Oh, that moment when you remember just how many daddy issues Melinda has. (I mean, most people on TV have daddy/mommy issues but Melinda's were some of the best written, lol)

And it hurts, you know? To see her talking to Jake like this. To realize how hard she's trying to make sure that he doesn't feel the same way she did. Does. The way she still does.

And oh god, flashback time. Melinda reflecting on how her parents bring out the utter worst in each other and whyyyyyyy and this hurts so much.

And Melinda comes down, so pitiful, so questioning. Why are they yelling. Why are they always yelling.

And Tom is taking her to bed, tucking her in. My heart hurts because she placed so much worth in these moments and they probably meant next to nothing to him.

And it's still going on, they're still just fighting, and it sucks so much that Melinda can hear every word.

And he's saying things that won't make sense to Melinda for years and years. And he's gone. She watches his car leave. Damn it.

Beth doing her best as a mother for the first or last time in forever. Unless she was always trying her best. Because it she was, then it's even more depressing, because if it was her best, her best is damn pitiful.

I do like how Beth got written, tho, in the series and here. I love the resolution of their relationship...always wondered if they managed to stay close after the season 3 finale...she would have been such an interesting addition to the Sam storyline...to see if she supported it or tried to pull Melinda back would have been amazing.

But here's Jim, surprised to find Melinda on the bench first. Cuuute. The smell of his cologne being what first pulls her from her daze.

He got lunch, and helped a woman give birth today. Aww yiss.

And she'll tell him about her day later because right now she's just in awe of him being in her life. As she always is.

She wants to kiss him.

"Anything I can do?"

He is not expecting the answer she gives him.

"How long's your break?"

Yassssssssssssssss.

And we get this sudden switch to Jim, to seeing his thoughts, feeling his emotions. He's ready for this too, he's already losing speech function from how good she looks right now, how intent she is on the task at hand. He always made her feel so irresistible when he had her in his arms like this.

I mean yeah. The only thing I felt was irresistible during *my* first kiss and the rest of it um kind of sucked if I'm going to be more honest but just the irresistible feeling was so heady and that was enough of a rush to keep me going.

Feeling irresistible is, well, irresistible.

The mewl in the back of his throat. Damnnnnnn. Imagining him making that sound makes me hot and cold in strange places.

She's lucky. She loves him.

And there they are, already conencted, he's holding tight, hissing to feel every one of her curves beneath his hands.

Melinda.

Her movements just turning him on even more, making him go faster.

Never more exhausted. Never more alive. Holding her tight.

Lol...Bobby gets two hours alone...

Okay. Fine. You guilted me into it.

Always the same. It always starts the same way. A headache. Crushing pain. Settles in. Doesn't fade.

She couldn't relax. She wants to pace. Her ghost has a message and she hasn't understood it yet.

And then Jim. Comes home. Immediately knows what's happening. Immediately helps as much as he physically can.

Awwww tho. That sight of vulnerable Melinda that he got. Curled under a blanket.

And Jim just settles in behind her on the carpet. His hands moving. His questions. Making her let it out. Giving her that safe space to process it.

And he's dutifully massaging but ooh god. Her neck. Her perfume. Not yet. Lol. So he knows it'll help. But not yet. Unbelievably sweet.

And he's feeling it, wanting it, and so is she, shivering at each touch, feeling everything as his lips brush against her neck.

And where are the ornaments, lol. I love Jim saying how pretty they were; Melinda reflecting on how he couldn't even see the half of it. And then she's transported to the spirit world and Jim is left to pick up the pieces; holding onto her, holding tight, keeping her tethered. Gorgeous.

And that quick switch.

Them in bed, after having made the most of an evening together; the ghost had to have left again after they burned the ornaments and he came back. And I like that. Them just adjusting, moving around the ghost, not letting him run the show.

And aww. She's just lying in bed dreaming about Jim, and he's sleeping, but oh goodness, he wasn't sleeping. He can feel her staring at him. My my my. (That's 1R's new album name so it's my new favorite phrase.) (Just fyi.)

"It's like you knew we'd make love again." And ugh, passion and intense feelings, and Jim is going so far, and Melinda is taking him with her, and you bring it full circle to Melinda needing to walk the ghost off, not sit down; she needs to keep moving, she needs Jim to keep moving inside her, keep her in this moment, keep her grounded, keep her with him.

"Stay. I know you've got enough for round three."

My my my. They did do a lot that night :)

Eleven minutes lol. Let's see how far I get.

Melinda looking back at the past, not liking what she finds. It's so dark. She remembers devoting herself to Kyle only to get dumped in the end in the most careless way. That sucks.

And oh my goodness, her last diary, an entry that brings a smile to her face. That was...that was the best. I smiled so big. That was my absolutely favorite part of this chapter. Although you missed that he threw-tossed-her slipper at her. :P

And she's going to talk to Kyle, work through this, glad that Jim was sleeping.

She doesn't want him to overhear this.

Kyle truly is an ass. Like what can I say.

Oh god, Melinda is telling so much more, and getting so emotional but he's slimy, and making her smile, because even when she's talking about how much he hurt her he doesn't give a shit. Remember the good times. Puhlease. They weren't any that measure up to any legitimate standards.

I love that she brought up Jim when talking to Kyle. That was a good moment.

And Jim is making a sandwich. So freaking Jim. I love that. Did they wake him up. Yes they did.

And he's talking, honest, he overheard some stuff and he...he wants to talk about it. And I love that about him. And he wants to just make sure she forgets about him.

"More depth when we met..." love that and so true.

I love that Jim read so damn far ahead. And what he learned from those entries.

And he's so going to do it again, and do it now, and do it twice, and over and over, throwing her over his shoulder. Ohhhhhhhhhh my goodness.

He's so fucking possessive. Like if Kyle was watching (first of all, shame on him lol) but it would serve him right.

And Melinda has to cover her mouth bc she doesn't want the neighbors calling hte police. Omg. Like they HAVE before.

I LOVE THAT.

And he is, of course, just going to make her scream louder because of it. He's so damn possessive, so eager, so ready to do this to her, to give her everything. Again and again. I love how many times he said she was his. How he just kept repeating it. Making sure.

And she just kept agreeing because who wouldn't want to be Jim's?

I love this. Forever and always okay with it.

Melinda just needs Jim. I love those images, her leaving Payne's and feeling utterly drained and just needing Jim to refresh her. They're so good for each other. She just needs to hear his voice, feel his love, and feel it she will, because oh goodness, Jim's language of love is touch.

She just didn't trust her gift anymore. Oh my goodness, so powerful. So simple. Something I never necessarily considered when watching this episode. She does not trust her gift. It has not been good to her; it has not proved itself and this is the straw that broke the camel's back.

And yet. And yet. If she hadn't told Andrea about it, would they have been such close friends? Would Andrea even have stayed to work at the shop? Or would she just think that her crazy new boss was, well, crazy and, as much as Andrea loves crazy, just give up trying after a while, because god, Melinda can be relentless when she pushes people away.

And Melinda's adrift; doesn't know how to handle her grief.

But Jim has been working. Because Melinda's not the only one who loved Andrea, who was friends with her.

And they're distancing themselves from each other and that majorly sucks.

So finally they're together. Jim is in the new sleeveless shirts the firehouse gave out and Melinda is suddenly questioning that decision. Because god, he's gained some muscle and she wonders why she hasn't been able to properly admire it before now.

Why doesn't she tell him. The question of the century. Jim actually wants her to.

He wants her to rest. He wants her to breathe. He wants her to grieve properly and not just keep shoving everything away, compartmentalizing all of it, but not even compartmentalizing it, not even there, she's just not dealing with it and he can see how close she is to the brink.

And we've hit beautiful times. Andrea calling to ask if they were going to spend the whole day in bed. Why oh why wasn't that a canon line?

And Jim wants to comfort her, kissing her lips, pulling his chair closer.

What kind?

Any.

I love the image of him just leading her through the firehouse, ignoring the joking and cat calls, because the guys are just jealous and it is pretty apparent what they're doing so why get mad?

Besides, considering that they're both about to get some, why ever get mad?

Making love in the dark. Hearing her undress. Undressing himself. Bare hips. He's got her. He always has her. Undressing as fast as possible, helping each other. What is Jim waiting for? Because Melinda doesn't want to wait.

And he's so tense, feeling her, and he's going so slowly, teasing her with how he feels, how this feels, and oh god, hurry up.

Oh my godddddddd Melinda is trying to hold on and he's afraid she'll bruise her lip from biting it so hard, so he saves her lip from herself, kissing her, soothing her. The pace is quickening, and the kiss is deepening and Melinda's hands are impatient, clinging.

And it's funny. He loves when she does it. She loves to do it for its own sake, and because she wants to make him feel good. It's this circular thing and it's gorgeous and Jim, of course, feels the same way.

Oh my godddddddd again because oh my god, he bit her and Melinda yelped and a 'look of guilt' and oh my god, Jim is so effing hot, kissing them better, apologizing.

She doesn't want him to apologize but yes, lol, he still should have and I'm glad he did.

Vampire. Okay. That's why you did it.

Not quiet yet. Don't go yet. Oh Jim. You're the bestest best husband on earth.

There are few things better than the season one GW finale. Very very few.

And now Jim is just overwhelmed, hating the scene around him, crying out to find just ONE person who's alive. Who's breathing. Oh my gosh. And yet he's still hanging on and he's wondering why he's able to do this. And how this curse/gift is Mel feels about her whispering skills.

And they just want more, kissing goodbye, leaning on each other, because touch is Jimel's language. Because they don't know how to not touch.

And John is just stupid and Jim is mad but it's not even really at John anymore, he just can't deal with John on top of everything else. On top of 238 people DEAD and Andrea, his friend, his wife's *best* friend, possibly dead.

And oh goddddddddd, Jim finding Andrea killed me. No. Just no. Bumping into Will and just begging him to take care of it because Jim can't do this anymore. He can't. He's done. It's finally too much.

"She'd be home, they'd get through this together because he sure as hell knew he couldn't do it without her." So few words, such a good way to describe Jimel.

Jim was coming home. Melinda is broken. She can't believe it. She won't believe it.

And then he's there, pulling her close, and it's not Melinda's fault, it isn't, because this was a freak accident but she can't stand the what if of whether Andrea would still be alive if Melinda hadn't told her.

And would she? Maybe. But I don't think Andrea would have changed a thing. I think Andrea cherished Melinda's friendship far too much. She'd never trade.

And Jim just wants to make her feel better and Melinda just doesn't see how it could, but he wants to *try* and she just can't imagine how good Jim is to her. How much he loves her. How lucky she is.

And he loves her, and he wants to show it, and today was terrible so maybe this is selfish too, but if he can make them both feel better, he will.

Working her jacket off, tugging the turtleneck off, reflecting on how damn good she looks in them.

And he's just undressing her, freeing her, readying her. He's going to make her feel good. And that doesn't require anything but his body, and that's all he's got to offer.

And he makes her feel good, bringing her there so quickly, letting her rest because he can wait, but Melinda wants to do the same for him, because he's lost something today too.

And Melinda, always willing to give more than she got. I love that about her. How she's going to take him even farther than he took her toda.

Just lay back. I'm going to pleasure you. You don't have to do the work. And how much this effing means to Jim and how much it makes his heart pound because this power, the power she wields over him is mindblowing and terrifying and he loves her. Absolutely and she loves him, so passionate, so needy.

She wants to watch him. She wants to see the look on his face as she takes him to the highest planes. And she knows very well that maybe Jim comes like everyone else does, but he isn't everyone else. Because it's her name he's calling and she wouldn't do this to anyone else.

And she's going to take him there again even as he wants to bring them together, and she's laughing, loving him, loving his body, and she's going to do it, her mouth already on him, sucking.

And he's so in shock, awed by her love for him and she can always surprise him in how she shows him it.

Just let her try.

Today's a day they'll never forget.

Just John. The idiocy of John, lol. I try to get him, lol. I try to understand but he's just an idiot. And sometimes idiots grow into fabulous people but he's an idiot.

And how Jim *lived* through that and knows that it's legit not all it's cracked up to be and John thinking it's the best is further proof of his immaturity.

And now he's just thinking of Mel because he's tired. And he wants his wife. He seriously wants his wife. And he wants her to know just how much.

And now John is being idiotic and I love how he notices Mel before Jim does because maybe there was a moment where Jim was just rolling his eyes and then it was Melinda and Jim's just like, no. Sorry, dude. Not sorry. At fucking all.

Settle down. As if John could.

His wife.

Mmhmm. Read the words, John. Jim's wife. And pizza for dinner. I love that. He's jealous about food but he isn't actually. He missed her too much to even care.

Just a little more smug than usual. OMG, David holds Jennifer so freaking tight in that scene. Like hell yes.

Anyway. Back to Jim and Melinda.

And John's thought process is just hilarious. And Della just cackling at him, and she's like, you are so doomed and I was even more doomed when I hit on Jim and dude, just give up and John's too much of an ass to even care.

Because how did a guy like Jim end up with someone like Melinda?

I love how easily that can be reversed. That they both seriously lucked out. That's amazing.

Those damn tight jeans. That ass. And Jim overheard and that was just a perfect moment, lol. The right moment to walk in and Jim just said the exact right words. John only cared about getting caught. And that kind of sucks. But then he literally asks Jim again and it's like, die. Now.

Get out of my way before I kill you.

And that shit about Melinda not being a one man type. That's shit. I lost my sympathy for John in that moment.

And Jim just thinking about his wife. His wife. Her body. Her soul. Her mind. Her heart. He loves every damn part but you can't freaking have one without the other and he realizes that oh so much.

And he convinced Bobby and he bought roses and he can see the food and he creeps up the stairs and fuck, this is a good idea. She's folding laundry, oh hell yes.

And she just stills when he puts his arms around her for a moment, before legit freaking out and squealing because it's Jim and that's so freaking hot.

And I LOVED this part where he's trying to ask her about the underwear and she's trying to ask him about why he's home early and they aren't answering the other because the other answer is more important and who cares about the money and they're both freaking out about the price and I love when Jimel gets angsty like that, before they decide to eff it all, it's Jim. It's Melinda. Every penny is worth it.

And Jim was just holding the panties as Melinda took the roses. I love that. That's hilarious.

And he's just going to tell her what he loves about her. And he's just going to effing show her how much because someone said something at work and Melinda knowwwwwwwwwwwwwws that and isn't an idiot and he's so damn possessive and she's loving every second but STILL something had to have set him off. AND she's ready because who wouldn't be. It's Jim. I mean. That's enough.

It was the newbie. I love how she realizes it was because of how he's touching her.

And he's just not taking any more time. Nope. Nopity nope nope nope.

And she doesn't want him to. And he's leaving marks because she's his. He's hers. And they're going to freaking shout it to the world.

And they came so damn quickly and he's just sagging against her, holding on.

And she wants to know what John said. And oh god, I know why, because she wanted to know exactly how to make Jim feel better.

And the laundry is beyond ruined and she's going to seriously make it all up to him. All of it. And pleasuring him is taking her closer and hell yes, that's how it should always be. I will not be with a person where that is not the case.

And Jim is just dying because she's doing everything with extreme purpose to improve his day. Yes. Yes. Yes.

And he's just living in the moment, paying attention to the things that matter, aka, her ass.

And he's not down with her. And he's just desperate for her and she's desperate for him. And god, he knows she has another one waiting for him. OMG. That's al I can say.

And she knows what to say. Because she gets jealous too and it's honestly okay sometimes to get possessive, to show it, to just let the emotions spill over and tell the other person, show the other person, how freaking glad you are that they're yours and you're theirs and it goes hand in hand.

Oh. My. Gosh.

I will never look at ice cubes the same way again. Was kind of having a heart attack when Melinda first grabbed one...and had another when Jim took one of his own. *fans face and rereads that section about ten times before she can continue typing* *in case you needed to know why this took me so long*

Oh damn. You start off with the tough parts, Melinda dazed and hurt and I hate seeing her like that, so scared and desperate.

And thank god Andrea came along because 'she was getting weaker by the minute'. That scene of Andrea running up to her, finding her...why wasn't that in the episode? Oh my gosh. I can't imagine that moment. You did it so well. To imagine Andrea in the season 2 finale, seeing her friend die...it's like this. It breaks my heart.

How quickly the ambulance got there. As Jim came screaming up in his car, had to be dragged back by Sulley because that's how desperate he was to reach her. Of COURSE and you're right, it's Jimel in 4x6 reversed and GOD that's heartrending.

Her sitting in his lap, trying to feel him, slipping through him. Him sensing that she has to be there and not being able to see her but talking to her. Begging her to come back to him. He needs her.

And she's back. Maybe.

Lightly comatose, if that was a real thing. Jim hating that he didn't really say goodbye to her that morning, (which they at least had in Hope and Mercy; a hell of a send off if that was his last day) and his last conversation was when she wasn't in her body and he hates that and she left him a voicemail and listening to it comforts him even as it breaks his heart. He could tell that she'd blown a kiss. He just could.

The bed seemed to swallow her whole. God. What an image. And so true when you watch that scene in the episode. He's looking for her in the room. He couldn't risk going home. He could only wait.

And on rewatching those moments in the hospital before Melinda wakes up...Jim is kind of rolling his eyes at Beth and is very impatient with her.

How Beth not wearing rings registers in his mind. His worsd to her. He's not going to leave Mel alone. If Beth wants to go home...fine.

So scared that he took it out on Beth like he wouldn't normally. He finds her bag of clotehs and purse, finding her jewelry. I loved that you had him actually seeking out the ring, because that moment when he puts it on her finger...so beautiful. He just wants her back, so badly. Don't leave him.

Melinda waking up and remembering. Everything coming back. Realizing that there's a head on her chest. Not even opening her eyes and knowing it's Jim. Of COURSE.

She could touch him. She was real again. She was his wife. Only woman in the world. Intense blue eyes. The way he looks at her. His smile.

She saw the light. And he just wants to kiss her but she wants a real kiss, and it's so good and right for them. His hand taking hers again. And he's taking his time on the kiss because he can, because he wants to, and their lips meet like that again because they can finally touch. She can touch him.

Jim keeping an eye on her during her half day. Her maybe regretting that half day. I love that. And Melinda is just tired, dismissing her mother simply because she *can't* deal with that right now, and Beth isn't usually this nice and it's just weird. Same, Mel. Same. Jim shows Beth to her room and Jim just leaves.

The thing was, he wasn't sorry for what he'd said. Oh gosh, Jim, same.

Melinda calling to him, Jim taking his shirt off, registering the change in the room from when he was last here. White lace. Dropping his shirt.

The perfect description of her on the bed :D We go together to freaking well.

She braided her hair! Damn, what a vision.

Melinda exploring his chest, letting her nails brush him, drive him wild. And an idea comes that she just has to act on. ICE CUBES. Jim giving her free reign, running the ice around him until his nipples are harder as ice and he's hard elsewhere too. And she sucks on him, her mouth such a contrast that Jim almost knocks her onto the floor with his reaction and I LOVE THAT AND OH MY GOSH.

I WANT TO SEE THAT.

She's so tense. No wonder. And he wants her and she's not done playing.

Her teasing him, taking off the bra not facing him, grabbing the sheet...how that would torture him, her hips moving to the music and he just grabs her as soon as she's in reach. Trapping her with his wrists. Her chest heaving with 'her excited breath' and that was somehow one of my favorite parts because SHE IS, she's so excited to have her husband make love to her again and that's wonderful.

So much better than what she had on. Doing the same to her as she did to him and it's a lot different when you're on the giving side.

Oh, Jim. I want you to be mine.

The cube is melted and so is Melinda but he's not done playing with her.

And he's taking her there, so taking her there. And she doesn't care that Beth can hear them. Who could. She just missed Jim, being together like this, after a whole freaking WEEK in the hospital and she missed him so much and she'd thought they'd never be able to do this again. Jim licking his fingers off, what a damn perfect sight.

And she's going to ride him to finish off the night. And she's going to come again with him, oh hell yes. And Jim can see this, and he just wants to watch her, feel her, cherish each moment.

An oh oh oh they're both the sexy one. And they should always be able to touch. It should be a law. And nothing *is* going to interrupt them.

Starting with Melinda getting seriously worried over Eli. I'd forgotten how much he truly scared her in this ep. But he also had more valid reasons for being so nasty, as Jim points out. He wasn't just a ghost who was creepy for no reason and never apologetic.

I feel like the ghosts are something you'd never get over. All of the variety of visions she has...never the same twice and the ghost is putting her into their place so she gets *their* terror and horror and I can't imagine actually going through that.

Melinda Gordon is amazing. And she can't imagine, couldn't forgive herself, if something happened to Jim because of her.

And she just doesn't understand Eli. Doesn't he *want* to see his family again?

And Jim is making dinner for her :) Definitely a needed moment in this ep. More than others, even.

And he planned this beautiful bath for her and comes upstairs with chocolate dipped strawberries and wine. And I love that we *know* he actually does this. (Not in this ep) But we know that he loves her and this is what he does for her. Makes her feel good when she's down. When she needs him. When dinner is in the oven and Jim is just taking his clothes off and getting in with her because why waste that moment?

And I love that he heard it from Andrea. Of course. I love the thought of her calling him up with a hint to be *extra* nice to Mel. Since she knew, we knew, he'd go all out if told. And that even if not told, he'd be pretty darn special. But since he does know...

Yeah. He's going to enjoy his time with her. Get in the bath. Make her want him. Wash the worries of the day from her mind.

Their skin touching, making each other react, bringing each other there.

The water moves around them, Jim is trying so hard to give Mel what she needs, and she gets it, holding onto him for leverage.

He's leaving marks. She needs those. He's kissing all around her face and it's beautiful.

And the moment from the show. 2x better now that you know what Jim was thinking. This must her trick. Turn him on and then leave.

And he just doesn't know what he's going to do about her.

And Jim came to her side, to the rescue, one of the few moments in the show that she actually lets him. Poor Mel.

But what she needs right now is to feel. Feel his iron arms. Feel his skin on hers. And the car. And he knows exactly what she needs right now, and is taking her time, his mouth hot, possessive, hands everywhere. And she isn't shy. Not tonight.

I...I do wish you'd had the conversations we'd brainstormed but I get the change. Once you reached a certain point, they didn't fit into this chapter.

Love it anyway.

No, Mel. You are no free days, not in Canon at any rate. If this was CLoFT...well, there are barely any ghosts in that, I swear.

"Her brain practically fizzled from any previous thought."

Jim. That whole description of him, hard and lean, a grin as he caught her staring. I swear, Jim gave everyone a heart attack in that scene and I'm not talking about when he fell into the water.

And as always our writing goes together perfectly :) Kindred hearts, I swear.

Shining ocean eyes and ice cold water. Jim isn't coming up and Melinda can't deal with that today of all days. Oh, Jim, and his perpetual smart mouth.

Mm, borrow him all you like. Jim doesn't want to get Mel wet. LOL, that's *all* that she wants.

I love that they actually scored a decent ferris wheel for once. And Mel's already wet, lol, though I have a feeling neither will be shivering in a minute.

She's telling him how turned on he made her and if I know Jim that's going make this 2x hotter for him. Because every man likes to know.

The view of Grandview was amazing and there were thousands of stars but that was only good enough for a minute...they needed each other more.

Oh god, their shape shifting mouths and inability to think and they just want more and have to wait.

At least he carried her inside :) Like their first night.

Ooh. Melinda asking for help. Jim's reaction to that, lol. But so true. She hates asking for help. I wonder how it'll turn out, though...will the ice be gotten?

And omg, it was a trick, she just wanted him to stay! Heart attack time, lol. "I just want you to strip me and make love to me."

A verry hot bath and she doesn't freaking want wine and matches she wants JIM. So why does he keep trying to leave? She wants himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm and she finally said it.

"Payback." Oh hell yes.

Jim withholding his attentions...oh god, can't wait until The Vanishing.

And not happening. As if, lol. And she's taking control and worshiping his body and it's truly delightful switch. I'm very happy right now. "But what about the bath?" ...nobody cares about the bath at this point, Jim.

He liked to watch her. And she tried to keep eye contact because his pupils change and his nose, and his mouth parts.

And he's lost, coming, and she's holding tight, keeping him there, giving him the best he's ever gotten, more than giving back what she gets from him. And yes.

Loved this. Oh so much.

Ooh. I like how you're setting it up. Making them both busy and harried and exhausted, even beyond Jim picking up extra shifts to make a little more money.

And I'll never get over the paragraph about how Melidna hated sleeping alone and how Jim was accustomed to sleeping at odd hours still missed his cuddly wife who *always* attached herself to him.

He could feel it in his bones. So sexy. "Maybe his wife cheated on him." LOL. As if.

And Bobby asking if she was finally pregnant and Jim, honest, saying that he wishes that was so. That he'd never complain about life again if she was having his child. But he wouldn't push her. Oh gosh.

An unbeatable hand. It would be so sexy to see him win like that. "Never take a bet yo don't know you'll win." Ooh, ominous.

And oooh, that view of Melinda that he got upon first walking in. I would most definitely like my lips too. I might be doing so right now as I imagine those pants on her. And the jacket. Oh gosh.

And ooh, he's trying to bring her home and ooh, ear kissing and ooh, shaky moans and Melinda telling him to drive. Somewhere to be. They most definitely do. *fans face*

Haha, what was that for? He just loves you. And loves seeing you like that, so wound around his little pinky finger.

Eleven months ago. Oh my gosh, that is so freaking hot.

The best day of his life. I can so imagine him saying that. Believing that. Oh, his smiles in the wedding montage. Jimel is so freaking hot in wedding clothes.

Ooooooooooh, and he wants to try something new. I love it. They're both enjoying it so...so...much. Taking their time. His hands are covering her breasts.

And then Melinda says it. Oh god. That conversation. The one she didn't think she'd have to have this month.

"Because I love you it's enough."

And one day. Sigh.

I'm glad Sulley called him but even happier that Melinda pulled him back for one more kiss. And a romantic dinner. Aw. That's what they were planning. That's heartbreaking, lol.

I love her going through everything with Andrea. Another lost scene, lol. Explaining why she was feeling off. Why Jim was too. Or because Jim was too, unfortunately. And Andrea telling Melinda to just voice why she found it hard.

And then, you know, the couch scene. It being almost sexier in word form, at least with everything that Melinda was feeling. Both scenes were sexier by means of the others' existence. Oh gosh. A very simple action and he's very awake. Really very awake.

I've always wondered what Jim was really hoping for when he said that they'd take turns watching the baby, lol. Especially with that lip licking. And him just thinking about how if she was this good with Jessie she'd be damned perfect with their own little baby.

And then Jim fell in love all over again as she was singing. As everyone did, I'm sure.

Another hard conversation. Beautiful.

Who wouldn't want to have kids with Jim Clancy? Good question. The people I can think of are people I don't ever want to know, lol.

And she's trying to think of the reasons why. It's not her dress size. And she has a boatload of faith in him; he'd never cheat. This could even make them closer, spend more time together.

And the gift. Of course the gift. And that segued perfectly into what I offered. It's funny how that works sometimes :)

Jim checks the ambulance, hard at work. Melinda's picture on his visor. I love that pic of her blowing a kiss at him. It's one of the rare pics in TV shows that looks actually genuine.

"He just knew that after that, he needed her."

The door slams shut and they're all over each other. "God, I love you so much. And this dress. But it has to go."

And her surprise for him.

And something about Melinda's body that just brings him to his knees, over and over again. The intimacy. The wonder of it all. I love that.

Less than manly my ass. I bet he's never been more desirabe in her eyes.

She was halfway there already and he's barely even done anything. That's how much she burns for him, all day everyday.

She's bringing their hips ever closer together as he switches sides and she can't wait.

Skin to skin contact is everything. Just touch is so needed, for babies, for team mates, for everyone.

And Melinda's going even crazier, wanting to feel him under her hands. Please.

Please what? Am shocked that he was able to say that. "Make love to me."

In a flash they were on the bed. Unclothed. Both ready. More than ready.

She asks him. He doesn't hesitate.

He enters her. She embraces him.

He was her husband. She was his wife. Forever. And she somehow brings herself on top, takes herself there with him along for the ride, and she's so overwhelmed by how much he loves her that she comes then. And she goes back to him, letting him come too, urging him on.

Their favorite position. Lazy kisses. Couldn't possibly love her more. "I'm glad you said yes." Awwwwwwww. "You thought I was going to break up with you. I had the ring for months."

His explanation. Melinda's glad he waited. Ghosts don't matter to him. "A blonde who can only see ghosts in the movies." Never. As if. He wouldn't last a week. I love that.

A little ghost buster. Or five.

One day.

And again. Melinda tells him to take it off. Oh, yes. That is just beautiful. Life will happen. She'll let god and her body make that decision.

And it's tender now, slow and caressing, and taking their time. Ocean eyes. As close as possible. Her body is on fire. She comes and then she brings him inside her. More. He needed that. He needed her to say that.

The only sound was that of thier breathing. He didn't even pull her back towards him; she went anyway.

Perfection.

But I still like your one for FNG more. Just preference :)

I just loved this. The opening scene with Melinda reassuring Andrea and telling her everything was fine. She needed that. A switch in plot was very welcome; I loved this.

She goes upstairs and Jim is getting out of the shower and my goodness, that's a welcome sight. He's so hot. And bothered, lol. He so wants her, *now*. I adore how he took her by surprise, just grabbing her and kissing her while her arms were full of sheets. And her hands are on his shoulders and his are going to the skin uncovered by her white cami and she just loves her husband's hands. Large, callused. They're rough and flecked with paint. He has blisters from mowing the lawn. I just love that she's listing off how she can tell what he did with his day from feeling his hands on her. Now *that* is hot.

I love that Melinda was waiting for him to come up then, settling on the bed and deploring the fact that he was doing dishes, only wanting him to come up so they could have some *quiet* fun.

And he did. Their conversation, straight from the show, segued so beautiful into what happened next. And the tiny things you added. I really do love how Jim is just always touching a part of her. He so cannot keep his hands to himself and I adore him for it. But then again, who could when it comes to Melinda?

"Still going to shower?" "You don't have to come." I don't think anyone thought that, Mel. I think Jim wanted to come, and that's why he brought it up again.

He was watching her so intensely she thought her legs might give out. I swear, my legs wouldn't even be supporting me at that point.

Telling him that he has to wait and then doing it herself. I might have died at the mental images there. Melinda touching herself and Jim just watching, eyes just getting darker. "If you make it there."

Of course she didn't make it there. And that I can most definitely picture. Jim snagging a nude Melinda and just holding her tight, making her scream and Andrea can so hear them from downstairs but Melinda cannot help the reactions she has with this man.

And Jim pulls his tank top off and Melinda can't really hold on longer, getting in the shower and not able to wait for him to get touched. So desperate for his touch and he's going to give it, but she's not even going to wait for that. Might have died from sexiness.

And the shelf in the shower is the perfect height she recently learned and that was the finisher. Oh god. Her just enjoying the sensations, trying to prolong it, whispering his name.

And then there he is, crazy for her, stiff with desire, ready to take her there. But she has to show him. Oh my god, I loved that. So freaking much. She places her hands over his and she's guiding him.

"Were you think about me?" Pause. "Were you thinking about how good it would feel if I touched you like you touched yourself?" "Yes." "Do you want me to touch you?"

Oh god, how obvious the answer is to that freaking question. Jump me, Jim! It most definitely wasn't from the shower. "Show me." His fingers. His hands. Oh my gosh.

And they worked together and it was better than Melinda had ever imagined it even could be. oh my god, i'm dying right now. "...her gasps of his name..."

And Andrea probably heard everything. Naturally. Did they really think they'd be quiet enough? And, lol, it probably kept her attention off of other things so she probably didn't mind that much, lol.

"Show me." Again with Jim being too hot for words.

Awww, I love that it was for Andrea. I love the whole thing about how Andrea got cold in winter so Mel was crocheting her a scarf. That is so sweet and so Melinda. Darn, I wish she didn't die now even more.

And knowing that Jim won't pass her without giving her a kiss. Now that's what I like to see :D

And the tiny things you added to their convo, the movements and thoughts Melinda was having. Yes and yes.

Ohhhh, yes, Jim getting turned on just because she rubbed her eyes, and forcing himself to talk about her mother, to try to make Melinda work through this. And she won't, lol. At least, it'll definitely take some time. Lots of time. Beth is another area that I completely sympathize with Melinda on.

And Jim just watches her for a few more minutes, possibly giving up on her before going to pull his clothes off. And then she rolls over, *snaps fingers* like that. And he just loves it, playing with his belt before he realizes that he's playing with fire and Melinda's going to kill him.

Ohhhh, Melinda, did that much to him before just going back to her book. My, my, daring Melinda. And Mr. Clancy, watch your mouth, lol. That didn't last long. And he's scolding her, haha.

And Melinda takes control again, riding him, and the way they took off her nightgown, making the moment perfect, (ala the way Kate says it in Burn, haha) (which I just sent to you) (because I can't resist her) and then she brings her mother into it.

And that's when Jim snaps, just taking control of the moment and just being what she needs, even if she won't admit that she needs it right now.

"You're mine. This is our time."

And so Melinda takes revenge! "Is this how you want me, Jimmy?"

...Question is...who had a bigger heart attack? Me or Jim?

And then she just needs him and finally admits it, begging him to not stop. Serves her right, and lol, she loved every second and so did he.

I would love to be kissed sloppily by Jim especially because of the set of circumstances leading to *that* perfectionist being sloppy. *fans face*

"Next time just tell me to not even try to read, alright?"

Deal, lol.

First of all, the additions to that opening scene. Where her hands were. Just how Jim was feeling in those moments, ready to take her again as he had that morning.

Yeah, that whole shower thing...he was looking forward to it too. Too damn bad they didn't get it fixed. I love how quickly you had her change, and how 'his slacks tighten as he sprung to life much like his wife's breasts with every step she took'. Sounds like Jimel to me xD

I love that she told him to wait for her and that she grabbed him when she did so. SOoo hot.

And her, preparing for some sexy times as she washes her hair, daydreaming about what she can do to him, frustrated as he is about the car being cut short.

And then terror. I effing love what you added, what you weaved in there. She's so scared.

And then you cut to Jim ready to seduce her, lighting candles and undressing, deciding how much (or how little) clothing he'll be wearing when she comes up. And he hears her but doesn't think he actually did and he's never going to forgive himself for not going at that first scream from her.

And she told him to cut it but he was going to cut it anyway and she's shaking and terrified and so is he and damn my emotions.

And neither of them is feeling sure anymore and Jim made her tea and Melinda just doesn't want to talk about it. She wants to feel. So feel she does. I loved their lovemaking, and how gentle they were. How Melinda was going to pull away but then Jim's arms came around her and probably never came off of her. How she said after she'd climaxed that they so needed to go again because this wasn't close enough for her. Because it wasn't connected enough to him as much as she needed to be after what happened. And her climax was even more intense than it's ever been before and I love it.

I hate that Jim has to reassure her that it was just a ghost; usually it's the other way around and that's how terrified Melinda is. But I love that he did. That he got it and just said that things would turn out okay. That they effing had to.

And then the end. Melinda terrified all over again and Jim holding her close, almost more scared than she was.

Damn it. This episode is such a tear jerker.

Okay, I can't believe how good this was. Not in a bad way, I just hadn't realized the depth of JIMEL in this episode and how deeply it could be delved into. I am in awe. You read so much into them, into this whole thing, and it rang so perfectly true to them and it was so PERFECTLY attuned to the episode that my heart is still racing at how amazing this was.

I can't believe you used my moment, but you did, and it factored in so nicely. I can't believe how well it segued into this, that you completely connected the two. 3

"Hungry?" "A little. Hungry for you."

I loved that. Melinda was done fighting, done trying to resist him. She loves him and she wants him...she really wants him. Was reminded of 4x2 and had to rewatch some of it before writing my review...she's so bummed the whole ep that Jim won't have sex with her. I know that in the end she said part of it was she's afraid she's going to pay a price for doing what she does but SHE WAS SO DEPRESSED for HALF of an episode because Jim didn't have sex with her. If that isn't proof that Jimel is the hottest couple ever, I don't know what is.

Back to this.

He tasted like cinnamon and stale whiskey and strawberry lipgloss and there are so many clues in that sentence to what Jim has been doing these past few days without her. Though the strawberry lipgloss line...what, was he applying it himself because he missed her? (though that could be very hot, tbh)

That kiss. That first kiss, just each of them trying to give more than they got, Melinda wanting to be the one kissing him and Jim is just taking control because he can't help him.

"I'm sorry for trying to control you like some husband out of the 50s."

"You didn't. I was being stubborn. You wouldn't have let me go if you were actually controlling." (Butchered but I loved that whole paragraph/sentence. Melinda *knew* she was being stubborn and she regretted it too but SHE COULDN"T BACK down and if she had it would have been the end of Jimel as we know it.

"His face darkened into a savage, primal expression." Can't. Breathe. Right. Now.

And I can so see that happening, him giving into every single NEED when she gives him that permission.

They said I love you and Jim scooped her up into his arms and Melinda was surprised. "Bedroom?" "No." He accidentally jerked her into the countertop because she was kissing him like that and she told him RIGHT here was the spot.

I love them hesitating. You drove home the point that yes, they are still newly weds. Maybe they do still get shy. I love Melinda taking the first move and dying inside from how good he looks without a shirt on and asking Jim to take her shirt off for her.

"Boldness in this area was not something she usually had..." I can see that. I can see her still being shy (again, 4x2 where she can't say sex) and Jim being the one to lead. And lead he does.

I love that she expected him to rip the shirt off but instead he's pulling it gently aside and having a heart attack when he sees her bra (she soooo did that on purpose) and just kissing her neck as its revealed.

I love that line, is this ok? That is so Jim, just double checking that they aren't fighting, that they're back in the game and *is it okay* that he loves her again?

I love her smiling a smile that would make Andrea proud and slipping out of her jeans. I love Jim's second curse word of the day. I might have died at the third but let's not get ahead of ourselves.

She's just a tad self conscious and Jim is completely and utterly head over heels for how she looks in her underwear.

He tells her she's beautiful and she tries to shake her head but he won't let her. Melinda pushing herself against him and mewling and Jim jerking against her because of the sound, not the touch.

Jim touching her stomach and her touching his and MY GOD the lines there.

"He felt so good...She realized she could do this for the rest of her life...That in itself was astonishing but it just felt so good."

He's taking it slow and she places both of his hands on both of her breasts because that's how much they need each other right now. And she's going to kill him and it's going to be an effing beautiful death for both of them.

And him *finally* feeling under her bra and it's not effing enough so he takes it off and has his third curse word of the day and I LOVED THAT MOMENT. And he's going to touch her but she makes him take off his clothes first because, um, fairness and he's so ready for her. #tbt to Kevin and this moment was effing complete because Jim is huge and Kevin was stupid.

The flush on Jim's cheek and him doing it just a tad nervously and he took off his socks but he doesn't want to take off his boxers so Melinda does it for him and that's SO much better.

"Anyone ever tell you you talk too much?" And what she did to him in that moment, killing him. "Possibly."

He was all she'd ever have in her entire life.

And he loved her touching him but they're so not going to finish like that tonight, no, no, no. And he's returning the favor and then going up to her breasts and then just palming her and Melinda feels soooo good right now but he's taking his time.

"I am touching you." "You. Know. What. I. Mean."

Melinda realizing how intimate sex really is and finally understanding how big a hole her father put in her mother's heart when he left.

And this, kids, is why you should have sex with someone you love, because otherwise it's not *as* good (probably still pretty good but not as good) and it's not as meaningful and they love each other so much and all of this just makes them love each other more.

I liked the beginning, the tiny things you added to that scene. Jim noticing her braless state. Melinda nipping at his ear. Him thinking how much his night will suck. Yeah, that head canon'll work as to why he's so quiet in that scene.

The thought of him being so dead asleep that he didn't notice or help Melinda take his clothes off is beautiful. He works so hard.

Ooh, the lingerie scene! It kind of reminded me of the scene in TCL and I'm still not sure if that's good or bad, lol.

The imagery, of her creeping out of the bathroom, and then Jim's already sleeping. Which means that she didn't tell him what she had in mind, lol. Her thinking about her usual nightwear of gowns or Jim's shirt was sweet and I love how she was already turning to go when he woke up.

And he just saw, found her immediately, sat up so quickly. The descriptions of his eyes, and how they changed, in this chapter just slayed me.

He sat up, bringing the blankets with him. He didn't like it. He loved it.

He couldn't take his eyes off of her. I loved that. He literally could not.

And the buckles :D Aw, my heart. He couldn't get them undone and he was on his third try and Melinda had to do it. So cute. Poor Jim.

Love how she thought she wasn't sexy as she unfastened it but honestly, what could be sexier?

And he took her to bed. He teased her and I loved that he made her wait, tortured her.

Rubik's cube :)