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"Alex stop messing with Reed." April hissed.

"What are you talking about?" Alex sighed.

"You know what I'm talking about Alex Karev trading sex for surgery's that isn't you."

"You don't know what Is me anymore April." He shook his head walking away.

"I know you better then you'll ever know." She mumbled to herself.

Neither of them had noticed Meredith watching them.

"Hey you have any clue what is going on between Alex and that Kepner chick from Mercy West?" Meredith asked as she sat down next to Cristina.

"No there is something going on between him and perky from Mercy West didn't see that coming now the shorter one Reed I think yeah that I Had heard about."

"Well I overheard them talking and it sounds like they've known each other for like awhile. Maybe longer then we've known him."

"Alex always did have mystery to him." Cristina said.

"Yeah but this just seemed. I don't know off."

"What that he had friends before us I seem to remember someone who called you Death showing up here last year." Cristina chuckled.

"I don't know I have a feeling that it was more then friends whatever it was between them."

"Hmm intriguing." Cristina said.

Alex sat down his own lunch in front of him. "What he snapped noticing the sets of eyes on him.

"So…." Cristina smirked.

"What's with you and Kepner."

"What are you talking about? He glared.

"Well Mer heard you two talking and now she's convinced that you two have some long lost romantic history. "

"Cristina." Meredith hissed.

"Leave me alone." Alex growled standing up and stalking away.

"Yeah I think you're right," Cristina said there is something going on there."

"And you really had to gourd him to find that out." Meredith rolled her eyes.

"Well it's Alex that's what I do." Cristina shrugged.

"What ever it is I Hope you remembers he is married."

"Yeah but Izzy left so should he really care." Cristina shrugged. "Long lost love vs wife now that could be interesting."

"You are twisted no wonder Owen calls us the twisted sisters." Meredith shook her head.

"Hey what the heck." April said as she was pulled into a closet. "Alex what are you doing?" she glared.

"Thanks to your little warning today now Cristina and Meredith are suspicious of us."

"You know what Alex go to hell." April snapped. "I'm tired of being your dirty little secret. I'm tired of you being ashamed of me of our past or what ever the hell it is you want to hide so do it. Go screw Reed I don't care because maybe you're right and maybe I don't know you anymore and that pains me damn it. It pains me because you'll always be that boy I loved all those years ago and I know he's still in there somewhere but I can't kill myself with loving you anymore so do what you want you always have."

With that she opened the door and stormed off leaving a very confused and stunned Alex standing there.

Could he fight for her. He wanted to. He wanted to fight tooth and nail for that woman but could he, he feared he didn't have it in him to fight for her and it sounded like she'd given up on him anyway. He'd once again ruined his life. And let the one good thing he had slip through his fingers.