This is very short, but it's just a transition chapter, I'm traveling and It's been so long since I last updated that I decided to update as it is. But I'll be back home this weekend, so hopefully, I will update a bigger one.

Chapter 9:

Before the forever part (part 3)

"It's gonna be a good thing I suppose. I mean, I've only been in Paris one time, but I found it amazing over there. And we'll have the opportunity to be away from each other for more than one week."

Sitting on her bed, indian style, wearing her short and shirt comfortable combination, Rachel watches as Quinn stops undressing herself to stare at the brunette, face changing into a scowl.

"And you think that would be good?" Quinn asks hurtful.

"Quinn…" Rachel sighs and looks at her girlfriend tenderly.

"It's Paris Rachel. I've always wanted to go to Paris with you. Don't you remember the list?"

The filming of the Rom-Com Quinn accepted starring in is going to start soon and part of it is going to take place in Paris.

"Of course I do. You put me on the bottom with a -5." Rachel teases with a smile on her lips.

"I'm serious."

"So am I. Thinking about it," Rachel pauses and pretends to be musing. "Do you really think Santana and Puck are hotter than me?"

"Rachel…" Quinn whines impatiently.

"I'm kidding." Rachel gets off of the bed and holds her girlfriend's hands. "Of course I remember, and I hope you didn't kiss anyone at the top of the Eiffel Tower."

"You know I didn't." She smiles bashfully as she leans to peck Rachel's lips. "I'm intending to do it before I turn thirty though." She adds with pleading eyes as Rachel tilts her head to the side in amusement.

"Do you have someone in mind?"

"Yeah." She answers as her eyes shine in bliss. "I actually had her in my mind when I did the list."

"Stupid me… choosing to dance…" Rachel says more to herself.

"Uh?"

"We danced in the rain that day, but I should've kissed you instead."

"It was perfect the way it was." Quinn says honestly.

"It was…" Rachel sighs and then snaps herself out of her reveries. She is so going to kiss Quinn in the rain. And at the top of the Eiffel tower. "You must be tired." She lifts Quinn's hands and kisses them both. "Go take your bath. I'll be here waiting for you."

"And then we're having sex?" Quinn inquires hopefully.

"And then we're going to talk." She bites Quinn's jaw playfully. "We have lots of things to discuss."

"I don't want to discuss Rachel. I want you to go to Paris with me."

"In another opportunity, I'll go with you. I promise. Besides, it's work. You'll be busy with your filming schedule."

"I can find time for us."

"I know you can, but we don't have issues when it's about this." She gestures between them suggestively. "You need to trust me completely."

"Rachel," Quinn cups her girlfriend's cheek tenderly as she looks into brown eyes. "I trust you… And I'm sorry about Emily."

Sighing, Rachel averts her eyes, but Quinn makes the brunette face her again.

"I trust you, but…" She bites down on her bottom lip, vulnerable and emotional. "I am insecure about you and Finn." She admits in a lower tone. "And she knows that."

It's not some new information; however, Rachel can't help but get a little upset. She can't change her past, besides she knows everything happened for a reason and she has learned with her mistakes. Okay, she needed a little push from above, but she has learned. And now they need to focus on their future, and that thought reminds her of a very important quote.

"You said once we can't change the past." She says calmly as Quinn stares at her attentively. "I was married to him, I can't change that. I loved him," She pauses as she is afraid of what she is about to say. "I still love him, I also can't change that."

As if Rachel's skin is burning her, Quinn pulls away quickly.

"Love is not a one-dimensional thing Quinn." She says patiently as Quinn walks toward the bathroom door. "Otherwise, shouldn't I be jealous of you and Puck?"

Riled, the blonde actress turns to Rachel with fierce eyes.

"Don't you dare to compare." Quinn says firmly. "I never married Puck."

"No, you had a baby with him." Rachel says huffish.

"I was sixteen!" She raises her voice a little as she can't believe Rachel is bringing this up now. "I thought you had accepted Beth…" She adds in a small voice. Rachel and Beth are the two most important things in her life. The thought of Rachel resenting her daughter is too painful.

"What?" Rachel shakes her head vehemently. "That's not it."

"Explain then." The blonde actress pleads hurtfully.

"You don't trust me with Finn, because we have a past, we were married, but we're over." She explains, gesturing her hands, agitated. "Beth is always going to be his daughter. Noah is going to be part of your life forever."

"Only because I want him to." Quinn replies, scowling at her girlfriend.

"And I'm okay with that, most of the time." She says through gritted teeth. "I can't deny I get a little jealous when you guys are together." She waves her hands. "But, you're not okay with the fact that I want the same thing with Finn."

"It's different…"

"Why?" Rachel asks, whining in frustration.

"I don't love Puck the way you love Finn. Puck is my friend-"

"Who got you drunk and then took advantage of it!" Frustrated and irritated, she loses her tempers and bursts out the words without thinking.

"It was awful what he did, but he didn't rape me Rachel. Yes, he gave me wine coolers, but I didn't ask him to stop. That day has more to do with my sexuality than with alcohol. Alcohol was just something that helped me to get through that. I was so repressed by my family beliefs…" She sighs.

"I know…" Rachel gets close and cups Quinn's cheeks. "I know…" She kisses her girlfriend sweetly.

"Aside from Santana and Brittany, he is my best friend, and he was there for me when I needed. We've been friends for more than ten years now." She smiles as she remembers their journey till here, Puck working as talent scout and she becoming a Hollywood star. "You and Finn were married."

"For three years." Rachel interjects.

"After dating for years." Quinn points out calmly. "And I was there watching you guys for most part of it."

"Okay." Rachel nods knowingly. There's no point in arguing with Quinn now. "Somehow this is my fault. I'm going to stop mentioning him altogether, he's my past. And I'm going to prove it to you."

"I don't want you to be upset with me." Quinn pouts.

"I'm not. I promise. Just go take your bath." She kisses Quinn's lips and caresses the blonde's cheeks tenderly. "I love you."

As Quinn goes to take a bath, Rachel heads off to the kitchen. Moments later when Quinn exits their en suite, refreshed and renewed, she finds the dinner placed on the dinner table.

"I'm not you, but I kind of…" Rachel shrugs playfully. "Made us dinner."

"It's perfect." Quinn says, her eyes glazed over Rachel.

"So…" Rachel trails off as they sit. "How was your week?"

"Awful." Quinn answers without falter. "I missed you." She adds pouty.

"I missed you too."

"This means you should come to Paris with me."

"I'm going to think about it." Rachel nods her head as she sips on her wine. "We still need to work on our trust issues."

"I know and I'm sorry."

"I was an idiot too. Actually, I'm the one to blame here. I thought about it you know…" She caresses Quinn's hand over the table. "This week I spent here without you, I kind of went back to that time. I lied to you, I lied to me… I chose him over you and it's okay that you have your doubts…"

"I… I believe you, Rachel, you know me…" She says sweetly as Rachel looks at her attentively. "I get so vulnerable when it comes to my feeling for you, it's scary sometimes. I like being in control, but when it comes to you, I'm not in control. I've never been. My feelings control me instead. And it was so confusing at first." She admits amused as Rachel looks at her in a longing way. "Like those pornographic drawings." She chuckles lively. "Then I tried to be indifferent to you, but I kept failing… I just can't control my emotions when I'm around you."

"Do you think it's a bad thing?" Rachel asks truly interested.

"I…" She shakes her head, a smile on her face. "Like it's in the song,"

Remember those walls I built?

Well baby they're tumbling down…

She sings sweetly as Rachel watches in awe.

"No. I don't think it's a bad thing. I mean, it used to be awful, especially when I was still in denial." She looks down at her plate thoughtful, and then she looks back at her girlfriend. "But my heart belongs to you, and I wouldn't have it any other way."

"And I just feel like the luckiest girl in the world because of it." Rachel says meaningfully.

The night goes on and they get engaged in a small talk, just enjoining each other's company. The talk turns into flirting as they finish eating and proceed to clean up the kitchen and to wash the dishes and then the flirting turns into kissing, and the kissing turns into making out in bed.

"I love your lips." Quinn whispers as she brushes her lips against Rachel's swollen ones.

"I can tell." Rachel replies, her smile spreading across her lips. "Mm…" She leans up and pecks Quinn's lips. "Let's sleep."

Quinn watches displeased as Rachel moves away from the blonde and effectively taking Quinn off of her.

"But…"

"Good night baby." Rachel says sweetly as she takes her girlfriend's arm, forcing Quinn to spoon her. With the contact of Rachel's body pressed against hers, her annoyance turns into a smile right away.

"Good night." She says in a low voice, kissing Rachel's temple as she cuddles the brunette. "I love you."

"I love you too." Rachel replies serenely, a smirking forming on her lips.

If Emily thinks she can trigger a crack in their relationship, using Finn no less, she is really more pretentious than Rachel first thought. But her mischievous plans were not a bad thing in the long run. It actually served to show Rachel that Quinn still feels insecure about her friendship or rather, her attempt of building a friendship with her ex husband.

Like she said, words are not enough, and tomorrow she is going to start her ploy to prove her love and show Quinn to whom her heart belongs.

So? Just a warming up to what's coming. And yes Quinn needs to complete her list. Let me see, among other things, that you guys will find out soon enogh, there's Paris, Italy and… Marry the love of her life!