Chapter 1: Let This Go

"Maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much."

- Paramore

I still can't believe that you left. With a blink of an eye, you were gone.

It's been weeks since you left. School is already over. It's summer here in Edinburgh. But it's gloomy as ever. Just like how I feel.

I couldn't bear to see you leave. It hurt so fucking much. Why? Why did you have to go? You told me that you needed space, that you needed to define yourself. I get that. But it didn't mean that you had to go and actually leave.

You could have defined yourself here. With me. I would have given you space. If it meant not talking to you, I would have done it.

As long as you're here. Near me.

Our room still smells like you. It's like you're all around me and yet, you're still so far away. Out of my reach. I miss your touch. Your eyes. Your smile. Hell, even the way that you wake me up every damn morning for school.

You used to be the first thing I saw when I woke up. Now, I see the white ceiling. Blank. Always blank. It's not you.

I don't know where I went wrong. I tried my best to love you, but I guess my best wasn't enough. Did I suffocate you? Was my love no longer enough?

We were so perfect. Until those damned bloodsuckers showed up in our life. And Rhia started talking about all this Fate shit.

I confronted her about it, you know. I accused her. I told her that she forced you to leave, because she never really liked you, that she never wanted you as a part of our family.

She slapped me right across the face. You should've seen it.

I'd never seen so much hate in her eyes. "For your fucking information," she spat in my face, "I love Bella. I did what I did because I knew it was for the best."

The best, my ass.

Is this for the best? I'm suffering like hell. It sure doesn't feel like it was for the best.

Fuck Rhia. Fuck Fate.

Well, I hope you guys enjoyed that chapter. I promise it gets better!

The reason why I'm doing a two-chapter update per week is because all of the chapters are somewhere around 400 to 700 words each. It is Landon's diary. He's not gonna make a novel out of it. Lol.

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