Hello Dear Readers!

All of us Japril fans have been dying on what will happen and everyone has their own prediction. Well...My friend and I decided to write a fic on how we would like the second half of S10 [and beyond] to go on. so here it is!

Collabiration with: claireelisabetta

Disclaimer: we don't own grey's or else this would happen

Chapter One

"Say It Load"

Jackson kept seeing butterflies in his peripheral vision.

He was sitting in the steamy barn, pretending to listen as Stephanie babbled on next to him about how cute the wedding would be. He smiled halfheartedly at her as she clasped onto his arm like a barnacle, mumbling in agreement at her overexcited words. Jackson understood- after all, Stephanie had always been suspicious of Jackson's feelings towards the redheaded bride-to-be. With April married and out of the way, Jackson was safely hers.

April was getting married.

Jackson's stomach twisted at the thought. The idea that after that night, April would belong to Matthew Whatever-his-name-is made Jackson feel sick to his stomach.

He wasn't sure why everything was so real all of a sudden. It wasn't as if Jackson didn't know that April would eventually walk down the aisle. In fact, Jackson remembered all too well.

"You're getting married…"

"Unless you can give me a reason not to."

Jackson cleared his throat, trying to push the thought from his head. He was happy, or at least he thought he was. Stephanie was great- she was hot, smart, and good in bed. What more could he ask for?

Jackson's hands couldn't stop shaking as music flooded through the room. He turned around, facing the door expectantly as the three bridesmaids slowly began to process to the front. Arizona, Meredith, and Cristina floated through the barn, outfitted in bubblegum pink dresses. Jackson would've smiled if he weren't feeling like throwing up.

The crowd let out a collected gasp as April appeared in the doorway, her arm linked in her father's. She looked beautiful- the simple white gown fitting her body like a glove, her shining red hair pulled up into a braided up-do. Every delicate step she took felt like a knife cutting into Jackson's heart.

Jackson fought to keep a strained smile on his face as April took her place at the altar. Jackson's mind wandered to his former mentor as the priest began to drone on. Mark Sloan's words echoed through his head as he shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

I want you to promise me something.

Jackson tried to ignore Stephanie's happy sigh as April took Matthew's hands in hers. He felt like he was drowning- the simple act of breathing slowly becoming more difficult.

If you love someone, you tell them.

He was vaguely aware of the preacher turning to the audience.

Even if you're scared that it's not the right thing. Even if you're scared that it'll cause problems.

Jackson blinked wildly, trying to shake himself from the daze. He felt as if he couldn't control his body, unable to speak or move.

Even if you're scared that it will burn your life to the ground, you say it and you say it loud.

The green-eyed man turned to the girl next to him, feeling a pang of guilt as Stephanie looked at him with worried eyes. "I, uh… I'm sorry," he breathed out before standing up. All attention turned to him as he stood, paralyzed in fear. He quickly sat back onto his seat, breathing heavily. His heart raced as April turned back to her fiancé, ready to finish the ceremony. No, Jackson thought, panicked, as he leaped back up.

And then you go from there.

"I love you, April."

Hundreds of shocked eyes watched Jackson from his position in the middle of the aisle. He took a deep breath and clenched his fists, staring at April's wide eyes.

"I always have. I love everything about you. Even the things I don't like, I love."

The words came spewing from his mouth before he had a chance to stop them.

"And I want you with me. I love you, and I think that you love me too."

He paused, trembling.

"Do you?"

It was a matter of seconds the attention in the room shifted to the shocked bride-to-be. April's mouth dropped at Jackson's confession, a small choking sound escaping her lips. Matthew stood dumbfounded, eyes flickering between his fiancé and Jackson. The redhead's wide hazel eyes welled with tears as she gasped for air. It wasn't long before the girl was sobbing. Arizona reached over to place a protective hand on the girl's shoulder, but April had already stormed off the altar and over to the green-eyed man.

He expected her to maybe kiss him, hug him, stand there and just look at him; but he never expected her to shove him back angrily with tears in her eyes. Memories of the storm all those months ago resurfaced as her tiny hands batted against his chest.

"Jackson Avery, you complete idiot!" she shrieked as she shoved him harshly. "You could have said this when I asked you, why didn't you say anything? It's my wedding day, you cow!" she exclaimed as she punched his chest. "Why now?" she asked softly, looking up at him through her dark lashes as mascara tinted tears fell down her face.

Her small body was quivering with frustration, angry that he had chosen this specific moment to finally confess his feelings. "Tell me!"

"April," he said calmly, catching her fist before it reached his chest. She froze, tears streaming down her face. The sound of her sniffles echoed through the room, interspersed with surprised whispers. "April…" he repeated quietly.

The redhead choked back a sob, looking up at Jackson with tears in her eyes before quickly pulling her hand away from his, hiking up her wedding dress and running out of the barn.

Matthew seemed to be in a daze- his eyes glassy and his mouth agape. Finally, he snapped out of it, the slightly confused expression making way to one of pure rage. He stormed down the steps, eyebrows knitted with anger as he walked up to Jackson, fists balled.

"What the hell, man?" Matthew bellowed.

Jackson steadied his shoulders, expecting a fight. He was surprised when Alex Karev stepped in between the two men, palms outstretched.

"Look, dude, what Jackson did was totally uncool," Alex said, facing Matthew. Jackson raised his eyebrows at the Pediatric surgeon, curious to see where he was going. "But come on, man. It's not his fault that your girl's not over him. You're a smart guy, I think you knew that already." Jackson was surprised- since when did Karev stand up for him?

A surprisingly broken look emerged on Matthew's face, replacing the look of anger. "Yeah. I knew. I just thought she would forget about it eventually," he remarked, more to himself than anybody else. He looked up, tears glimmering in his eyes as he nodded slightly to his groomsmen. They left their place at the altar, meeting him as he walked out of the back door. Jackson couldn't help but feel terrible- even though he hated Matthew for being with April, he was a genuinely good guy.

"Hey man, thanks for- ow! What the hell?" Jackson screeched when Alex delivered a solid punch to his chest.

"Really, Jackson? On her freakin' wedding day?" Alex admonished loudly, delivering another light hit.

"Well, it's not like I had it planned out, or anything!"

"Whatever. Just, don't screw it up this time, okay?"

"I'll try," Jackson replied sincerely. He was telling the truth- he would do everything physically possible to win April back.

"Seriously. And if you break her heart, I'll kick your ass."

Jackson couldn't help but smile. Alex and April had a weird relationship; even though they bickered all the time, he knew that they really cared about each other. "Yeah, I know."

Alex nodded, satisfied with the answer. He looked at Jackson, who was still standing in the middle of the aisle. "Dude, go get her!" Alex said, rolling his eyes for the second time that night.

April rushed to the room where she was getting ready an hour ago.

It was hard for April to believe that less than an hour ago, she was getting ready to give herself up to Matthew completely. Ready to put Jackson Avery behind, to accept that he would always be someone important, someone she will always love.

April reached behind her to pull down the zipper of the long white dress, but hands were shaking too hard to provide any actual use. April sat down on the cold floor, burying her tear-streaked face in her hands.

Why now?

Suddenly, the door swung open, revealing Jackson. He had loosened the top button of his white dress shirt, revealing a strip of tanned muscle. April shot up, quickly drying her tears with her arm.

"April-"

"No you've said enough," she said, cutting him off midsentence.

"April, I-"

"Stop saying my name!" she yelled in frustration.

"Listen," Jackson pleaded hopelessly.

"No, you listen," April said, finally ready to talk. "I was ready. I was ready to let you go. I was ready to commit myself to a good man that loves me and worships me. A good man that does not think I am insane, who likes it when I babble who-who…" April ranted, new tears springing to her eyes. "And you…You, Jackson Avery." She stood still and looked at him "You are my best friend, you have been important to me for 7 years now. You are the man I chose to give my virginity to. The only man who knows every single part of me. I can't imagine a time when I didn't love you," April sighs, defeated. Feelings were rushing through her, finally coming to the brim. April felt like she was about to explode.

"I just-"

"No, I'm not done," April commanded. She shook her head angrily, trying to will away the tears seeping from her eyes. She covered her face with her hands as a burst of sobbing wracked through her body.

Jackson wanted nothing more than to go and capture her in his arms, to hold her as she cried, but he knew that he couldn't. April needed time to process what had happened, time to grieve the loss of her fiancé.

"Do you have any idea how hard it was was?" April asked, voice broken. "Every time I looked at you, I wanted to kiss you. Every time I looked at you, I felt like my entire world was slipping away through my fingers. You werehappy, Jackson. You were happy with that intern. You were happy with somebody who wasn't me, and that killed me. Every time I saw you two, it felt like a stab in my heart. The awareness that you are about to loose something so important to you and there is nothing you can do about it? That was me for a whole year. I spent a whole year trying to pretend that I didn't need you. Because loving you Jackson, is subconscious. Loving you is like breathing, like blinking, like falling asleep. Trying to stop something that your whole body, your whole heart is telling you to do is impossible."

April collapsed into a chair, not trusting her legs to have the strength to hold her up. "But I had to, I had to because you were just some guy I banged in the bathroom, right?" April used the harsh words he had used on her after the storm.

Jackson swallowed the bile that rose to his throat at April's words. He didn't mean what he had said; he was just angry and hurt because April was engaged to another man. She told Jackson that she loved him, and then went back to another man as if nothing had happened.

"You picked him, you said yes to him and then you came to me saying that you wanted me. I figured you were just confused and having one of your neurotic episodes… You went back to him hours later, April!" Jackson exclaimed.

"What did you want me to do? Wait for you, watch you be happy with Stephanie from afar! I wanted to be happy too Jackson. I wanted to be happy. You left! You walked away when the results where negative saying it was a sign, mocking me like I was just another girl you slept with" April was now furious, her tiny body shaking with rage.

"I was in, I was all in and you were thanking God that you didn't have to be," Jackson argued, his voice rasing.

"I was happy we didn't have to have a baby that way. It didn't mean I didn't want those things with you, it just meant that I didn't have to explain to my parents how I broke my promise to Jesus and how I failed my boards because I couldn't get over it!"

"I always knew you blamed me, April. I always knew," Jackson spat out, crossing his arms on his chest.

"Shut up, Jackson!" April exclaimed, causing Jackson to step back slightly in surprise. "I don't blame you! I kissed you, I told you it was okay. I literally pounced you. I was on top. It was all me, Jackson, and I would do it again!"

Jackson and April stared at each other from across the room, a tangible silence filling the air. April spoke first, her voice almost silent.

"You moved on, Jackson. You slept with her. You stayed with her."

"Yeah well… You don't see me getting married" he remarked bitterly.

"You gave me your blessing! You practically forced Matthew on me!"

"Like anything I say would have changed anything," Jackson said sarcastically

"Do you see me getting married, you idiot?" she screeched, stomping her foot like an angry child.

Jackson suddenly felt stupid. He had pushed her towards Matthew, practically handing him to her on a silver platter. April had asked him for a reason, but he was too ignorant to give her one. Too ignorant to realize what he really wanted- her.

The fact of the matter was that their arguments didn't matter anymore. She had made her choice, she was standing in front of him.

Jackson walked across the room towards the sniffling girl, watching as she took a small step back. It didn't deter Jackson from caressing her face, his thumbs brushing the tears from her pale skin. His touch was gentle, loving. April couldn't help but shudder under his touch, a small part of her feeling like she was home again.

"I'm sorry," Jackson said quietly. "I'm sorry I made you the bad guy. I'm sorry that I'm so late. I never thought that I could feel this way about anyone. I never thought that we were more than just friends who had sex. But-"

"But you love me." April's eyes fluttered open as she completed his sentence.

"I love you," he repeated.

"I have tried to convince myself of the opposite for months now but… I love you too"

Jackson's heart fluttered at her confession, a smile forming on his face as he pulled the white veil off her head. His hand slipped to the base of her neck, gently tracing patterns into her exposed skin as he leaned down and pressed his lips to hers. The kiss was soft, slow, so unlike other kisses they had shared before. Nothing about it was heated or quick. April sighed happily in his mouth, relishing in the feel of his lips and tongue. It had been so long since they had last been together, and both of them missed the feeling of each other's mouth. Jackson pulled away slowly, happiness evident on his face.

"So what do we do now?"

"We do nothing, you sneak out of here and I'll deal with the fallout," April ordered. She held her finger up to his mouth, sensing that he was going to protest. "Jackson, I know that you want to help, but honestly the best way you can is if you leave. It's my wedding, and I will deal with it. You leaving is the best thing to do."

Jackson was reluctant to leave her clean up the mess that he created but he knew she was right. He kissed her one last time before heading towards the door. "Call me if anything-"

"Go!" she urged him, and he finally listened and walked out the door.

April took a deep breath and tried not to look so happy as she left the room a minute or two after Jackson to deal with the almost wedding

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