FINALLY! It took me several month to work on this chapter. I wrote like a million different versions of this. But this is my final version and I hope you're not going to be disappointed after waiting for so long!

This last chapter takes place after John's death, at the end of 2x02 "Everybody Loves a Clown"

3. Coming out to Bobby

After Sam had left, all the emotions he had held back for so long crashed down on Dean. He picked up a crowbar and smashed it down onto the trunk of the impala, leaving a big dent in the carefully reformed metal. He took another big swing and the crowbar crashed down on his beloved car with a big thud. And he did it again and again, until trunk was completely deformed. But there was still so much anger and pain left in him.

Sam thought that John had died hating him. But what was about Dean himself? He had always thought John hated him, because he wasn't that perfect soldier son he'd wished for. He had lived side by side with his father for years, knowing that he didn't accept him the way he was. He had spent so much time angry about his dad's reaction all these years ago when he had first come out to him.

Dean's sexuality always stood between them like a concrete wall. They both had avoided the topic at any cost the following years. He wanted to talk to his father about it, make sure that it wasn't a big deal and that they could go back to normal. But he was afraid that it would drive them even further apart, and now it was too late. Now he would never know what John had thought about him.

All these years he wanted his father to be proud of him and he thought he'd ruined that opportunity when he told him he was into men. But he never knew for sure. After all he tried to be the best hunter possible. And that was the only important thing for his father, right?

Dean let the crowbar fall to the ground and looked at what he'd done to the impala, his dad's car. The only normal thing they'd ever shared was their love for cars.

„Wow, what happened here?" Dean heard Bobby ask behind him. He turned around and saw the older man standing there with two bottles of beer in his hand. „I thought you could use a refreshment" he said, with a conspicuous look at the damaged car. Dean followed his gaze.

„I didn't quite like how the rebuilt trunk turned out anyway." With a deep sigh he took one of the beers from Bobby and took a long sip.

„You know, Dean, it's okay to be upset about John's death. I know the two of you had your differences but he was your father after all" Bobby tried to comfort Dean.

„Well he didn't act like a father most of the time" Dean said bitterly and sank down on the damaged trunk.

„Maybe he didn't. But after what happened to your mum, he tried his best to raise you boys on his own. You know he loved you and Sam more than anything in the world and he was so proud of you guys" Bobby reassured Dean and sat down next to him.

„Proud of me? How would you know? He never told me he was proud with a single word" Dean looked down at the almost empty beer bottle in his hands.

„He gave his life for you. He must have thought he'd done a great job teaching you and your brother to hunt, when he thought you boys would be able to finish the mission to kill that yellow eyed demon on your own. I don't know what it was that made you drift apart, but you should try to forget about it and remember him at his best."

„It's not that easy to forget. I wanted to work it out all these years but now it's too late." Dean looked up at Bobby. Right now he wasn't angry at John anymore, he was just sad. Somehow Bobby always knew just what to say. He was more like a dad to him than John had ever been. In that moment Dean made a decision.

„Actually Bobby, there's something you don't know about me. I never wanted to tell you because I was afraid it would stand between us like it stood between me and dad. But I never had the chance to work it out with dad and I don't want to miss the chance to be real with you."

„What are you talking about, boy?"

„Bobby, I'm gay... actually bisexual" Dean admitted, looking at Bobby with an unsure gaze.

„So? Whatever keeps you going" Bobby replied simply.

„Wait? That's all you got to say?" Dean was confused. After the bad experience he'd had coming out to John, he'd expected everything but this.

„Well what did you expect me to say? You see Dean, I've been in a lot of different places, met a lot of people and ganked a whole lot of monsters. And what I learned is that homosexuals aren't one of them. There ain't many gay folks that you meet in this job, but they sure do exist. I once met a damn good hunter who later turned out to be gay. Saved my ass when I was trying to take out a nest of vamps in Oregon. Later we had a few beers and he told me his story, about how a werewolf had killed his lover. But you know how it is in this business, you don't bother with other people's lifestyle and choices, as long as they do the job right. So I really don't care whether you snuck a gal or a dude under your blanket. You're like a son to me and you and your brother are two of the best hunters in the whole world. You are good and honest and you do everything you do for the right reasons" Bobby explained to Dean.

It was so easy. In just a few sentences Bobby had said everything Dean had ever wished to hear from his own father. Bobby finally gave him the acceptance and respect he'd always wished for.

„Thank you" Dean said quietly and drank the last sip of his beer.

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