I don't own durarara.

Warning: Yaoi (boy x boy) and swearing

A chill of air made Izaya stir, the coldness making his skin rise in goosebumps. He turned to the side he knew a warm body would be, but as he moved closer the bed turned colder.

Groggily he opened his eyes, blinking until they adjusted to the dark.

Shizuo?

Sitting up, he looked at the empty side of the bed and couldn't help but wonder where the blond could have gone. It was the blonds place, so he knew that Shizuo wouldn't just up and leave. He also knew that the blond wasn't working the next day, so it was odd that Shizuo wasn't spooning him.

Stretching, Izaya got out of the bed and went to search for the missing blond. Before he made it to the door though, a loud beep made him stop and look back at where his phone was.

Knowing that Mr. Gotouda would be texting him more now that they were getting closer to leaving with important information, he quickly went back and checked the message. Looking at the clock, he decided to wait until the morning to call him.

Putting his phone in his pocket Izaya went to go look for Shizuo once more.

It didn't take him long.

He found the blond in the living room and on the couch. Confused he walked closer, sensing that something was definitely wrong with the blond.

"Shizu-chan?" he asked as he walked and stopped in front of the blond. Shizuo didn't look at him, his hair covering his eyes and his hands clasped together in between his open legs. His back was slightly hunched over and Izaya noticed the blonds shoulders become tense as he said his name.

Reaching out, he put his hand on Shizuo's shoulder.

"Are you okay?" he asked, but the blond stayed quiet. Izaya was confused.

An uncomfortable silence hanged in air and it made Izaya nervous. The kind of nervous feeling he use to get when the blond was able to corner him against a wall back when they use to fight and he was trying to figure a way out quickly.

Feeling ridiculous just standing there with his hand on the blonds shoulder, he moved and sat on the other side of the couch. Facing the blond, he sat with his legs hugged to his body and he rested his head on side cushion.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Shizuo said quietly.

Right when those words came out Izaya knew. He knew exactly what was wrong and he tried to think of what to say.

"Tell you what Shizu-chan?" he answered, deciding to act dumb.

"You know what," Shizuo said seriously. His voice held no emotion and it had Izaya feeling nervous. He didn't know what Shizuo was going to do and he didn't like it.

"So you found out."

"Where you ever going to tell me... Or where you jus-"

"No, I wasn't going to tell you. Why would I?" Izaya interrupted. This time the blond turned to him, his face looking hurt and it made something within Izaya to tighten up. But he ignored it, this was what he wanted. To make the blond suffer and break him.

"What do you mean why? Has this relationship been nothing to you this whole time?" Shizuo voice was low and slightly broken, as if in any moment he would break down in tears.

Izaya looked away with a chuckle.

"Relationship? Shizu-chan what are you talking about. How could I have a relationship with you"

"We don't make sense Shizu-chan. We are meant to hate each other and fight with each other. This was just a little break and nothing more"

Shizuo didn't answer back just snorted and looked away as he shook his head in a I-can't-believe-what-I'm-hearing kind of way. After a while the blond turned to him and spoke.

"In case you haven't noticed Izaya, we have been in a relationship for the past few months already. And I do believe we make sense."

Izaya opened his mouth to deny it, but Shizuo kept talking.

"We make sense Izaya you're just to fucking afraid to admit it" Shizuo said as moved closer to him. Izaya stayed paralyzed not liking where this was going, but also to confused with the sudden change of character to think of moving away.

Shizuo grabbed a hold of his knees as he leaned closer to him and kissed him. And he almost melted into the kiss, wanting nothing more but to stop talking about relationships and whether or not they had one, but before he could get into it Shizuo pulled away and looked straight at him.

"Izaya, I love you," the blond whispered softly.

Izaya looked at him in complete shock.

If the situation had been less serious, he would have laughed at the face the brunette was making, but he couldn't laugh. Not when he was afraid that the brunette would slip away.

He admitted that he was afraid of losing Izaya.

He loved him and now that he was aware of it, he didn't want to lose him.

"Izaya?" he said, after a while of silence. Izaya looked at him and after a while a chuckle came out of him and then it became a laugh. The brunette pushed him away and got up as he kept laughing.

"Oh Shizu-chan you don't love me," the brunette said after he calmed himself. Shizuo turned to look at the brunette.

"What?" he said, dumbfounded.

"You don't love me," Izaya repeated, this time not looking at him.

"You can't love me... You just want to love me. It makes sense I'm the only one not afraid of the beast of Ikebukuro. So because of that you want me"

"All of this started because of you feeling guilty Shizuo. You hurt me and you realized how much of a monster you are, and because I didn't feel afraid of you even after that, you felt guilty. So you decided to change yourself and are trying to fool yourself in believ-"

"Enough!" Shizuo screamed, no longer able to stand that Izaya didn't believe him.

"You're right I did feel guilty for hurting you and I did want to change myself, but I'm not trying to fool myself. I love you and I know that because I feel happy around you"

"Even when you insult me and annoy me, I freaking love you. So don't you tell me how I feel because I know my feelings. Instead tell me how you feel," Shizuo looked at the brunette, his heart beating wildly. Once again the brunette was looking at him with that pained look on his face, the one he hated seeing. Getting off the couch he walked closer until he was standing in front of him.

He wrapped his arms around Izaya bringing him close to him.

"Izaya you're in love with me, right?" he asked.

It was extremely quiet and each minute that passed was torture for Shizuo, but he held the brunette and hoped that he would tell him the truth.

"No" Izaya finally answered.

Without any other word the brunette pulled away from him and walked away. The last thing Shizuo heard from Izaya was the sound of him leaving his apartment.

Sorry seems like when ever I have time to write I get busy and can't -_-". Well this fiction is coming to an end just one more chapter or two and maybe an extra but not sure about it. Also I will be updating my other stories as soon as possible. Thanks to all those still reading :).