This is a nice little piece. I want to comment on a few things, mostly about what other people wrote, but first I'm gonna say something about the story itself:

'I began...began to want him, for him, I thought, but I really wanted to be a—wanted to lose my virginity.'

I don't think that this is something Fantine would think. She was a shy, naïve creature. But anyway, it is your story and your interpretation. Now I'll commend on the other commentators.

Tattered Sparrow, the book says this:

'An hour later, when she had returned to her room, she wept. It was her first love affair, as we have said; she had given herself to this Tholomyes as to a husband, and the poor girl had a child.'

Which means that she most definately already had Cosette before Tholomyes left her. (asshole) *cough* Excuse me.

Alanna (wow, do I know you ;) (yup.)), his name really is Félix :)

Short, but quality comes over quantity here. It should be 'I lusted *after* his mind', but oh well.

Assuming Félix is Tholomyes' first name...is that canon or an invention? I can't remember myself...

Anyway, glad to see some Fantine fic. I think you've got her down well - she seems to have two main characteristics, her love for him and her love for Cosette. I'm not sure about the first bit - I see her as being truly in love, but that's just interpretation.

Did he really stay for two years? I thought he left her after a summer, but I can't remember my canon so I'm not going to call you on that.

Overall, short but a good read. :)

Actually, Tholomyes left Fantine before she had Cosette, before she even told him that she was pregnant. However, this is a very good story that really displays the raw emotions that Fantine was feeling. Good work!

Utterly lovely m'dear. You really got into the mind of Fantine.
And to answer the Shrek question: Definately Sir Percy and the League of the Scarlet Pimpernel. Definately Sir Percy. *glomps Sir Percy* Then of course... could just be my partiaility (sp?) to Douglass Sills, who played Percy in the Scarlet Pimprenel musical... *drools*

Wow! This is your best one yet!
I love the way you sometimes have a break between a word and the rest of the sentance,
ex: "I still - still care for him."
It's really cool, it leads to the impression that it's Fantine talking. Very personal.

I've been wondring when we'd see some more Fantine fics. Excellent work. Really brings out her emotions!