Not sure where I am heading with this one but I like the ideas I am getting so far. It was something that popped in my head for a while now though I didn't feel like posting it but its always good to put your ideas out there no matter what so here it is. I hope you all enjoy it and do tell me how it is so far thank you very much, nuff love.

The Decision

It was rather pointless to expect better from a particular hanyou. Why try to change the unchangeable in this case Inuyasha, they say if you love something let it go and if it comes back then it was meant to be; but what if you loved someone with all your being and gave them the space needed to grow and find themselves; yet they never returned your feelings then what? Was it impossible to hope that one day his feelings would change that maybe just maybe he would look at her for more than just a shard finder, the rainy day friend most importantly the replacement. Whatever the true definition of hurt was it could never describe the ache in her broken heart. Indeed first love was cruel to the point of testing ones sanity, never the less there was hope for change even if it would never come to her aid. It was impossible to think of a life without him, let alone loosing him to another. It was four years since the final battle with Naraku, and so much has changed since then. Sango and Miroku got married and settle down with their twin girls in a house just outside the village. Kohaku was no longer under the spell of the shard and was free in all aspect of life; except when it regarded his three year old nieces. Who would attempt every known trick in the book on him, which prompted him to leave and finish his training with the remaining slayers in a near by village. Shippo lived with Kagome and Kaede but left everyday to train with Kohaku and the slayers. He was becoming strong and fierce in his battle tactics. Rin wasn't the sweet naïve little girl anymore but a budding teenage girl. Which no matter the time she was truly a representation of what teenage girls really are; rebellious, easily irritated, and demanding and down right sneaky. Which to Sesshoumaru's ire she often lied about her where about for the first few seconds; her curiosity and sudden attraction to the opposite sex was enough for him wanting to lock her away from the male spices for all of eternity in her case her life time.

Inuyasha spent his days improving on his fighting skills and chased a few girls every now and again. Since kikyo was killed before the final battle with Naraku, he some what put his untouchable love behind him; although he was more than willing to follow her to the pits of hell if he could have gone with her on that day. His rational side couldn't help but come to the conclusion that she had some how lived her life and going to hell with her would be throwing his in the kamis face for the unknown. Nah he wasn't going to do it even if she groveled at his feet yet still he couldn't tear his heart from her hands his first love, will always be Kikyo. Kagome although never fell out of love with Inuyasha but hated him for all his ranting and unfaithfulness not that he knew the meaning of the word or that he cared to know. He did what he pleased and was pleased with what he did; after all it wasn't like he marked her as his mate or anything. With the well closed up, and the lines between her family severed like a new born from its mother. Kagome couldn't do anything else with her time than train and train she did; her powers grew beyond any ones expectation and since the death of that two faced, two timing, walking soul stealing tomb stone hugging, clayed-up bitch. Kagome was more complete than she had ever felt in all her twenty-one years of existence. She was 5'10 with long toned legs that went on forever, wide hips well capable of bearing strong children; she boasted nicely shaped breast and a bottom if swung in the right direction would seduce all the male spices. Her deep ocean blues screamed innocence to the high heavens and luscious red rosy lips that were the envy of her time by her friends and all who knew her even is this time there still was envy present in the air. Her long thick silky tassels touched the top of her bottom which she would always wear in a bun and would only allow to fall helplessly around her when she taking a much needed bath.

Kagome had given up on the thought of Inuyasha mating her, when she heard tales of him and other women and a few hanyou who declared their love for him. He became more of a bother in her sight which didn't sit too well with her aching heart but she could never stop loving him. There was something more that she wanted out of life and the village could no longer fuel her growing desires, she was extremely beautiful like an angel right out of the heavens nothing compared to what kikyo was or would ever be. Kagome was in a class of her own yet she felt so lost she couldn't see beyond the broken hearted girl she had grown to know so well. She was so dense to her own beauty that koga had finally given up on her and married Ayame. Kagome couldn't see what he saw in her or anyone else for that matter. She was broken in many ways from her unrequited love, she just needed an adventure and with her controlled and growing powers an adventure she would have. There was just one little thing, ok maybe not so tiny that stood in her way.

"Yo!" A voice rang out from in the distance as a figure clad in a red hioari made its way to Keade's hut. Kagome sighed at the oh so familiar voice.

"Yes Inuyasha." Kagome answered flatly. She was well trained in pissing her hanyou friend off with little or no effort required.

"I heard from Sango that you were leaving. Where the fuck do you thing you're going?" He yelled angry that he was the last one to know.

"Well."Kagome began ignoring his foul mouth. "There is nothing for me here any more." She spoke as she glared daggers at the flustered hanyou.

"What the hell does that mean?" he demanded coldly and pissed that she would keep him of all persons in the dark.

"There is nothing for me here meaning; Shippo is more than capable of taking care of himself and he is at an age in which he can have his own family. Secondly: Sango and Miroku have a family and are very busy with yet another child on the way which I understand since you clearly don't indent to have one. She pointed knowingly at the growling half-breed.

Thirdly: Hanna has taken over for Kaede who might I add DOES. NOT. BY. ANY. SHAPE. OR. FORM. NEED. MY. AS-SIS-TANCE! She spat out in clear annoyance as if she was talking to a three year old. She couldn't help but chuckle darkly at her self almost sounding like Naraku. She loved him so much yet the two timing mongrel brushed it all to the side to chase a few tails. No a few asses or fronts more like it. Inuyasha's ears fell flat top his head as if being sucked into his skull.

"I am jus..." he struggled to speak but was cut short by a very annoyed girl.

"Inuyasha do you remember five years ago, when I promised you that I would always be by your side no matter what, I meant it and I did do just that through all the painful disappointments you shoved my way. Her ocean blues bore into his person yet he, himself never met her gaze.

"I swallowed my pain and sank my broken heart deeper into the unknown just to be by your side and now I just can't be around you anymore, it just hurts too much. I need my mom's comfort and I can't even get that because I am stuck here for now unable to see her."

"I..I" Inuyasha began but was once again cut off.

"You don't have to say anything its no ones fault, I could have left you pinned to that tree but I didn't. I could have jumped back into the well and never return but I came back again and again like it was all up to me to fix everything. I miss my family and kami knows how much but it was my decision to be here in the first place, to be with you and look where that has gotten me, alone and heart broken." She nodded her head curtly at him trying to keep the growing tears that welled up her in her eyes from falling.

"Kagome those girls were…"

"NOTHING!"

She finished his sentence, his eyes widen marginally. "That's why I need to be alone for awhile, we both deserve better and clearly you're not the better that's intended for me because if you were Inuyasha, you would have never caused me so much pain. I wish you happiness Inuyasha that's all I ever wanted for you. But I can no longer be loyal to a love that was never mine to begin with." She smiled at him as she turned and went back into the hut to get her bag.

Inuyasha instantly broke out of his daze when he saw her return from the hut with her over sized back pack.

"Where the fuck do you think your going wench, I want to make you..."

"What!" Kagome growled sounding like a predator closing in on her prey. "More hurt, drive me to the edge well guess what smarty pants, I am already there no thanks to you. If you really want to do something for me Inuyasha just leave me be and step aside." She spoke as she headed in the direction of the forest. Inuyasha growled deep in his throat warning her against her movements but kagome didn't care she continued just the same and before long was face to face with an enraged hanyou.

"You're my bitch" he growled. "Now turn the fuck around or else..." he stared at her his eyes narrowed to deadly little slits. He knew too well that she wasn't the kind of woman to take telling or forced in something she wanted absolutely no part of.

"Or else what!" Kagome spat venomously. "Your bitch huh?" she shook her head tauntingly at him and pointed a slender finger in his direction her riki was singing in the air as a light pink glow surround her form, her anger was raising. "Is that all I am to you, Inuyasha your rainy day bitch, was I your bitch when you went fucking everything that moved." She raised her voice drawing the attention of a few villagers who quickly cleared the area not wanting to be anywhere near the miko's wrath or at the end of it.

"Was I your bitch when you were off with Kikyo, no I was far from your mind so don't act like you cared for my well being or my feelings for that matter. I am just her reincarnation right Inuyasha; a copy of the real thing a backup." She closed the gap between them and stared in to his gold orbs with her ocean blues. "Wasn't those your words Inuyasha?" she spat venomously between clinched teeth. Inuyasha was now red with anger it put his hioari to shame.

"Yo bitch!"Inuyasha growled deadly at the female standing before him, he really wasn't in the mood to be over explaining himself to her, if he said she couldn't go, then she couldn't go and that was final.

Kagome narrowed her eyes into deadly little slits matching his, her fingers curled tightly into fist at her sides; with one word he was now at her mercy.

"Oh fuck I know what that look means, she wouldn't would she, she promised." "Ahh!"

Inuyasha growled loudly as he was pulled down by the force of the subjugation beads, it was like metal being pulled to magnet as he hit the cold hard surface of the earth with every command that escaped her lips he could feel his body being sucked into the earth. It was his fault and he deserved every sit he got, he broke her in ways that a being should have lived without knowing. Was the sweet innocent girl he knew now tainted with something as cruel as hate?

"Sit boy, I am tired of talking to your dumbass about this. Sit, why should I explain myself to you, sit you never tell me where you run off to when do, sit you selfish bastard." She practically growled. "Sit do you know what it was like to listen to all those stories of you with those village whores sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit.

Kagome spat with disgust. "If you dear follow me SIT, I will S.I.T your two timing ass to another dimension. "Sit, sit, sit!" kagome yelled frustrated with the half-breed, she didn't want to resort to this but hell he left her no choice what so ever and testing her growing powers on him wasn't such a good idea since there was a good possibility that she would purify his mangy ass to the deepest level of hell. A deep sigh passed her lips as she looked at the Inuyasha shaped crater and continued on her journey.

"I didn't want to resort to that but kami he left me no choice, I felt everything the times he lied to me about where he would go, every moment that they spent together and I sat alone worried and hurt." She hoped that he would change but faith was always cruel to her as he would leave with yet another easy village girl, ignoring the love she held close to her heart for him.

"If you love me than why do you hurt me so much Inuyasha, there is so much I can take and no more."

Kagome spoke softly as the chill of the evening breeze made it known that night was fast approaching. Kagome continued in her unknown path hurt staining her deep ocean blues, unknowingly watched by a figure that lurked in the shadows.