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A-Ames

Holder thinks of Jasper Ames sometimes. He thinks about Jasper and hopes that the kid feels guilty. And then, Holder thinks about himself at that age. He remembers what it was like to grow up with no money and absentee parents and dyslexia and he really fucking hopes the kid feels guilty. For all his money, Jasper Ames was no better than the thugs who banged in his neighborhood. And Holder himself may have turned out just like one of those thugs if not for his sister. But Jasper's pops, man, he was just as bad-using people and making promises he ain't never intended to keep and now poor Rosie Larsen is dead.

Holder is fairly positive Michael Ames feels no guilt for the role he played in Rosie's death, and he sure as shit knows that Terri Marek feels like she's better off dead, but how does Jasper feel? Does he feel anything at all? Does he realize how messed up it was to have sex with Sterling without even really making sure who the girl was first? And to video tape it at that! Does he get it?

But maybe Holder shouldn't be passing judgment. Maybe he should have some sympathy for the kid. His parents obviously aren't there even if they physically are and it isn't exactly like Holder hasn't slept with his fair share of women whose name he forgot even before the dead was done. Then again, he was high as a kite when those women came in and out of his life. But Jasper wasn't a saint either. And what was it that guy in NA was always telling him about helping those in need? Maybe he should email the kid. Maybe.