Since I am waiting anxiously for City of Heavenly Fire to come out (although it won't come out until spring 2014), I have satisfied myself by writing morbid fanfiction! 8D Yay for psychos!

Or something.

He put the blade to his forearm and drew it across slowly. Crimson blood welled along the cut. He smiled.

It had been almost a week since Magnus had broken up with him. Alec had found it harder and harder to cope. His chest was always tight. He had never been stabbed, but he thought this was what it might feel like. A sharp pain that started in his chest, then spread like lava through his body, leaving a dead numbness in its wake.

Izzy had given him rune after rune-peace, calm, healing, silence, love, gentle, hope, sleep.

None of them worked.

The pain still remained.

He had found one way to deaden the pain, however. His arms were crisscrossed with wounds that he didn't bother healing. He liked seeing the blood. He liked the pain.

He brought the newest cut to his lips. His tongue graced the wound. Pain rose like fire. The coppery, metallic taste of blood flooded his mouth. He closed his eyes. He relished in the hurt.

The pain didn't stop.

It only got worse.

And Alec welcomed it.