Reviews for not knowing is worse
derikli chapter 1 . 3/31
Very powerful
mew-tsubaki chapter 1 . 10/1/2019
Gonna review as I read, bc a monster this big deserves my full attention. :')

Sept pt1: Oh, my... The heartache is subtle in Su's short missive, but it sets the background (at least on her side of things) well. We also get a peek into Su's personality a bit, through not only her opinions on the dangers Lisa faces and the changes at Hogwarts but also through her use of expletives. Su calling it a "weird" situation almost makes me laugh, because WOW what an understatement. XD

Sept pt2: Oafs! Excellent word choice! XD Ooh, the mention of Theo and what he said actually makes me happy to think of the implication he's a good boy and not evil like his father. c: The summary of Alecto's class...tbh, takes me right to the things we're seeing on the news these days, even if it's not Muggles and Muggle-borns they're discussing. :/ Ahhhhh, Seamus, m'boy. Although it does strike me as very like him to inform everyone immediately as to wtf happened if they didn't already know. (Omg, tho, Su's comment about not liking kids - *lol*.)

Sept pt3: The idea of the other professors taking pity makes complete sense. But taking from Pomfrey... I'd never thought of that, but that fits, it fits too well. ;w; (And it makes me think of a scene from one of my upcoming fics in a completely different way - you'll know which one I mean when you read it.) Su's introspection and hindsight bias about 5th year, though, hurts. We always want to judge our younger selves for the things we did or, especially, didn't do, and the regret leaks through Su's words like water through a collander. :(

Oct: Well, that was fast. XD The D.A. There are the first feelings of a family air developing in the new D.A., it seems. And it's understandable that Su wants Lisa by her side; when you're together, it makes even the darkest things that much more tolerable. ;w;

Nov pt1: Su's comments about the cold remind me of certain people's intolerance for anything between 30-60F. XD Her anger at the whole situation feels raw...and yet deflated. You can feel, as a reader, how hopeless Su is in this whole mess, especially around her fellow eagles. Her friends. Or the people she would like to think of as her friends (given her remarks on how she doesn't think she communicates well with them).

Nov pt2: Snatcher scare! And it took me a moment to realize she'd been signing "love" since October. :')))

Dec pt1: That awkward moment when you gotta keep stuff from your parents... ._. Home is as much a delicate situation as school, clearly, and you want to be happy for Su over the small things - but it's funny, as soon as the thought occurs, Su reminds you not to be happy given everything else. The last bit really makes you hopeful to see the eagles reunited and celebrating a year from now. Dx

Dec pt2: Omg a tiny Su makes me laugh, ngl. XD I know you've touched upon alcoholism in some of your other fics, but there's a different touch here. As if having her pen a letter while drunk allows more of her real thoughts, heart, and self to come forth. Omg, her b*tching about Quidditch being canceled. XD If they were able to be together in that moment, I could picture Su trying to smush Lisa's face before kissing her. A fit of giggles. A giant hug. Warm snuggles. Them being safe and sound and together... *now my heart hurts even more, so i'mma blame you* :P

Jan: For a moment, this opened as if it would be just another update on things for Lisa. But diverting for a moment to the memory of Su and the Turpins was so sweet...then cycling around to other possibilites for why they took Luna. D*mn! One of the things I love about your writing so much is that you always think of something that never occurred to me but seems so common sense? So I feel it should've? *lol* But, man, the panic Su closes with... My heart. ;w;

Feb pt1: A surprising switch-up from the other letters. :O But, of course, fitting, given Valentine's Day. I enjoyed yet another memory SuLisa share, but I also appreciate how Su doesn't exactly segue, just dives right in to her revelation. The bit with Kevin and Michael made me chuckle, especially how they began to include Su in their convos after. ;] I'm rather entertained here simply because your Su is kinda like my Morag and my Su is kinda like your Morag; funny how we switched these two in particular around. XD

Feb pt2: OMG THAT SENTENCE. So small, but riddled with implications! D: Crabbe and Goyle I expect. But Daph... Oh, Daph... ;w; Okay, these memories of SuLisa's time together is really starting to kill me, OKAY?! DDDx

March: I know you're working on a separate Michael fic, but...this, from another's POV, just hurts. Everyone's close to breaking - breaking down or reaching that breaking point and being ready to fight back properly. I love the chain of students, making sure Michael got back to friendly territory. Having to set up their own Hospital Wing in the tower, though... Bloody hell. And, ofc, poor Morag.

April: Gods. The temptation. When you're stuck in a hellhole school and only have a little time left, the temptation to leave anyway is too strong. Unfortunately, I get (and experienced) staying and just finishing your "sentence" out. It really f*cking sucks. The inclusion of some of their ancestry (Padma's Indian family, an implied reference ot Su's Asian background, etc.) is a nice touch; now I kinda wanna see a fic where someone does escape to another, faraway country and how they might ever end up back in the U.K. Oh, Su. In some ways, I totally get the romantic notion of running away even in such times. :') The update on Michael and Su consciously not using "okay" and "fine" just feels so right for that. :/ Man...talk of an old Michael has got some Mollychael feels floating around here now. :P Omg, Morag's change. XD Nice tough. Harry, the "overdramatic little sh*t." ACCURATE, in some ways. XD

May: ... ...if only it'd been a mere broken window. ;w; Su's confession actually doesn't hurt me as much as the whole "it sucks to be this dramatic" speech right before it. Because. No one. No ones wants to have that realization. That the next second, you could be gone. Or your loved one[s] could be gone. But it's so important to end on a high a note as you can. Which is why I know the next part of this fic is gonna ruin me. D8

Lisa pt1: Lisa's life basically being homeless is just...so accurate, from what's on the news and what you see on the very streets of the city. But thankfully she's clever and resourceful. I worried for a moment when she called home, but I'm also so glad and weirdly grateful to Padma that she contacted Mrs. Turpin. And now Lisa knows. And I'm. Already. A puddle. D:

Lisa pt2: I don't blame Padma for sending that missive. Maybe it was unfair not to tell Lisa in person, but one also has to consider one's own mental and emotional state before putting oneself in that position. Not surprised to hear that they might not want to hang. :/ And THAT PARENTHETICAL OUCH WTFFFFFFF. D8

Lisa pt3: ...ah. In an odd sense, I almost felt as if I were there at the table, right there with them, as they met and talked-not-talked. I'm not certain why. Perhaps because their actions, like their words, are abrupt and unsure? That aside, Padma does show signs of trauma, the whole "not ready to talk about it yet," because ofc they actually were traumatized, and sometimes it takes a while to realize just how badly something affected you. I love the inclusion, Lisa noting that Padma left "warmly" - it's a ray of hope in a dark, post-war story. But they letters. And THAT LAST GODD*MN PARENTHETICAL.

Thx for the shout-out - you're so sweet. -w- But...man. Like a lot of your recent stuff, I'm going to be thinking about this one for a long time to come. :O