I Can't Get Up

Rating: T – for suicidal thoughts and behaviors, emotional trauma, implications, and heavy feels.

Pairings: None at all. Unless you count Amy/Rory, but that's cannon so I don't.

Author's Note: I've been lurking around the Avengers/Doctor Who crossovers for some time now. I've found an amount of stories that had wonderful ideas, but I've found that a disheartening amount of them actually lived up to the great descriptions. A small number of them involved the Doctor rescuing Loki after he fell, but none of them dived too deep into what could've happened next. They all seemed to take the route that the Doctor could 'fix him with love' and all that jazz. I say bullshit to that. Only one of them acknowledged the fact that Loki was suicidal, but it hasn't been updated yet.

Loki is a person with serious issues that spanned for more than a hundred years. He needs more than just 'love' to fix him and in all honestly I doubt that he could even be fixed. Despite how hard it may be, we still need to acknowledge the Avengers as cannon. I'm sorry if this makes me sound like an elitist jerk, but if you want something done right, you should do it yourself.

Chapter 1

It was cold.

So. Very. Cold.

The emptiness of space wrapped itself around the falling boy.

Because, really, he was nothing more than a boy. Only around 1000. 1200? 300? 1 He didn't care to remember.

He didn't care to try.

Why should he care? He expected to be dead by now, so why should he care about anything anymore?

Why?

The silence of the void was louder than anything the boy has ever heard. The only thing that he could do was think.

He didn't want that. Not at all. He hated the thoughts that still lingered in his mind.

'Why did this happen?'

'Why didn't it work?'

'Did I do something wrong?'

'This was a mistake.'

'I miss home.'

'But what is home?'

'Do they even care?'

'. . . where did it all go wrong?'

The boy clenched his teeth and squeezed shut his eyes, willing the tears to not flow.

They would've only frozen to his face, due to the bitter, heartless cold.

1 Loki is only 1048. Assuming that a Frost Giant's lifespan is the same as an Asgardian's, he's 1048/5000. Now, the average age of a human in a well developed country is around 85.

In Midgardian terms, Loki is around 17/8 years old.

Author's Note: I hope you liked this short intro chapter.

Now, I'm making this a crossover with the Avengers instead of Thor because, while mostly focusing on Loki, it also focuses on the future and what happened in the Avengers. I hope that my logic isn't too horribly flawed.

Again, I'm sorry is my earlier note made me sound like an asshole.

(…I just realized that my ANs put together are longer than the actual chapter. Oops.)

Goodbye, readers.