Edward was sitting in Mustangs office once again, listening to him rant about how he was going over his allowed budget. Ed ignored everything he was saying he just simply played around with the hem of his read jacket, that was until Mustang said something that Ed could not simply ignore. " hey shorty, are you even listening."

" WHO ARE YOU CALLING SO SMALL THAT EVEN AN ANT LOOKS DOWN AT HIM"

Al sighed next to him shaking his head "that's not what he said brother"

Ed turned this brother wide eyed " Al your taking his side, even after all I went through to get your body back"

Al's eyes saddened and muttered an apology.

Mustang watched the exchange between the brothers and that's when he noticed it, they were hiding something, Roy didn't like the idea of being left out very much, he decided that he would do everything in his power to find out what the brothers were hiding.

It was then of course Riza walked in she did a quick survey of the room and smiled " good to see that you two have stopped having a lovers quarrel"

Ed and Al turned to Riza who was laughing at the shocked look Mustang's face. "oh please don't tell me that you have no idea what I'm talking about, when you two are in the same room, the air screams sexual tension" and just like that she dumped a pile of work on Roy's desk ordering him to finish them and then left the room.

When Roy looked over at Alphonse and Edward, Ed was on the floor out cold while Al was shaking him, yelling at him to wake up, Roy was about to get up and help when Ed groaned "what the hell was that". Roy shrugged "girls and their weird ways", Ed looked at Al and they laughed together, Roy watched Ed something just wasn't right.

Ed and Al the left Roy to his thoughts, Roy started on the paperwork that Hawkeye Had left for him. After what seemed like hours he finally finished the last one, he looked up, that's when he saw it... Ed's journal was there sitting on the floor, waiting for someone to pick it up and read it. Roy decided that person would be him, he would find out all of Fullmetal's secrets. The first hundred or so pages were about human transmutation, others were on the philosophers stone, then notes about alchemy from other countries. Then it was about things Roy didn't understand, he had no idea what a rocket was, but he had an idea that this was to do with the invasion they had a few years back.

That was when he saw it, At first he didn't want to believe it, he didn't want to believe that someone would do this to Ed, the boy who put others in front of himself. How could they sleep at night knowing they did this to someone so innocent. Roy didn't know what to do with this new found information, he couldn't just confront Ed, that would be the worst thing in the world to do. It was then that Riza walked in again, she really had a habit of walking in at these types of moments, he decided that he would talk to her about it.

"Fullmetal has been raped, tortured and forced to do horrible things, and it's all because he helped us and not them during that invasion" Riza stopped walking over to Roy her eyes wide. He walked over to her letting her see for herself. Ed didn't go to much into detail but it was enough to get a picture. "what should we do" she looked at him

" I was going to ask you the same thing"

She nodded deep in though then she smiled sadly " we pretend we don't know, all we can do is to be there for him, and look out for him, waiting for him to come us when he needs to"

Roy nodded " let's go home, I'll drop you off along the way"

Riza nodded. Roy smiled lightly " everything is a mask with that boy, he seems like plain old Ed, we should have seen he wasn't"

Riza nodded " Ed has been through a lot we don't know what plain old Ed even is"

Ed was in the shower, his head under the tap letting the water run down his whole body, his head was down, one hand on the wall the other one on his chest, he was biting his lip as he held back the pain. When the pain started to fade his breath became steady instead of rasps.

Ed cursed he hated it when then that happened, it made him completely useless, at least no one knew about it yet, he managed to keep it a secret even from Al. He reached for the razor and placed three identical cuts in his wrist, then three more on forearm then three more at his shoulder. He sighed as he looked at the blood dripping from his fingers, it made the pain in his chest more bareable, just like the chest pains this was also another secret he managed to keep it to himself.

As he got out of the shower he looked at his arm staring at the old and the also not so old scars, he knew it was bad and that he shouldn't be doing it, he just couldn't help it, he started about two years ago and no matter what he did, he couldn't stop. He knew his friends would freak out and send him to a hospital to get some help, he wasn't doing it to kill himself or even for attention it just helped with the pain.

Ed walked out of the bathroom and into his room where he put on his baggy sweat pants and a baggy shirt. He sat down on his bed, grabbed a book and began writing, he was writing a book about human transmutation and the consequences that go along with attempting one, telling his experience, about what happened to Al and himself, he also mentioned his teacher and what she went thought because she attempted it. His goal was to stop others from making the same mistake that he did, hoping to teach others that life only flows in one direction and should not be tampered with.

He wrote about a page before putting it back down, he couldn't find enough strength to concentrate he walked down stairs where Al had fallen asleep on the couch, Ed sighed he was going to miss Al when he left, Al was moving in with Winry he left in a week. Then Ed would be on his own. It would be nice it would give him space but he was used to having Al at arms length whenever he needed help, it would take some time to get used to it.

He left a note for Al saying he had gone for a walk, just in case he woke up, so he wouldn't worry. Ed had no idea where he was going but he kept on walking, he needed to keep on walking, clear his head from the memories of that horrible place. He had no idea why but he started running, he just kept on running, nothing could make him stop, even the stitch that was forming. He just kept on running, well until he ran right into three heavy built guys.

He looked up at them apologetically "sorry wasn't watching where I was going" he had just managed to get to his feet when the middle guy knocked him back down by pitching him in his face. Ed clapped his hands to together but before he managed to make contact with anything, one of them grabbed his arms and forced them behind his back. "he's that fullmetal dog, keep him from using his alchemy". Ed tried to struggle from the three men.

The other two men constantly kicked and punched him repeatedly calling him 'a dog of the military' telling him he deserved this. After a while Ed blacked out falling back into another time, another world completely. He was chained against a wall like a star, while four men were standing in front of him. One hitting him with a bat, another cutting him with a knife, another punching him, the last was asking him questions at five minute intervals.

They were after information about alchemy, they wanted to know why it didn't work in their world, Alphonse was hidden, that and they didn't know he was even in their world, those who did were the ones who had kept him hidden. So basically they had nothing against him so Ed being Ed wouldn't say anything and with them being them,they wouldn't give up.

The guys currently beating him up had no idea that Ed was living in another moment they just continued to punch kick and laugh.

Roy was on his way home he had just dropped Riza home, they had discussed more about the Ed situation and how they cannot believe that he had managed to keep something this big a secret, it made them wonder if even Alphonse knew or whether he was in the dark with them.

Roy was forced to stop when he was three guys ganging up on someone, not knowing that someone was Edward Elric. He got out of the car, not even bothering to turn it off, he ran over whilst putting on his glove. "stop right now or I will burn you to a crisp" once he got closer he realized that Ed was the one being beating. Not even giving giving them a chance to stop he clicked three times, he burnt them enough that they no longer had any clothes which where replace with third degree burns.

The one holding Ed let go, screaming the three large man ran off like three year olds. Roy ran over to Ed catching him before his head connected to the concrete floor. "Edward"

Ed just groaned " I'm not going to tell you anything so just kill me already" Roy looked at Ed confused, he shook him lightly " Edward are you alright it's me Roy".

Edward opened his arms and smiled lightly "thanks bastard" before he fainted.

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