Disclaimer : I own nothing but the dirt under my shoes. but i do borrow for fun of course.

Summery: Have you ever wonder why some have good life's while you get the crap in the bottom of the barrel? Callie has wondered that since was 10. now at 16 she may have a shot at a good life for her and her brother Jude. She may also find the love she has so desperately wanted.

Chapter 1

" Brandon, wait I need to talk to you." Lena says.

"About what mom?" He asks.

"Callie?"

"What about her?" Brandon asks looking at his shoes.

"Brandon, be honesty with me OK kiddo. You have feelings for her don't you?" Lena asks him.

"Of course not mom." He sighs. "It is against the rules."

"Screw the rules for now. Tell me the truth."

"Why? If i say it out loud that is going to make a difference? Will it make me feel any different? Is it going to make it OK?" Brandon asks with anger in his voice.

"Of course it will. What do you feel about what Callie told us down stairs? How does it make you feel?" Lena asks him with concern in her voice.

"Look i know what you are trying to do and i want to say thanks. Mom made it clear about the rules, no foster dating, which means if i feel something it is wrong. So what i think and how i feel doesn't matter. Callie is what matters right now. Sorry i have to practice now." He says as he disappears into his room.

Lena walks into her and Stef's room and sits down on the bed with a sigh. She knows Brandon's feelings run deep for Callie but he doesn't want to cause trouble.

Stef watches Lena sit down and can hazard a guess as to what is on her mind. Brandon cares deeply for Callie and it is tearing him apart. He knows that foster kids are not suppose to date, so he is trying his darnedest not to act on his feelings.

"You talked to Brandon didn't you?" Stef asks.

"Yeah, well i tried. He says he can't admit how he feels cause you made it clear what he was feeling was wrong. I can't get him to open up about it." Lena says.

" I will talk to him. Let him know that it is ok to have feelings for her." Stef says.

"If you do that, it will be like you are saying it is ok for them to explore their feelings." Lena tells her.

"Ok look, do you honestly think we are going to be able to stop it? Have you seen the way they look at each other? Have you forgotten what it was like to be their age and in love? I think the best we are going to be able to do is control it." Stef tells her.

" Either way we have to get them talking about what happened and their feelings about it." Lena says.

"Ok but lets give it till morning. Let them sleep on it and we can set them both down tomorrow and talk to them." Stef suggests.

" Good idea, think I need to sleep on it as well. What do you think we should do about this?"

"We have no choice but to report it. I know it will look bad for Callie but I just don't see any other option." Stef informs her.

"You know they will put her in a group home right. It will end her being able to be fostered out." Lena tells her.

"I am working that part out in my head at the moment." Stef says.

"Care to share?"

"When I have it worked out and have come to terms with it." Stef says.

"OK, do what you have to do." Lena smiles at her.

"I will thanks. Now kiss me so we can get some sleep." Stef smiles.

They lean in an kiss each other. They crawl under the covers and snuggle up beside one another. Try as they would it would be a long time before either would find sleep.

Jesus knocked on Mariana's door as he walked in. He looked at his sister and smiled.

"Hey."

"Hey."

"So what do you think is going to happen with Lexi?" Jesus asks.

"Not sure but I doubt she goes any where in time soon. So you can relax." Mariana says.

"Yeah who knew she was such a wild child. I mean wow, did you see her moms face?"

"Yeah well you are the one that is, well you know." Mariana says.

"What can't you even say it, dating her." Jesus laughs.

"Yeah well, you're right I can't but I would take what you can get." Mariana says.

"Yeah you are right, and I will. Thanks sis. Good night." Jesus says.

"Night." she says back.

A few minutes after Jesus walks out Callie walks in. from the look on her face Mariana can tell she is upset about something. She watches as Callie walks back and forth by her bed before she sits down with a grunt. She lays back onto the bed and sighs.

'How will any one want me now? How can I expect any one like Brandon to like me now that I have told what has happened to me?'

She knew that her time here was almost up. With her telling the truth she would get moved to the high risk category. Plus with the forced sex, she was group home bound.

"Callie are you ok?" Mariana asks.

"Huh?" Callie says.

"I asked if you were ok?"

"Yeah." She fakes a smile.

"Ok I know we haven't known each other long, nor been friends, but I can tell something is bothering you." Mariana says.

"You're right we aren't friends so why would you care?" Callie asks.

"Cause while you are here, you are a part of this family, and we care about each other." Mariana says.

"It is nothing. I told Brandon and your moms something from my past. Now I doubt any of them will think the same of me. I am sure they think the worst of me.?" Callie says.

"Some how I doubt any of them think that. But if you are worried about it go talk to them." Mariana tells her.

"I don't think Brandon wants to talk to me, and I just left your moms. They said they would talk to me tomorrow. I am sure to inform me I will be going to a group home." Callie says.

"I wouldn't get to carried away if I was you. I doubt they will allow that to happen. Just stay calm and wait and see." Mariana says.

Callie gets up angry and walks toward the door. She looks back at Mariana and laughs.

"Think so do you, tell me Mariana how many time have you been raped?" Callie says as she leaves the room.

Mariana sits on her bed with her mouth open. She knew that Callie hasn't had the best luck with the foster system, but never expected that. That explains why Callie is so stand offish.

"Hey Mariana what was that?" Jesus asks.

"I am not sure I should tell you. Not sure it is my place to tell you." Mariana finally finds her voice.

"Hey I can keep a secret." he tells her.

"It seems that in one of her other foster homes Callie was raped."

"What? Did she tell the moms?" Jesus asks.

"Yeah and Brandon as well. Some how I think she told him first." Mariana muses out loud.

"Huh? Why you say that?"

"Please my near sighted brother. Those two have major sparks any time they look at each other. Please tell me you are just kidding and have noticed it, if not I may have to disown you as a brother." Mariana smiles at him.

"Well no I haven't noticed, but in my defense, I have been a little busy." He smiles back.

"Trust me I give it to the end of the week and those two will be sneaking around." Mariana laughs.

"Good for them. Hey I know that look and yes I know the rules. But I still say good for them. Brandon is a stand up guy and Callie seems like an ok girl. She is a little stand offish but now we know why. Well that and being bounced around a lot." Jesus says.

"Yeah guess you are right I won't tell."

"Good ok now this is night for real." Jesus says as he walks out.

"Night." She laughs.

Jesus walks out of his sister and Callie's room to see Callie standing at Brandon's door. She looks as if she is not sure of something. She is trying to listen at the door to see if she can hear anything.

"He is awake, just knock." Jesus tells her.

"What?! Oh um hey I was just, um well you see I heard, um yeah got to go to bed." Callie says as she heads for her bedroom.

"Callie I won't say anything. If you need to talk to Brandon about what happened to you go for it." Jesus says.

"What did Mariana tell you?" Callie asks a little angry.

"Yeah but please don't be mad. It is the twin thing, hard to keep things from each other. Besides I would have found out eventually." Jesus tells her.

"Yeah I guess so. Sorry just get a little defensive about it is all." Callie kind of smiles.

"You like him don't you?" he asks her.

"Yeah but you can't tell any one." She tells him.

"I understand. Trust me so will he, go talk to him. Settle it out between the two of you." Jesus smiles at her as he closes his door.

Callie smiles and walks back to Brandon's door. She smiles to herself and takes a deep breath. She slowly lets it out and decides now is as good a time as any for her to get told she was trash. So she opens the door to Brandon's raised voice.

Brandon lays awake in his bed thinking about what Callie had told him. He knew he should have reacted different than he did. He should have made sure she knew he was pissed. He should have grabbed on to her and held on till she cried it out. The way she told him, like she was guarding something. Maybe not telling the whole truth. Like she had no feelings about it.

It is ok he had enough for both. His thoughts were to track this Liam guy down and beat him half to death. Let him know he was to stay far away from his Callie.

'Wait, she isn't my Callie, she can't be.'

"Urrgg! I HATE THIS!"

"Brandon?" comes a scared voice from his doorway.

"Callie? Are you ok?" He asks her.

"Yeah, I mean no. I am not sure. Are you ok? You sounded mad? I knew I shouldn't have told you, you think I am to much trouble don't you? You think less of me too?" She asks.

"What? No Callie. None of what happened was your fault it was all Liam's fault. How could I think less of you? You were forced into doing what you did." Brandon tells her.

"Cause I am tainted now. How can any decent guy want me? With every thing I have been through and every thing that has been done to me?" She asks him.

"Callie if someone doesn't want you because of any of that stuff then they are a fool. I know I... well I mean. Just trust me."

"No what about you, what were you going to say?" Callie asks.

"You know I can't answer that question Callie. You have as well as my mom has told me the rules. That foster kids can't date, can't have feelings for each other. So there is no sense in dwelling on what can never be." Brandon says.

"Sure I understand. Why would a nice guy like you have feelings for the damaged foster kid that your moms took in out of pity. I have been nothing more than white trailer park trash most of my life, so I get it Brandon. A rich, smart, and talented guy like you wouldn't ever care about me." Callie says as she walks toward the door.

"Callie."

"No Brandon it is ok. I don't want to mess up your perfect family and life."

As she has been talking he has gotten out of bed and walked to where she was. He grabs her arms gently and makes her look him in the eyes. He softly smiles at her as he begins to speak.

"Callie any guy would be lucky to call you his girlfriend, even me."

"No Brandon I know you are just trying to..."

She is stopped by his lips on hers as he kisses her. The kiss starts out soft and exploring, but soon turns more urgent and filled with emotion. Brandon getting lost in the kiss till he suddenly realizes what is happening and pulls away.

"Callie I am sorry I should not have done that with out you saying it was ok." Brandon says as he rest his forehead on hers.