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CHAPTER-23

Black. That is the only word I can find to describe this moment. I see nothing. I feel nothing. I hear nothing.

It's almost peaceful. No overwhelming thoughts, no memories haunting me. I wish I could spend the rest of eternity like this, never having to feel again the pain of my past, never having to see sorrow overwhelming my features when I look in the mirror. I will no longer drag others down with me when it comes to the burden of my life before.

Suddenly, I feel an overwhelming pressure on my chest. If I could breathe I know I would let out a gasp. The pressure dissipates only to return a second later.

A voice fills my head.

"Come on Bonnie, don't you fucking do this to me."

The voice sounds familiar, and I know I long to be there, with the holder of that voice… but the black calls to me.

I feel myself seeping deeper into the darkness; without warning my chest unwillingly expands, forcing me to breathe.

"Dammit Bonnie, I'm not letting you do this."

The pressure returns to my chest, one, two, three more times, then my lungs are forced to expand with air again.

A new voice is now added to the mixture.

"Bones… it's been forty min-"

"Shut up Jim. Just for once in your life shut your God damn mouth!" The first voice snaps, sounding somewhat desperate, the voice I now recognize to be Leonard's.

"Jim, perhaps we should check on the prisoner, he may have caused this reaction," a new voice says, steadier than any of the others and emotionless.

I couldn't see it but I'm assuming what I now recognize to be Jim nodded, because I hear two pairs of footsteps dying away.

The pressure returns in my chest, and I'm beginning to believe Leonard may be administering CPR an early Terran form of resuscitation in a desperate attempt to I think save my life. I abruptly realize, they are trying to bring me out of the black.

I find it kind of witty that I have named what I am experiencing the black, because like outer space, this territory is completely unexplored, though I doubt there is much to explore except just black…

My dilemma is why should I leave the black? It's the first place in my life that I have not had to feel pain; I have not had to experience my horrible memories weighing down on me.

"Bonnie, please, I know you probably can't hear me," the pressure returns to my chest, "But if you can, please, please come back." I've never heard Leonard talk like this before, he sounds distressed, like as if at any moment he could just unhinge under the weight of his emotions.

Leonard. The one thing that is missing from the black. The black can shield me from the pain of my memories, and makes me feel safe and secure, but I realize that's how I feel when I'm with Leonard. But the thing about being with Leonard is I'm also happy there. Here it is just emotionless, almost cold, but that's also its downfall. I don't get to experience any positive emotions. I don't get to revisit the happiness I have felt whenever I am with Leonard, I don't get to feel the joy and love…

Saving me from the unpleasant memories, is why I longed to remain in the black, but I realize, it saves me from my happiest memories too.

Deciding that there is only one option, I try to pry myself out of the black, but I already know it's no use, I'm too far gone.

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THIRD PERSON POV

Jim and Spock quickly make their way down to the brig, walking an extraordinarily quick pace.

"Where are you going? What happened?" asks Uhura who suddenly pulls them both to a stop.

"Bonnie coded, she's been flat lining for," Jim looks at his watch, "almost forty-five minutes now."

Uhura lets out a small gasp which she attempts to stifle with her hand, "But that means sh-she's dead."

Jim nods, "But Bones is refusing to give up, he keeps trying to resuscitate her…" Jim shakes his head sorrowfully, "he's even been reduced to using CPR…"

"CPR?"

"You know the early Terran for-"

"I know what CPR is!" Uhura snaps, "but that is only used when on the field…"

"Look Bones is in some state of shock I'm guessing, he's doing whatever he thinks will save her," Jim explains pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Jim, we are wasting time," Spock tells him, and Jim nods. They proceed down to the brig.

"Wait, where are you guys going?" Uhura asks.

"We are going to question the Emperors son, we believe he may be the cause of Doctor Stephens' peculiar reaction," Spock informs her as he continues to walk.

"H-How?"

"We believe he forced her into a type of marriage bond, binding their minds, that is how Doctor Stephens' memory became impaired," Spock explains.

"And this explains her d-death how?" Uhura asks, still finding it hard to comprehend the fact that Bonnie has died.

"I have a theory," is all Spock says before they enter the brig.

Davininadi perks up, his eyes following the three as they enter the room.

"Ah… it is good to see you Captain, I've been meaning to ask you, how is my wife?" Davininadi asks, his eyes glinting with joy, his strained standard slightly more accurate.

"You know damn we-"

"Tsk, tsk, tsk, Captain… that is not how we treat out guests, and let alone one that is controlling the life source of one of your crew members," he smiles malevolently.

"What did you do?" Uhura growls coming up to the front of the group.

"My, my! You are a pleasant specimen… what I would do to you, if only I wasn't married. Not that that counts for much these days," Davininadi says, grinning madly. Spock swiftly yet calmly pushes Uhura behind him, "Ah… so I have a question Lieutenant, that's your rank, is it not? Is the Vulcan efficient in pleasing you? Because I heard that Vulcans have a hard time, as you humans would say, keeping it up… that could merely be a rumor, but then again aren't all rumors based on truth?"

"What did you do to Doctor Stephens?" Spock asks, emotionlessly but his eyes display his anger.

"Ah… straight to business, that answers a few questions that I had about your performance in the bedroom… Well, Lieutenant, if you are ever craving an enjoyab-"

"What did you do to Doctor Stephens?" Spock asks, now almost visibly seething.

"I saved her," is all Davininadi provides, still eyeing Uhura, even from her new position behind Spock.

"Saved her?"

"She had a troubled mind, filled with unpleasant memories… I took that away, I gave her a new life, a happy life."

"You raped her!" Jim snarls, making Uhura's eyes widen, this information being new to her.

"Believe me, after the bonding it was consensual. She put up quite a fight at first," he presents his arms displaying the purple scabbing scratches on his orange skin, "but she enjoyed it in the end."

"Why did you do it?" Jim asks his eyes narrowed.

Davininadi sighs, "Desire, I guess maybe one of the reasons… need being the other. You see, I had yet to have chosen a mate, and me and my brother both did not want to breed within the family. So, we convinced our father to request to join the federation," Davininadi explains, "It was just good fortune that they arrived with two physically attractive females.

"However mentally, I have to say my brother got the pick of the litter. Mine seemed to have faced a decent amount of emotional trauma… she has been subjected to rape, physical and emotional abuse, and let's not forget her numerous failed pregnancies. It took a lot of effort to block that all out, but I managed, and I made her the perfect mate. She was loyal, loving, and she did not hesitate when it came to pleasing me," he chuckles, "We were only together for a night, but with my races keen ability to fornicate until fertilization is achieved, those hours were far from wasted… I surprised she survived at all, there are not many humans that can survive mating with a Tetamazoid, but your doctor she survived it, many, many, times over…"

"You son of a-" Jim starts, his eyes burning with ferocity.

Davininadi continues, interrupting Jim, "But my brother, Lucracio, he was the lucky one, his mate, did not need the memory modification, after talking to her for the day, she seemed to become enamored with our race, she found his skin color appealing, and his telepathic touch captivating… he did not need to strong arm her into the marriage bonding."

"Just tell us what happened to Bonnie!" Jim yells furiously.

"Ah… well that is far simpler, you see, when Bonnie came to visit me before the Vulcan preformed the meld, we shared a kiss… after the kiss I preformed a little trick my ancestors developed. I knew if you succeeded in restoring her memory that she would loathe me, possibly set out to kill me, and we Tetamazoids do not like possible causes of harm… so I tampered with the bond, if she ever thought a negative or threatening thought towards myself, basically wished me dead, I would know. Through the bond, I can control her mind, and her brains other functions, so I simply shut off her heart, stopping her blood flow, and I shut down her nervous system," he explains with a wicked grin.

"And is there any possible way of restoring it?" Jim asks.

"If I desired to restore it I could… but then again, I do not wish to restore it…"

"What will it take?" Jim asks hastily.

"Oh…" he chuckles, "the price is too high for even you… And sadly we are running out of time, the body cannot be restored if dead for over an hour, and sadly, by the looks of your watch Captain… you only have five minutes left."

"We will send you back to your home planet," Jim offers desperately, "All charges dropped!"

"Jim-" Uhura starts.

"What would you rather have this prick locked up and Bonnie dead, or do you want her to be alive?!"

"It doesn't matter anyway Captain. I have no desire to return to my home planet."

"Then what do you want?!" Jim asks.

"Another mate," Davininadi smiles.

"No," Jim says automatically. "Something else!"

"Hmmm… fine. I wish you to take me to the planet Orion, and drop all charges," Davininadi smiles, knowing that Jim would never say yes to that knowing what Davininadi is capable of.

Jim pinches the bridge of his nose before replying, "Okay."

"Okay?" Davininadi and Uhura ask at the same time.

"Yes! I said okay! Now save Bonnie's life before I beg the federation to bring back execution as a legal form of punishment!"

Davininadi nods, looking somewhat triumphant he closes his eyes.

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BONNIE'S POV

Suddenly the darkness begins to recede, the bright lights of medbay coming into focus as I blink. How did it happen?

I know I didn't do it myself, I became hopeless, condemned to an eternity of darkness…

"B-Bonnie?" asks a hopeful voice, ragged with tiredness appears the face of Leonard McCoy.

"Leonard," I breathe, looking into his chocolate brown eyes as he looks down at me.

"I-I thought I lost you," Leonard says, breaking out into a wide smile, one of the rare smiles that I have grown to love.

"You didn't, I'm right here," I smile, ignoring the pain stemming from all over my body I sit up, and before he can tell me that I need to lie down, that I need to rest, I desperately capture his lips with mine.

My arms work their way around his neck and I can feel him placing his hands on my waist. I hear several pairs of footsteps sprinting into the medbay, but I don't care about them right now, right now it's just me and Leonard alone in our own little world.

I pull back from his lips only to whisper, "I love you," and for the first time in years, I said it and I mean it.

Space: the final frontier. These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise. Its five-year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilizations, to boldly go where no man (or woman) has gone before.

THE END

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