pushed his dress shirt off his shoulders and began pulling his tank over his head. He pulled away from lips long enough to help. After ridding him of his shirts I started on his pants while kissing down his chest. I unbuckled his belt and began to unbutton his jeans. While zipping them down, I noticed he goes commando. I looked at him and raised an eyebrow.

He just shrugged and gave me that sexy ass smirk of his before kissing me again.

"Bedroom?" He asked while undoing my jeans.

"The end of the hall," I responded.

He shoved my jeans down and helped me step out of them before picking me up and making me wrap my legs around his waist. We started kissing again as he started walking us toward my room. The whole time his cock was poking me in the stomach. Making me feel how much he wanted me.

He laid me on my bed and slowly pulled my panties down. He sat back and looked at me.

"You're beautiful." He said before leaning down to suck on my left nipple.

I closed my eyes and rolled my head back. My hand found its way to his hair.

He moved his hands down my side, leaving a wave of heat and desire behind. I felt one of his fingers find my slit.

"So fuckin' wet baby." I heard him whisper. He moved down to my pussy. He took a long lick of my slit from back to front. I moaned and my eyes rolled to the back of my head. He inserted a finger while tonguing my clit. He added a second and began pumping fast.

It was when he started nipping my clit that I started to lose it.

"Please Jazz!" I pled; I was so close.

My hands were fisting the sheets on the bed and I was bucking my hips trying to get what I wanted.

He added a third finger, hitting my g-spot just right. "Cum for me, baby." He said and bit down hard on my clit. That sent me over. I screamed to whatever deity there was. And I'm pretty sure his name was Jasper.

Jasper moved up my body and kissed me while thrusting in. We both moaned at the contact. Me, because I could taste myself on his tongue and finally having him inside me was heaven.

"I love you." He whispered as he begun to thrust slowly. This wasn't going to be fast I could tell.

He kissed me from my collarbone down to my breast. I arched my back and gasped as he bit down on my nipple. He moved back up and kissed me while I wrapped my legs around his waist meeting his thrusts and my arms around his neck.

"Don't leave." I whispered

He put his sweaty forehead against mine and looked deep into my soul. "Never" He whispered back.

And as if those were the magic words, my world went euphoric. My orgasm washed over me in waves and I felt him cum soon after.

He collapsed on me, both of us breathing heavy.

I would breathe in.

He'd breathe out.

A/N: This is only the start…be prepared! I hope you liked it! This is a collaboration between me (Xo BellaItalia oX) and MichelleRae. REVIEW!

If you have any questions or comments, post them on my page and I will answer them in my next Author's Note!

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Check out my other stories!

'Attempting to Covet'
'Dhampir' COMPLETED!
'Far Fetched Realities'
'Mirror Image'
'Other Worldly Beauty'
'Dhampir: Broken Moonlight' (SEQUEL)
'Perplexing Revelations'
'Unimaginable Outcomes'
'Pretexting'
'You Promised Me Forever
'The Heart's Desire'
'Intricate Beauty'
'Never What It Seems'
'The Major'
'Twilight ReVAMPed'

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'Flashbacks'
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'Letting Go and Giving In' NEW!
'The Chronicles of the Fallen'
'Death is Only the Beginning'
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'Instinctual Reactions;
'How You Make Me Feel'
'Undisclosed Desires'

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