Someone opens the door and I pace inside the room;
You are already sitting at a table, waiting for her.
I know it's for her,
Because you gave up waiting for me a long time ago.
And yet, as I notice the bulge made by the ring on your pocket,
And the anxiety in the way you hold yourself,
I still feel the strength of my own hope.
My hair has turned grey, and so have all my days
Away from you.
I pace slowly and she passes me by,
Determined and certain.
You get up as she holds your arm
In a familiar way,
And as you look at her you see me
Over her shoulder.
The smile fades away and you clutch at your heart,
Once broken, now healed.
I am so sorry,
About how selfish I am.
Because I am not sorry that I had to leave you behind – I really had.
I am just sorry I returned too late.
So forgive this heart of mine because it forgot
That I am not supposed to care.
Sentiment.
I understand it now.