(A/N) Sorry its been so long. I was caught up in all my classes. and I could finally get myself some braces! :D yeah... but the bad part is, they also gave me this thing called a tongue guard and it makes me talk funny... And now at least once a day, some one will tell me to say 'she sold sea shells down by the sea shore'. And the worst part is that its never the same person telling me to say it... well, you don't want to hear about my problems... its been a month, you probably want to read.

The weekend was shortly lived. What seemed like mere hours was realities cruel way of pulling me from one of the few times I could relax and have a nice time with Roy. Now, i'm on the train ride home with Roy sitting across from was half asleep, resting his head on his arms. I was looking out the window and occasionally at Roy.

The whole trip had me baffled. Roy can be kind of that I didn't enjoy my time with him this weekend but, for little less than a day, he was mourning over Simon. I don't need to tell you why that's a little awkward.

I wonder why he even brought me with him? Could it be so I could meet Simon? Hawkeye said she didn't even know the whole story, who says she even knows who Simon is?

The thoughts rushing through my head left me in a daze. Just thinking about all of it gives me a headache. I guess, if you ignore the bad things, this trip was pretty cool. I learned a lot about Roy, and he's kinda cool too. And maybe a little dedicated. I mean, he still loves the same guy who has been dead for about as long as I've been alive.

An announcement from the train's conductor saying we will be at our stop in about five minutes or so snapped me from my thoughts and Roy from his half conscious state.

Roy fixed his posture and wiped his face with his sleeve. Going from half asleep too serious and alert.

"Ed, i'm sorry" He looked directly at me and folded his hands together. I looked at him in confusion. "I'm sorry if I behaved inappropriately on our trip.

I let out a long sigh and grinned.

"It's okay. Its not like it was an inconvenience or anything. All in all, I had a great time spending my time with you." I smiled and when I realized what I said, I blushed ever so slightly and hid behind my hair.

Roy chuckled and ran a hand through his fine, black hair and resting back a little. I like him better this way. Relaxed and not so tense. When he lets go.

The train stopped and we got off. He offered to walk me to my apartment. We talked all the way there. Laughing at each others comments and stories about missions we have been on. Talking about branches of alchemy. The more we talked the more I wished this could last forever. Everything he said and every time he smiled at me made me feel all fluttery on the inside of my chest. It felt nice but I hated it. I don't want to feel like this. Not with Roy. Hes just too good for the liking's of me.

We reached my apartment and I felt disappointed. We said our goodbyes and he started to walk away. Something made me feel like my heart was being squeezed to no end.

"Roy..! wait…" I said, reaching my arm out to him. He turned around and looked at me like I was crazy.

"Yeah Ed?"

"Roy… um… I…" My stomach turned and I instantly regretted calling out to him.

"Ed, you alright?" he questioned

I swallowed. my mind may be against it, but my heart might have well just beet it up with a bat. I Run towards him. I get as close as I can and quickly got on my tip toes, placed my hands on his chest, and kissed him.

He stood there motionless. Wide eyes like a deer caught in the headlights of a car. I pulled back and looked at him. My face was completely red from embarrassment. I ran inside and hit my head.

How could I be so stupid?

"Welcome back brother." I hear my brother say. He was in the living room reading a book. I waved at him and ran to my room and pulled out my blades.

Hes the womanizer of central, he loves Simon still, and I'm a kid. There are too many reasons for him not to be interested in me. What made me think I could mean something other to him other than his subordinate.

I make a cut about halfway in between my wrist and elbow.

I hear a knock at the front door. Probably Roy, going to tell me how inappropriate that was and that he wants nothing more than a professional relationship with me.

I heard the door open and some light chatting. I cut my arm over and over. What a shame, they were finally starting to heal too. I hear my bedroom door open and Alphonse steps in.

"Hey brother, there's an officer Jens- Brother what are you doing?!"

I rolled down my sleeve just to let him roll it back up once more. I couldn't look at him. I bet if he could, he might be crying. His face would be filled with confusion, anger, sadness, regret, shock,and you can see where I'm going with this. he placed his thumb on my cuts and ran it over them. Spreading blood all over my arm.

the officer came in the room and noticed us. "I can see this is a bad time Edward, I have your belongings, I'll just leave them in the other room."He walked away shyly. Al didn't even look up.

"Brother…" He didn't look up "Why?"

Did you not just see the police officer walk in just now?

"Its pretty fucking obvious…" I mumbled.

"lets go clean this up…" He said, dragging me to the bathroom. He got a damp cloth and wipped the drying blood off my arm.

I heard a knock at the door.

Wow I'm pretty fucking popular when I'm busy.

"Ed, open the door..! Please?" I heard Roy say from outside. Alphonse didn't look anywhere but my arm and kept sliding the damp, warm cloth on my arm. "Alphonse? I should probably go get the door." I lifted his hand off my arm and rolled down my sleeve.

I heard another raped knocking at the door before leaving Al. I walk to the door and swallow my pride. I hide behind my hair and open the door.

Before he could say anything, I blurted out: "I'm sorry Roy. That was inappropriate of me."

I felt his hand rest on my left shoulder and he sighed. "Fullme-... Ed." He paused and tilted my chin up with his other hand. "You are the most stubborn person I have ever meet. You fuck up. A lot. And you can get really annoying." He said all this with a straight face. My eyes were beginning to tear up but I couldn't look away.

"But," He began, "You're also strong both physically and mentally, smart, funny, brilliant, beautiful, determined, amazing, a great brother to Alphonse, a great friend to everyone you meet, and much more. Thats why I want to be with you." He hugged me and played with the back of my braid.

A tear feel from my eye. I dont know if it was because upset from what he said before or because i'm over joyed.

He pulled back and kissed me. His lips tasted like cheap instant coffee and peaches… with a hint of dog.

Al walked back in and gasped. I look back at him and see his head resting on the palm of his hand. "Today is full of surprises from you, isn't that right brother?" He said shaking his head.

"Hey Al, I'm sorry." I said and he looked up. "You know, for being so stupid."

"Brother…" He walked up to me and slapped my face.

"What the hell was that for?!" I yell

"First off, don't act like you're alright when you're not. It scares me and and then this happens" he said looking at my clothed arm.

"And second, don't apologize for something for something anyone would do in your situation."

"What do you mean?" Roy asked.

"What I mean is, I thought over this brother. Everyone is bound to mess up at one point or another. Some more than others. When someone can't handle something, they do something to get their mind off it. Not only would I lose my mind if I had a constant reminder of my failures, " he pointed at himself. "But I would probably lose my will to live. Brother, you're stronger than most people. Probably stronger than the colonel. I couldn't do anything if it wasn't for you. So, if you want to talk, i'm here. Just don't do anything so harsh to where we can't help you anymore."

I just stare at the two of them. Roy who understands me no one else does and I understand him, and Al who has stood by me side since the day he was born. These are just two of the many people who care for me. I pull them close and hug them both. I start to cry in their shoulders.

"I probably look like a real stupid kid right now. Don't I?" I ask, sobbing a little in between words.

"Since when don't you?" Roy said sarcastically.

"Shut up bastard" I joked and playfully punched him. "I'm a fool without you guys. I'm just glad to have you both."

(A/N) Oh look, its done... well that sucks... I was having fun writing this... Well I love you all for reading this and I hope you will like my future fics! don't forget to leave a review! 3