Dear Diary,

oh my god that sounds so stupid … but maybe it will help me to get clear with myself. So diary I am Roy Mustang ,twenty nine years old and a hidden women. Why hidden you may ask? Mhh that's a long and sadly story. Let me tell you, it from the start.

This mess started when I was five years old and my mum died along with my unborn baby brother. She died through a bullet out of a police officers gun. S-She died laying next to me, protecting me, her first born daughter.

I was just sitting next to her crying loudly and calling out for her as her life escaped from her. But what could I have down? I was five years old, way to young to do anything helpful. My father was mad, very mad to be exact.

He yelled at me, a five year old, why I hadn't protected my mother. I only were crying and crying, hours ,days god damn it weeks. After that day everything changed. I changed. My father ordered me to get my hair cut short. So my long black hair got cut to a very short boy hair cut.

I wasn't allowed to wear dresses anymore and I had to wear boys clothes. My dad raised me as a boy and also changed my name from Romy to Roy. After the years I got used to live as a boy but as I turned fourteen my breast started to grow much and I couldn't pass as a boy easily so I had to bind them away. And dear mother of god ,that hurts.

So since I was five I had to live as a boy. My dad send me to the military academy so could change the system to how he would like it. I tried my best to please him and not letting him down , cause it was my fault mum died.

It wasn't that easy to go throw the military academy. I had to change my vocal cause I sounded to feminine. All in all it was very hard for me ,but no one knows about me except for Dr. Knox, my Dad and my best friend Maes Hughes.

He walked in on my in the bathroom in the military academy. I was completely naked and I screamed loudly and tried to cover myself and he only laughed and said something like , he had known it from the start.

The most embarrassing fact is that I am still a virgin. I couldn't screw with ladies as Roy Mustang and I couldn't go out as Romy either. You could say, I am sexual frustrated, much more then that I guess. Now my dear diary you know at least a little of my story...

Your Romy (know as Roy Mustang)

Roy closed her diary and sighs. How pathetic she thought. Why did I even start to write in it? Roy sighed. She stood up and got herself dressed. It was 8 a.m. the perfect time to start working. She covered her breasts and dressed herself with her uniform. She was glad she didn't look so feminine in that uniform.

She stroke through her hair and wished it would be longer, but for her dad it would be a shame if his 'son' would have long hair. Will someone ever love her? Hiding herself from the world.

She walked downstairs, grabbed an apple and toke her coat on. A little black cat hope on the table next to her and meowed lovingly. "Oh black beauty. Sorry I almost forgot you , can you forgive me?" She lifted the cat up and carried her in the kitchen.

The kitten started to purr as Roy let her down on the ground and rubbed herself along Roy's leg. Roy giggled. "Don't worry Blacky I won't forget you anymore and now watch out you get your food." Roy put some food in the bowl and filled up the water, before she left the happy purring kitty alone.

Roy was on her way to the headquarter, greeting people with a nod and her usually smile. She arrived at her office and sighed lightly, ready to speak in male voice for the whole day again. "Morning" She entered the office and was greeted back by her subordinates. Roy walked quietly into her office and sat down behind her desk ,only to start the stupid paperwork.

She never wanted to join the military. She wanted to be a teacher and not an alchemist. Especially not an alchemist who have to kill countless innocent people. She was a monster, a murderer and a liar. Roy snapped out of her thoughts as she heard her door slam shut.

Fullmetal was standing in the door and looked quiet pissed, but still quiet hot. Roy shacked her head shortly at that thought. "A good morning for you too Fullmetal. It seemed like you had a beautiful night." She smirked. Edward locked the door and he stared at the colonel.

"Fullmetal? Why are you locking my door?" Roy got a little nervous. Edward never acted like that. Ed started to grin. "You are getting nervous Colonel, whats the matter? Are you afraid of your own subordinate?" Edward walked behind her desk and was standing right in front of Roy. "No why should I? That is ridiculous Fullmetal. But still explain yourself." Roy ordered.

Edward gave a little laugh. "I will show you." With that Edward laid his lips on Roy's. Oh my god he is kissing me b-but why? Roy thought. She had her eyes closed and returned his kiss a little clumsy but only a few moments before she moved away and whispers. "D-Don't do that ever again."

She hit herself mentally for that sentence, cause really would like more kisses from Edward. "Why? You seem to enjoy me kissing you." Edward still was close to Roy's face and wanted to kiss her again. Roy started to panic. I couldn't have a relationship, I just can't. No one is allowed to know my secret. Roy thought and pushed Ed away.

Tears welling up in her eyes out off frustration and sadness. She stand up from her chair and grabbed some papers. "I said d-don't do it again, please don't. Sorry I have to go I-I forgot to turn off my heater." She was on her way out of the office as Ed grabbed her arm turning her around.

"Whats wrong with you it was only a kiss. For you as womanizer, that shouldn't be such a big thing." Ed teased. Roy turned her head around, some tears escaping her eyes. "I am not a womanizer! Let me go." Roy tackled Ed lightly, unlocked the door and ran out through a office off confused officers.

"Edward what did you do to him that he stared to cry and ran away?" Hawkeye raised an eyebrow at Edward who was confused like the others. "I only kissed him, nothing more." Edward wondered what he did wrong. A kiss couldn't be that bad, could it?

I know I should update my other story but I couldn't resist to write this Fem Roy story DXX I got another Fem Ed story Dx Tell me if you want a Fem Ed story, too!
Greetings and have a nice sunday Colonel Bastard