Chapter 1

Summary: Okay I'm going to try a new kind of story that popped into my head today. After the birthday incident with Bella Jasper leaves to go back to his life with Peter and Charlotte drinking human blood and looking for his true mate. Him and Alice never were mates. Alice found hers in another and she's been having visions over the years of Jasper true mate so after almost killing Bella he decides it's time to stop pretending to be something he's not. Read and see if he can find who he's meant to be with. Also in my story the Cullen's don't leave Bella. Please Review.

RATED M for Sexual content and dark themes. I Don't own Twilight.

Jasper POV

"Jasper don't do this. It was an accident. No one blames you." Alice yelled to me as I pack all my stuff.

I had just tried to attack Bella and on her birthday of all days. I felt bad but I am tried of the animal blood and living where I'm not happy. I yearn to find my true mate as Alice as recently found hers in a Vampire named Trent. But now I am in my room at the Cullen's house packing all my things and leaving for the south to live with my true family. Peter and Charlotte. Where I wont feel weak and they don't try and change me.

"Alice I'm done. You know I'm not happy living like this and because of that I almost killed Edwards mate. It's time I return to my life I had before, it's time I started searching for my happiness." I yelled back.

"Jasper please you can be happy here. Well find your mate for you just don't leave." She tried again as I walked down the stairs at human pace.

"Alice just leave it. This life here is not for me. I need someone that understands that and none of you here do. I'm tired of you trying to change who I am. You found your happiness now let me go find mine." I hissed back watching as she clung to her mate as if she was losing a child. I had thought I loved Alice at one time when we first met but I soon learned we were not meant to be but I stayed thinking I belonged here but I see now I do not. I never did.

"Bella I am truly sorry for trying to attack. Everyone else good bye." I said coldly as I walked out the door to my car throwing my bag in the trunk.

"Jasper think this threw son. You don't want to live like this." Carlisle told me as everyone filed outside.

"No Carlisle I don't want to live like this anymore." I told him getting into my car and speeding down the road to what I hope will be a better life.

I remember what Alice said my mate looks like I have thought of nothing else since she reluctantly told me. She's been seeing it for years and years but I had yet to find her. According to Alice she would be human when I find her. She would have long wavy dark brown hair, hazel green eyes and pale skin, Alice said that I would know her as soon as I saw and smelt her it would be instant love. Apparently her scent would not only sing to me but scream at me as would her body and soul. She would be different than most humans. Possible already having a gift of her own meaning she will also be a kick ass Vampire when I turn her. She would also accept me for my past and lifestyle and would figure out what I was right away. According to Alice she saw us saving each other from our current miserable lives. My loneliness and her depression. I couldn't wait till I had her in my arms.

After driving for several hours I took out my phone to call Peter to make sure they were home. They were currently living in Colorado.

"Hello." Peter answered. It was good to hear his voice. Every since I turned him back when I was with Maria we were always close.

"Hey fucker." I said joking with him.

"MAJOR. How the hell have you been. It's been a while since I heard from you." Peter yelled and I could hear Charlotte in the background saying hi.

"Yes it has been to long my friend." I told him.

"So what do I owe the pleasure of your call." Peter ask knowing me all to well.

"I am coming home." I told him.

"Your coming to visit or to stay?" He ask.

"To stay I'm done with the Cullen's and the animal blood. I want my life back and I want to put all my free time into finding my mate not going to fucking school." I told him waiting for the I told you so to come from his big mouth.

"Well I'll be a son of a bitch. It's about damn time you came to your senses instead of following Alice around to make her happy instead of being off to find your own. I always thought the pixie wanted you and her mate just to give her options." he said.

"Your probably right. So I take it I can come home then." I ask.

"Of course. This is your home as well Whitlock always has been. Or is it still Hale or Cullen now." he ask.

"No smart ass it's Whitlock. I got Jenks to fix that a while ago I just never told anyone." I informed him.

"Well I'll let Char know your own your way so she can get Major Whitlock's room ready." he told me. Even after all these years he still called me Major which I secretly loved.

"I'll see you in a few hours." I told him hanging up.

I felt lighter already just by talking to them and deciding to go back. I drove till I was outside Vegas before I started getting hungry. I need to get back on Human blood, get back my red eyes.

I pulled over in a rather ruff neighborhood and got out in full out hunting mode. I saw a man down the street trying to force a women into his car. I may be back to human blood but I wouldn't drink just anyone. Only those I thought deserved to die. I stalked up towards the couple and pulled the man off the women.

"Get in the car and leave." I hissed out to the woman and waiting till she did as I told her. Turning back to the man I felt his anger towards me for ruining his night. If he only knew how this was going to end.

Dragging him into the dark alley by his throat I turned my full Vampire face on him. Is anger quickly turning to fear.

"What. What are you." he stammered out. I didn't answer I just plunged my teeth into his neck feeling as it parted like butter and the blood ran down my throat. Drag after drag of his blood and I felt my thirst quenched for the first time in years. After I had drank every last drop and his heart had stopped I disposed of his body and got back into my car. Looking into the visor mirror my eyes were no longer gold but bright red. Satisfied I started the car and headed back on the road on the way home.

After several hours of driving my phone started to buzz. Picking it up I saw it was Alice.

"What Alice." I ask.

"Jazz don't be like that. You know even though we are not meant to be I still care about you." Alice told me. I had to suppress a growl on that one. I had loved her at one time but she informed me I wasn't meant for her and that all we could be was friends. However, she didn't want me to go anywhere. Selfish.

"Is there something you wanted Alice." I ask again.

"Yes I was trying to see if I could talk you into coming back. The whole family wants you back even Bella. She feels awful. She thinks it's her fault. Edward was actually considering having us all leave but we talked him out of it." Alice said. Sighing deeply I answered.

"Alice I'm not coming back. I have made my choice and I wish you would respect it. You may not like or understand it but I have to do this. I may not love you anymore but your still my friend but I cant stay so you can have your cake and eat it too. As far as Edward goes he's free to make his own decisions no matter how idiotic they usually are. And I'm sorry Bella feels that way but honestly I don't care." I told her and I didn't. I don't have anything against Bella but I never was close to her, her guilt means nothing to me.

"Jasper this doesn't sound like you. You sound heartless." Alice told me.

"No Alice this is me you just tried to change that. Look I've made my decision. I'll visit from time to time but I have already went back to my way of life." I told her.

"You mean you've feed off a human." she ask disgusted.

"Yes I have. Good bye Alice." I told her hanging up and shutting off my cell.

A few hours later I was pulling into the drive of Peter's current house in Colorado. Since they feed off humans they tend to move more than the Cullen's but that doesn't bother me. I happen to like traveling.

Grabbing my bag I went to the front door and it opened before I even knocked.

"Major." Peter said smiling when he saw my eyes.