I am the daughter of Ciel and Elizabeth Phantomhive.

My name is Isabella Phantomhive.

I am ten years of age.

But I hate it.

My father lost his parents at that age.

That is my reason.

I am in the study room practising my violin skills.

I want to please my father.

I want him to smile, for me.

He doesn't really smile that much and he wears this odd looking eye patch.

My mother adores father so much.

She would do anything for him.

Everyone says I look like my father.

Which is a good thing and a bad thing.

I have dark bluish hair and green eyes.

Am guessing you know already.

I am fed up with this boring violin, I shall go and do something fun.

Hmm

I know, I shall ask father to play with me.

I was skipping down the hallway to father room.

Well, I hope this is a good idea.

I was about to knock when I heard my father and my mother discussing something.

I am curious.

"Dear, whatever is the matter"

I heard my father sigh.

"It's Isabella"

My heart stopped for a moment.

"Why was she born a girl, I need a boy to be the heir"

Huh

My father wanted a boy.

In my heart I knew this but to hear him say that.

"Ciel, I know but Isabella is our pride and joy"

I love my mother for saying that.

"I know, but what can she do, she is useless in everything she is taught"

My heart wanted to break at his words.

I thought father loved me.

I ran to my room sobbing.

What can I do?

He was right.

I am useless.

I am not good at my studies and I give up too often.

I want to disappear.

One day I hope to make father smile.

But I haven't got the right to call him father.

He hates me…

I am in a sad mood. So I wrote something gloomy. I have no idea if I will continue this. But if you liked it, please let me know :)