A/N: Merry Christmas everyone! xo
I really couldn't leave it alone, so I decided to just go for it :D Here's a story about Tony's Jamaica trip for Christmas 2013 (kinda canon cause he said he'd go to Jamaica but then again, it's AU because I doubt the writers interpreted it like this lol)
Summary: "I wish I could tell everyone" "Tony, we talked about this. That is why we are here and not in Israel or Washington" Will Tony's only Christmas wish come true in Jamaica? Tiva. Post 11x02.
Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS or any of it's characters. Ugh, mom, why didn't you give it to me for Christmas?
Please enjoy reading! :)
"I wish I could tell everyone", Tony whispered.
He was laying in bed next to Ziva, his fingers playing with her hair. Her hand was absently drawing patterns on his chest. It was Christmas Eve and they had just watched "It's A Wonderful Life" together. Tony had insisted to watch it and had therefore brought his DVD with him.
"Tony, we talked about this. That is why we are here and not in Israel or Washington", Ziva sighed.
Yeah, and there was that. They'd agreed to meet in Jamaica instead, assuming nobody would even get the idea that they were spending Christmas together. As far as he was concerned, nobody even knew he was in contact with Ziva. Two months ago, she'd contacted him, saying she couldn't go another day without hearing from him on a regular basis. The Jamaica idea had been established some time in early December. And now here they were, in a random Jamaican hotel room, spending the Holidays together.
"I know. I just..I wish you'd come home", he said quietly.
He knew it was a touchy subject but he couldn't help but bring it up once in a while. God, he just wanted her to come home. Why was that so hard?
"Not yet, Tony", she sighed, trailing her hand up and down his chest in a comforting gesture.
"When?", he pressed.
"I do not know."
"Ziva, it's been months."
"You said you understood."
"And I do. I promise I do. It's just..it's hard."
Ziva leaned closer to his face, their lips only inches apart. He could feel her warm breath on his face, his lips. And God, how he'd missed that feeling. To be honest, it didn't really matter that he wasn't able to tell anyone about this. What mattered was that she was here with him and they were spending the holidays together, taking a major step forward in their more than difficult relationship.
"I love you", she whispered against his lips.
He swallowed hard, trying to push back his questions about why she wasn't coming home. Instead he tried to focus on the good.
"I love you, too", he replied.
Gently he pressed his lips to hers, releasing a sigh of relief when their lips finally met. It wasn't the first kiss they'd shared since meeting again. But every time they did it felt like his life was slowly taking on meaning again. His whole world along with his heart had been shattered back in September and now he was carefully putting the pieces back together, with her help.
"What did you tell the others?", Ziva asked carefully when they broke the kiss.
"The truth", he stated simply.
She gasped and stared at him with wide eyes. "I thought you..", she started but he pressed his finger to her lips, effectively silencing her.
"I said I was going to Jamaica for the holidays", he said and she released a breath she didn't realize she'd been holding.
"And that I was bringing more than one mistletoe", he added with a cheeky grin.
She playfully punched him in the shoulder and laughed. Sometimes he was just being ridiculous but she'd be lying if she said she didn't love that about him.
"You did not really bring a mistletoe though, did you?", she questioned, a smirk on her lips.
"Well, what if I did?", he asked, smirking right back at her.
She laughed and let her head fall to his chest. He didn't question her actions but instead just enjoyed the fact that she didn't seem to have any problem with physical contact. He ran his hand through her hair, relishing the feeling.
"What happens after the holidays are over?", he eventually managed to ask, his voice cracking.
It was the question he'd feared to ask because God, he knew the answer would break him. And he knew it was pointless to even ask but he just needed to know. Maybe she'd changed her mind? Maybe it was his..Christmas present?
She lifted her head off his chest and looked into his eyes. Her hand came up to ruffle his hair lovingly. He couldn't help but lean into her touch and close his eyes for a brief second. It felt so good to be close to her. He would never get enough of it.
"I will never let you go like that again", she whispered.
His heart skipped a beat and a huge grin spread across his face. However, he soon realized the meaning of the second part of her statement and his face fell. Like that. That didn't really sound like she'd never let him go again period but rather like she'd let him go again but meanwhile try not to hurt him too much. Like that was even possible.
"So, you will let me go just not like that", he stated bitterly.
She sighed deeply and rested her forehead against his. For a moment, they didn't say anything. It felt a lot like that moment in the grove months ago. However, this time he had been even more sure he had a chance of bringing her home with him only to be disappointed again. God, this sucked. Big time.
"It is complicated. I do not know whether I am ready just yet", she said quietly.
No matter how hard he tried to hate her for that simple statement, he couldn't. He wasn't sure he would ever be able to. She was his soul mate after all. And no matter how many times she decided to take his heart and then shatter it into a million pieces, he was pretty sure he'd still give it to her willingly all over again. Every single time. He couldn't not give it to her because it belonged to her after all. She owned his heart. Nobody else ever would.
"We still have a week together. Perhaps I will know my answer by then", she whispered, seeming to sense his discomfort and insecurity.
He couldn't deny that it sounded quite good to him. It was more than a 'no' after all. He'd just have to believe that his Christmas wish would come true.
"Now, are you ready for another movie?", Ziva asked, trying desperately to change the topic.
He smirked and rolled them over so he was hovering over her.
"Why, Miss David, I had something else in mind", he teased before closing the gap between them in a passionate kiss.
A/N: I'd be willing to continue this story but that's up to you. Do you want me to continue or leave it at this one chapter? :)
Please let me know what you think, what could be improved and...if you want me to continue or not in the reviews section! :) xo
I hope you all had a very merry Christmas and spent lovely days with your family! I'll go to my grandma's house today and my cousin and aunt will be there too ;) It's the thiiiird Christmas celebration in three days lol
Love y'all,
~ C.