"What is it honey?" My mom asked softly as she got up from her seat and walked towards me. I knew she could tell that I was nervous. "You know you can tell us anything, right?" She put her arm around me.
I had wanted this whole thing to go smoothly. But I was just now realizing telling my parents seemed to be a lot harder than telling Daphne or even Ty. These were the people who raised me. They infused my mind with their value and their beliefs. They taught me everything I knew. And in my heart I knew what I was about to tell them would crush them. It felt like what I was about to tell them was going to go against everything they had sought out to teach me. And all those thoughts were what was prompting the tears threatening to fall.
"Oh honey." I heard my father say. It was clear he could see the tears welling up in my eyes. "Your mother's right. We're hear to listen to whatever you have to say."
I sighed. It was now or never. "I don't know how to tell you this." I wiped away a few tears. "And I know you're going to be so disappointed in me."
"Bay." My mother prompted softly.
"I'm pregnant." It all came out so fast. The words just spilled out of my mouth. It was like my brain knew that I would chicken out so it convinced my mouth to just get the job done because it knew that my heart wouldn't be able to take the reactions.
Both my parents just stared at me for a few seconds before my dad finally spoke up. "Excuse me?" He said while my mother just continued to stare at me. "What did you just say?"
"I'm pregnant." I repeated. "I'm so sorry. I don't know how this happened. I really don't. I was careful. I was so sure that we were careful."
"Is it Ty's? My mother asked, finally breaking out of her daze. It seemed like there was no emotion present on her face. Like my news had drained everything from her.
"Yeah." I whispered. "It's Ty's"
"I'm going to kill him." My dad exclaimed. His face turned redder by the second.
"Dad." I began to respond.
But he cut me off. "How dare he do this to my little girl." I had the urge to put my hands over my ears just to avoid all the screaming. "He is not going to get away with this. No way in hell is he going to get away with this." It was probably the maddest I had ever seen my dad get. I had never in my life heard him yell so loud.
"Dad!" I said trying to my make my voice louder to match his. "It's not only his fault."
"Yes it is Bay. He should have known better!"
"Enough!" Screamed a voice louder than both of us combined.
We both turned to look at my mother, amazed.
"Enough." she repeated. Turning to my dad she said, "We need to all calm down and hear the whole story first." She turned her attention to me. "Bay. Honey are you sure? I mean are you positive that you're pregnant?"
I sighed. I guess I was a little relieved that my mother had finally began to participate in the tense conversation. But the thing was, I had known my dad was going to react like that. I knew who he was going to put all the blame on. But my mother. Well I knew that my mom's reaction was the one that was going to get me. "Well I didn't go to the doctor if that's what you're asking. But I'm pretty sure."
"Oh Bay." Her mother exhaled before collapsing in a chair. "How did this happen." She repeated softly, burying her head in her hands.
This was exactly what I was afraid of. This was the reaction that I had been dreading. "I don't know mom. I wish I did." I said as the tears began to flow freely.
"Oh honey. Oh Bay." I heard my mom say as she got up. "Don't cry."
"I don't know what to do. I feel like my life is over."
"No it's not." She wrapped her arm around me. "No it's not." She said again, turning my chin so that I could look her in the eye. "I'm here for you. You're father's here for you." She snuck a glance at my dad who was standing just a foot away, arm crossed in anger. "Right John?"
He sighed and let his arms fall to his sides. "Of course." He joined our hug and kissed the top of my head. "Of course I'm here for you. We are all going to be here for you no matter what. Yes I'm upset by this whole thing but not enough to let you deal with this all on your own."
"No matter what you decide to do." My mother added. "We're on your side. No one's but yours."
"Thanks." I said slightly pulling away from the embrace. "I'm sorry for putting you guys in this situation and I really don't deserve you guys. You're the best parents in the world." I took a deep breath. "I know that this is going to change my life and I don't even know if it's the most practical decision to make in these circumstances. But I don't think I can get rid of this baby."
"That's fine." My mom brushed a strand of hair off of my face. "That is totally fine."
"Whatever you want honey." My dad said. "And to be honest I don't think I would be able to be on board with the decision to get an abortion."
"But what will this do to your carrer." I ran a hand across my face. "What will this mean for your chances of reelction."
"We don't need to worry about that right now. And really that's not important right now. My daughers future is way more important than another term in office." He paused. "You are way more important than another term in office. My family always comes first."
"I love you guys."
"We love you too honey." My mom replied pulling me into another hug.
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Standing outside the door to top Angelo's apartment, I attempted to control the shaking in my leg. Telling my parents last week had been really hard. But their support had really given me the motivation to wake up this morning and decided that I could do it. I could take on whatever was to come my way these next few months, a little less than nine to be exact. And well the first part in doing that would be telling everyone that I was pregnant. And next on the list was Regina.
I was scared to tell her too. True, a little less than my parenst but terrified nonethess. My apernts had been there my whole life. Regina had just begun to be apart of it over the last couple of years. I didn't want this occurrence to change her view of me, her birth daugher. My relationship with her had just begun to improve, I didn't want anything to get into the way of that.
"Bay." Refgina exclaimed opening the front door. "What a suprise. I didn't know you were coming."
"Yeah." I let out a small smile. "I was just in the neighborhood and decided to stop by." Well there went another lie, hopefully one of the last of many that I had been telling.
"Well I'm glad you acme over. Sit. I'll get you something to drink. Coffee?"
"Actually." I said looking down at my hands. "I was hoping that I could talk to you."
"Oh." She took a seat on the couch. "Does this have anything to do with you staying at your house?"
"Kind of." I said. "There's actually a reason for that."
"So you won't be coming back here?"
"No." I sighed. "I won't. And there's a reason and I'm really scarec to tell you because I don't how you'll react and ugh I am really really scared to tell you." I rambled.
"Bay." Regina said placing her hand on top if mine reassuringly. "There is nothing that you can't tell me." I inhaled, taking another deep breath. "I'm" I started to say but stopped. It should get easier, announcing this little piece of information. But instead it was getting harder to say every time I said it.
"Bay." Regina prompted. "You can tell me anything remember."
"I'm pregnant."
"You're pregnant?" She asked running a hand through her hair. "You're pregnant." She stated this time.
"Yup."
"Oh Bay." She stood up. "How did this happen? Have you told you're parents? Is Ty the father?"
This time I let out a deep breath before attempting to answer all of her questions. "I don't know. Yes. And yes, why does everyone keep asking me that. Do I seem like a slut or something?"
"No honey." She took a seat next to me. "Of course not. It just comes as a shock. What are you going to do?"
'I don't know. I really don't." I said burying my face in my hands. "I just feel like I'm disappointing everyone. This was not supposed to happen."
She wrapped a hand around my shoulder. "There are just some things in life we don't want or expect to happen. And we just can't do anything to stop they're not what we wanted or even plan for ourselves but they turn out to be just what we need."
'I don't know if a baby is exactly what I need right now." I straightened up to look at her. "I don't think anybody really needs a baby at seventeen."
"That's true. But Bay I'm sure everything will turn out okay. You have so many people supporting you."
"I guess."
She rubbed circles ito my back as I went back into my previous position. "Did you talk to Ty?"
"Uh huh. He was really supportive. But I feel like he thinks he has to be because of me. I mean I really messed up his life."
"No you didn't. This is not your fault."
"It's like I want to convince myself of that but I can't. This situation is just so messed up. I mean he's in the army." I turned my head. "And he just came back from war and I just spring this onto him."
"Bay I know Ty and I know he can handle a whoel lot more than you probably think he can. He's been through a lot."
"I just don't know."
"Honey I know this is really overwhelming for you right now. And that's to be expected. But I promise you everything will turn out and settle down. You'll make the decision that will be best suited for you and believe me Ty will be there for you every step of the way."
"Thanks Regina." I reached out for a hug. "I really needed that. And thank you for being so undertsanding."
"Of course."
As I walked out of the apartment I realized how luck I was to have all these people in my life. Not everyone could be surrounded with such caring people at a time like this. And I was so appreciative for every single person.
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"Hey." I rolled over on my bed to see Daphne walking in. "What's up. Coming home from a hot date with the coffe guy?" I said with a wink.
But the lack of a smile on her face let me know something was up.
"What's wrong Daphne? What happened?"
"Nothing's really wrong. It's just that I'm so confused."
I scooted closer to her on the bed. "Trust me I know confusing." I pointed to my stomach. "Now tell me."
She sighed. "I got a text from Wike."
"Wilke?" I asked confused. "Isn't he in boarding school somewhere?"
"He is. But he's coming down for a couple of weeks before the wedding. You know because he's Toby's best man."
"So what'd he say?"
"He said he couldn't wait to catch up and he missed me."
"What's the problem with that?"
"I don't know. It's just that I started seeing Jace and I feel like this is just going to make things so much more complicated. Him coming back."
"Why?" I didn't really know what had happened between the two of them. All I knew was that they had broken up because Wilke was heading off to boarding school. Daphne had never really brought him up before, with me at least. But we had gotten closer ove rthe past few weeks.
"Because it's kind of like we didn't break up because we wanted too. It was more like we had too. I mean we had no choice. So now I don't know how its going to feel now that he's going to be back. I don't even know if the feelings are still there anymore."
"Well do you want them to be there," I signed slowly.
"No." she said before pausing. "I don't know." She admitted. "It's been a while and now there's Jace and he's a great guy and I really like him. And I just don't know anymore."
"Well I don't think you'll ever really be able to be sure until he comes back. And I guess you'll have to see how it goes from there."
"Yeah." She said sighing. "You're probably right. So how did telling my mom go." She said changing the subject.
"Surprisingly well actually. I feel like everyone's being so understanding about it and I don't deserve any of it."
"Bay this is not your fault. You couldn't have prevented this from happening."
"That's what everyone keeps telling me. But it has to be. It has to be someone's fault."
"You can't think of it like that. You can't think about it like it's some sort of msitake. Because it isn't. Yes you probably didn't want it to happen. But it's something that did happen to you. And the more you regret it, the worst it's going to be for you."
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