This broke my heart the first time I read it, and it did it again now. Because fuck you for killing Lavender, omg. But also, the relationship between Padma and Parvati is so perfect. You got the sisterly/twin thing so perfectly. I also love the way you sectioned this off, and that you did it from Padma's pov. So... congrats on destroying my feels. You did it wonderfully.

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first off - love that you wrote a pavlav and didn't even have lav as a character, really.
also, this was utterly heartbreaking. i really love this
i can't even form words right now, honestly.
just. the fact that this was, at the same time, family fluff an angsty. i love that padma's always there for pavarti 3 uch, sister goals.
i think i gotta go now and,,,, try and glue my heart back together, thanks?

Padma becoming a wandmaker I think I'm in love *heart*
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First of all, rude.
Second of all, how dare you?!
And third, RUDE.
ugh I can't believe your other fics lulled me into a fake sense of safety :O I was expecting H&C not just hurt, why are you like this?
this was amazing though. I loved the relationship between the two sisters - Padma was so supportive of Parvati, but even though she was going through hard times, you could tell that their relationship wasn't one sided.
And I just loved that this was a version I hadn't seen yet of the aftermath of Lavender being attacked by Greyback (the idea that people tell her she was lucky because she didn't become a werewolf is so good too, ugh), and that it was centered on Padma watching her sister deal with it.
I loved this. Ugh, how am I supposed to pic a fave from your fics now?
Cheers! ;)

Oh, this is so sad. I love the Parvati/Lavender pairing. But poor Parvati, and poor Lavender. I wish Lavender reached out to Parvati - but unfortunately, she didn't. I like how it's in Padmas POV, but you still feel that weariness and grief. This was wonderfully heartbreaking.

Oh gosh. My heart. This hurts so much.
I honestly really love how you did this from Padma's perspective. It was a super interesting way to go about doing this, because instead of feeling Parvati's grief, we feel her pain through her sister's eyes. If that makes sense.
Parvati relaying her fight with Lavender to Padma broke my heart, but it was beautiful at the same time. Because even though Parvati's relationship was spiralling down, she had her sister by her side.
["She told me she had quit."] The total brokenness of this line hit me so hard.
["Why wasn't I enough?"] This was so, so, so painful to read. I can feel the grief in this sentence; Parvati sounds guilty, like she should have been able to save her girlfriend.
And the last line - ["Parvati's screams echo through the flat."] I still have goosebumps.
This was heartshattering and beautifully painful. You've done an incredible job with this.

Ahhhhhhh this is exactly as glorious as I knew it would be while you were plotting it. I actually really love that it wound up being from Padma's point of view; it gave it a distance without making it hurt any less. I love the softness between Padma and Parvati, the easy familiarity between them. I love that Padma is there for her. I love Healer!Anthony and our small glimpse at his guilt. And of course, i love the ParLav and Parvati wondering why she isn't enough to fight for.

Sam what are you doing to me. Oh god. Okay let me take a moment to stop staring at my laptop screen in anguish, I'll try and search for some succinct thoughts.

Okay so I searched and found nothing, thus rambling is what you're going to get.

I have never written a fic in present tense but I find it really engaging to read, it sets a different pace and for me makes everything a lot more visceral because it's happening 'now' and it feels like you're a part of this. So I was automatically hooked. Having it be from Padma's Pov was great too, she's just an undervalued character so I loved that. Having her be apprenticing with Ollivander, the overarching memories of their final year at Hogwarts casting a shadow over everything, you created such emotive scenes, I was so drawn in I couldn't look away from the words.

There was no way you could have known but addiction!AUs, well it's a mindset I know from personal experience. Whilst it was all through Padma's eyes, you managed to still have Pav/Lav's relationship at the front and centre of this, in fact we never have Lavender speak at all and yet she had such a presence in this, I just don't know how you did it. You dealt with the increasing tragedy with such tact and respect that I really appreciate that too.

I could go on and on Sam. The whole thing about mental scars taking longer to heal than physical ones, that felt like a recurring theme which I loved. The flashes in time, the little touches that hint at Padma's normal life (her making dinner, her boyfriend, her work) that are constantly inhibited by ripple effects from the past...

Honestly you are an incredible writer and I feel so blessed and privileged that you wrote this for me. Thank you for the heartache, it was so worth it to read something this fantastic.