-Truths of the Heart-
You May Be My Future
Domon and Rain
I sit quietly, staring into the long mirror that is placed before me. What do I see as a reflection? A woman, or maybe still a girl who is indecisive of her future. Auburn colored hair, cerulean colored eyes, a thin figure; those things don't matter to me right now. They are only physical traits, something everyone has. What I am looking for in my reflection are my inner thoughts and feelings.
I sit in front of this mirror today not trying to feel sorry for myself but to pass judgment upon myself. This is because, for the longest time now, I have felt true love.
It is true that I am not a very outgoing person when it comes to sharing my emotions and neither is the person I have feelings for. We have known each other since childhood; we have been through losses and fights together. We have been over mountains of danger, swam through seas of emotion and someone we survived and are still together. By now you probably know who I am talking about, Domon Kasshu.
During the time of the 13th gundam fight was when these certain feelings started to arise. At first I wasn't sure of what was going on, that was until Seitt suddenly walked back into my life. Yet, I left him again, just like the first time I went away. I chose to stay with Domon, my friend, my partner. I suppose it was then that I knew there were more then just a friendship between the two of us. At least for me there was something more.
After that days and months past swiftly by and I supported Domon through all his fights against the other fighters and Shuffle Crest holders. In my mind I vowed to never not believe in him though I may have let myself slip a few times.
When I watch him fight I feel a knot slowly tying in my stomach. I find myself catching and holding my breath whenever a match begins and hoping that nothing will go wrong. When he gets hurt I call out his name with worry and fear. I am probably giving the fact that I care for him away, but I don't care.
A few people along my journey have helped me to realize my emotions. It might have been just little things but they sparked my feelings and kept them lit even in the darkest of times.
Cath, Bunny, Shirley and Janet, members of Chibodee's crew. You always would manage to remind me of my feelings, even in the slightest way. The way you all supported Chibodee; that made me want to do the same for Domon.
Then there is Allenby. Maybe she was a blessing in disguise. I'm sure that isn't exactly the way I should put it but when Allenby came into the bond that Domon and I shared through Japan's Gundam I felt something new. After I really think about it I am sure it was jealously. I would ask Domon what he was doing whenever he was around Allenby; even if it was just something simple like training or looking at God Gundam I made a bigger deal out of it. It was like my bond and ties with Domon were being broken apart every single day by someone else. I was afraid, I was afraid of loosing him to someone else.
All these people have influenced my life in so many ways; I can't even begin to explain them. But, out of all the people I have met, male or female nobody has been quite like Domon. There is just something about him. The wild sense of courage and justice you feel when he is fighting mixed with a small sense of fear. The gentleness you feel from him when he is sincere and honest with you. Most of all the feeling of fear yet joy that radiates from his soul. There is something there that your brain tells you that you should avoid yet your heart tells you to love. That is Domon.
With my dilemma I have also found many things that even I did know about myself, emotions I never thought I'd share with anyone.
My name, Rain, it seems fitting now that I think about it. At times I can be serene, peaceful and loving, like a light spring shower that calls upon rainbows once it has ended. Also, the powerful force of a storm when I am angry. When I cannot control my emotions, a thunderstorm, rain pouring and washing away all hopes. Finally a sorrow that is always there, like acid rain that burns through dreams and leaves them to die. It's the sorrow I felt when my mother and father died.
I don't know what my future will bring but if I ever do tell you my feelings Domon, please do not push me away until I have emptied my heart to you. So then even if I am rejected my heart will be a peace.
I am closing on all my thoughts now. Even if being with Domon is never meant to be I am glad that I have known him as a friend and experienced love. Even if this ends in heartbreak he will always have a place in my heart. And even as the days pass by I'll always be myself, a person with feelings and emotions, I'll always be Rain Mikamura.
Nuriko: I'm sorry if that was kinda short and OOC and overall weird but this is how I think Rain sometimes thinks about Domon...next I think I will do Allenby's thoughts on Domon...hmm...Anyways please review! Flames are...not good ^^; but criticism is great as long as it's constructive!
(ex of flame: This sucked
that doesn't help me to improve of figure what I did wrong...)
You May Be My Future
Domon and Rain
I sit quietly, staring into the long mirror that is placed before me. What do I see as a reflection? A woman, or maybe still a girl who is indecisive of her future. Auburn colored hair, cerulean colored eyes, a thin figure; those things don't matter to me right now. They are only physical traits, something everyone has. What I am looking for in my reflection are my inner thoughts and feelings.
I sit in front of this mirror today not trying to feel sorry for myself but to pass judgment upon myself. This is because, for the longest time now, I have felt true love.
It is true that I am not a very outgoing person when it comes to sharing my emotions and neither is the person I have feelings for. We have known each other since childhood; we have been through losses and fights together. We have been over mountains of danger, swam through seas of emotion and someone we survived and are still together. By now you probably know who I am talking about, Domon Kasshu.
During the time of the 13th gundam fight was when these certain feelings started to arise. At first I wasn't sure of what was going on, that was until Seitt suddenly walked back into my life. Yet, I left him again, just like the first time I went away. I chose to stay with Domon, my friend, my partner. I suppose it was then that I knew there were more then just a friendship between the two of us. At least for me there was something more.
After that days and months past swiftly by and I supported Domon through all his fights against the other fighters and Shuffle Crest holders. In my mind I vowed to never not believe in him though I may have let myself slip a few times.
When I watch him fight I feel a knot slowly tying in my stomach. I find myself catching and holding my breath whenever a match begins and hoping that nothing will go wrong. When he gets hurt I call out his name with worry and fear. I am probably giving the fact that I care for him away, but I don't care.
A few people along my journey have helped me to realize my emotions. It might have been just little things but they sparked my feelings and kept them lit even in the darkest of times.
Cath, Bunny, Shirley and Janet, members of Chibodee's crew. You always would manage to remind me of my feelings, even in the slightest way. The way you all supported Chibodee; that made me want to do the same for Domon.
Then there is Allenby. Maybe she was a blessing in disguise. I'm sure that isn't exactly the way I should put it but when Allenby came into the bond that Domon and I shared through Japan's Gundam I felt something new. After I really think about it I am sure it was jealously. I would ask Domon what he was doing whenever he was around Allenby; even if it was just something simple like training or looking at God Gundam I made a bigger deal out of it. It was like my bond and ties with Domon were being broken apart every single day by someone else. I was afraid, I was afraid of loosing him to someone else.
All these people have influenced my life in so many ways; I can't even begin to explain them. But, out of all the people I have met, male or female nobody has been quite like Domon. There is just something about him. The wild sense of courage and justice you feel when he is fighting mixed with a small sense of fear. The gentleness you feel from him when he is sincere and honest with you. Most of all the feeling of fear yet joy that radiates from his soul. There is something there that your brain tells you that you should avoid yet your heart tells you to love. That is Domon.
With my dilemma I have also found many things that even I did know about myself, emotions I never thought I'd share with anyone.
My name, Rain, it seems fitting now that I think about it. At times I can be serene, peaceful and loving, like a light spring shower that calls upon rainbows once it has ended. Also, the powerful force of a storm when I am angry. When I cannot control my emotions, a thunderstorm, rain pouring and washing away all hopes. Finally a sorrow that is always there, like acid rain that burns through dreams and leaves them to die. It's the sorrow I felt when my mother and father died.
I don't know what my future will bring but if I ever do tell you my feelings Domon, please do not push me away until I have emptied my heart to you. So then even if I am rejected my heart will be a peace.
I am closing on all my thoughts now. Even if being with Domon is never meant to be I am glad that I have known him as a friend and experienced love. Even if this ends in heartbreak he will always have a place in my heart. And even as the days pass by I'll always be myself, a person with feelings and emotions, I'll always be Rain Mikamura.
Nuriko: I'm sorry if that was kinda short and OOC and overall weird but this is how I think Rain sometimes thinks about Domon...next I think I will do Allenby's thoughts on Domon...hmm...Anyways please review! Flames are...not good ^^; but criticism is great as long as it's constructive!
(ex of flame: This sucked
that doesn't help me to improve of figure what I did wrong...)