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A/N: Hello my lovelies *waves* thanks for the amazing reviews you all are awesome! This chapter is just a filler no drama just some good old fashioned fun.
Last time….
"You think we can do this?" She asks me.
"Yeah." I give her a small smile as I know exactly what her question was.
"Let's do this then." she says taking my hand as I pull her into a hug. I don't know where this is going to lead us but I know that this time I am not going to mess it up.
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Mr. Shue's….
RPOV…
As I walked up the steps of my former Glee teacher's house I am taken back to a time when I let my insecurities get the best of me. I am also a bit nervous because Finn is here. I knock on the door and I am greeted by Mr. Shue.
"Rachel I am so glad you made it!" He tells me as he pulls me into a hug.
"Thanks Mr. Shue." I tell him as I fix my shirt.
"Rachel I am no longer your teacher so I think it is safe to call me Will." He tells me giving me a smile.
"Ok." I give him a strange look. I know that it has been ten years since he has been my teacher but calling him by his first name is still strange to me.
"Everyone is out back if you want to join them." I give him a slight nod as I make my way to where everyone is. As I walk out on to the patio I am greeted by Santana, Quinn, and Mercedes.
"Hey guys." I greet them with a hug.
"Girl you are smoking' I see New York has helped you on your fashion sense." Santana quips.
"You know, I think that it the nicest thing you have said to me." I joke. If someone would've told me ten years ago that Santana and I would be friends I would've had them checked out at the nearest mental hospital.
"So…" Mercedes asks standing there with her arms crossed. Giving me that look.
"What?" I ask playing dumb as I look around the party to see if I can spot Finn.
"Girl, don't play dumb with me. What is up with you and Finn?" I try to figure out away to answer this cause right now I am not really sure.
"Oh, dear god." I hear Quinn say as we turn to where she is looking and on stage is Finn, Puck, Sam, and Jesse singing. While this would not be a bad thing cause they do have amazing voices it's more the song that they are singing.
(Puck starts out the song and the girls just bust out laughing)
This speech is my recital, I think it's very vital
To rock (a rhyme), that's right (on time)
"It's Tricky" is the title, here we go...
We stand there with a mixture of awe and embarrassment as we watch them make total asses out of themselves.
"Oh my god I can't watch this." Quinn says shaking her head looking for the nearest exit.
(All four start rapping the chorus.)
It's tricky to rock a rhyme, to rock a rhyme that's right on time
It's tricky
It's tricky (tricky) tricky (tricky)
It's tricky to rock a rhyme, to rock a rhyme that's right on time
It's tricky
Tr-tr-tr-tricky (tricky) trrrrricky
"Should we like do something?" Mercedes who can't stop laughing says.
"You know it's like watching a train wreck you know you should stop but looking but, for some reason you can stop." Santana's says thankful that she doesn't have to claim the four tools on stage.
(Finn)
I met this little girly
Her hair was kinda curly
Went to her house and bust her out
I had to leave real early
These girls are really sleazy
All they just say is, "Please me"
"Or spend some time and rock a rhyme"
I said, "It's not that easy"
"Hey, Finn's got some pretty good moves there." Quinn says with obvious sarcasm in her voice.
"Now, I know why I didn't want to come to this thing." There really are no words for what is going on right now. It's like I am on a bad acid trip not, that I would know what that was like but, I am pretty much sure this is similar. The girls and I continue to stand there and laugh at what is unfolding on stage. I do have to admit that they really weren't that bad.
"Come on." Santana says grabbing my hand.
"What are we doing?" I ask confused.
"We are going to show these boys how it's done." she tells me as she tries to drag me on the stage. I see the other two start laughing.
"Oh, if I am going them so are you two." I say pointing at Mercedes and Quinn.
"Fine." both girls say as Santana and I drag them on to the stage.
(Santana, Quinn ,and Mercedes)
It's tricky to rock a rhyme, to rock a rhyme that's right on time
It's tricky (How is it D?)
It's tricky (tricky) tricky (trrrrricky)
It's tricky to rock a rhyme, to rock a rhyme that's right on time
It's tricky
Tricky (tricky) tricky
"Hey." Finn whispers and gives me a huge smile.
"Oh, hey we figured you guys might want some help." I tell him trying to keep up with the song. This is almost as bad as the time that Mr. Shue tried to get us to sing Bust A Move.
"Well…here then." He says handing me the mic as we continue with the song.
(Finn and Rachel well Rachel is doing her best attempt)
In New York the people talk and try to make us rhyme
They really (hope) but we just (walk) because we have no time
And in the city it's a pity 'cause we just can't hide
Tinted windows don't mean nothin', they know who's inside
I find myself stumbling over the words as I try my best to keep up. Everyone is now laughing at us on stage. There are few things that I am not good at and rapping is one of them. When the song ends I quickly get off the stage trying to save myself from any further embarrassment. I grab a drink and take a seat at one of the empty tables. I sit there and watch everyone else having a good time. It's not like I am not having a good time it's just I keep finding my mind drifting onto other things. Mainly Finn and how we are going to do this whole parenting thing. Does he expect me to drop everything in New York and move back to Lima? I know that I could never ask him to leave his life here. Is he going to want to fight me for custody of Lea I hope not because I don't know what I would do if I ever lost her she has been the one thing that has kept me grounded. I know I need to talk to him about this but, not now. I look over to where he is standing he is laughing and talking to Puck and Sam. I take a sip of my drink and close my eyes as I let the burn of the warm liquid numb me. I try to get myself to focus on the song that is playing but, when I hear the song playing I feel like I am going to lose it. I needed to get out of here before he sees me because I know that if I come face to face with him right now he will see right through this façade I have been holding up. I grab my glass and down the rest of my drink *wham!* I am met with a brick wall or what feels like a brick wall. I raise my head to see what or who I have ran into and there he is looking at me with those whiskey colored eyes. "Sorry I-I didn't see you there." I say as I start to walk away I feel his hand grab my arm.
I know it's late
I know you're weary
I know your plans don't include me
Still here we are
Both of us lonely
"Dance with me." He says softly.
"Finn….I-I can't." I say trying not to let him see the tears that are forming in my eyes.
"Look…I know that things are a bit complicated between us right now but, I just want one dance with you that is all." I blink away the tears and look up and him. As soon as our eyes meet I'm done it is like I am eighteen all over again. "Come on, for old times sake?" he says as he holds his hand out. I push my thoughts away as I give him a slight nod and take his hand. It's just one dance right? What could it hurt? I thought as he led me out to where everyone else was dancing.
Longing for shelter from all that we see
Why should we worry?
No one will care, girl
Look at the stars now, so far away
He pulls me closer to him as he begins to sing softly I close my eyes and let his voice and the warmth of him take over my senses. I feel his hand on my lower back and it sends a wave of electricity through my body. I can feel my traitor body reacting to his touch. I don't know how much longer I can take this. I begin to sing along with him listening to the lyrics and taking in the moment.
We've got tonight
Who needs tomorrow?
We've got tonight, babe, why don't you stay?
I had forgotten how well our voices blended together I lay my head on his shoulder not sure of what to do. We continue to dance and sing along to the song like we are the only two people there.
Deep in my soul
I've been so lonely
All of my hopes now so fading away
I've longed for love
Like everyone else does
I know I'll keep searching after today
I know that this whole thing is wrong and I probably shouldn't even be thinking the things I am thinking but this just feels so perfect. Everything about us fits perfectly.
So there it is, girl We've got it all now We've got tonight
And here we are, babe
What do you say?
Who needs tomorrow?
We've got tonight, babe, why don't we stay?
As I lift my head up I am met with the most amazing set of whiskey colored eyes. We both continue singing not taking our eyes off each other. I find myself getting lost in his eyes. I feel him leaning closer to me as my heart begins to race. Our lips are mere inches apart his breath is this strange mixture of beer and cigarettes while, I can't stand smoking I feel myself strangely turned on by this. One slight move and our lips would be touching, part of me knows that this is wrong and we should talk before we do anything else. The other part of me that is screaming at me to just forget about everything else and just kiss him. I close my eyes in anticipation of our lips meeting. "let's get out of here." he whispers in my ear. I open my eyes and give him a slight nod as I take his hand. We walk past the crowd and I see out of the corner of my eye Jesse with a confused look on his face. Which, means that he is going to want to know all the details of what is going on. I swear he is worse than a woman when it comes to gossip.
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Finn and I had been driving around town for quite sometime. Neither of us have said a word since leaving the party. As I reach for the radio hoping to break the silence I feel his hand brush against mine. "Sorry." he says as he quickly moves his hand.
"No, go ahead it's your car." I tell him placing my hand in my lap. God why did this have to be so awkward with us. I can hear an all familiar tune playing on the radio. I close my eyes trying to keep the tears that are threatening to fall at bay. I am brought back to the first time we sang together it was one happiest times in my life it was also the first time that he had told me that he loved me. I begin to softly sing along to the song. Letting my mind drift of to a time that was less complicated.
I feel the car come to a stop and I quickly open my eyes and I can feel his eyes on me, I slowly turn my head and once again we are face to face.
"I can't do this." He says his voice is thick with emotion.
I take a deep breath and ask. "Can't do what?"
He reaches over and takes my hand and places it to his chest. "Rachel I don't know what is going on between us but I do know that I want to be in our daughter's life. I know what it is like to grow up without a father and that is something that I don't want for Lea. I would like it if maybe after this weekend I could come to New York and see her?"
I think about what Finn is asking. I want nothing more than for him to be a part of her life. I throw all my thoughts of him out as I take a deep breath. " I think that would be great."
Finn's face lights up. "Really? Rachel thank you." He leans over and gives me a hug and I thought pops into my head.
"Hey…would you like to come over and talk to her on Skype?" I ask I know that I may be taking a huge risk here but…I think that it will be worth it.
"Ya…I would like that." He says as he gives me one last smile as we drive back to my dads' house.
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