Disclaimer: No copyright infringement intended. All characters belong to Muse Entertainment and Syfy and the writers. I´m writing just for fun and I´m making no money with it.

Annotation:The story takes place in the first episode of Being Human´s season 2 when Josh and Nora have been driving into the woods, so that Josh can transform into the werewolf without endangering any other humans. Nora has been scratched by Josh accidentally in mid-transformation and this night is the first full moon after the incident.

This story does not follow the events from the show´s episode completely but for the transformation.

I write it on the kindly request of kittenamoswho messaged me and has asked for it and I willingly try to bring it up here. (This is the first time I´m writing a fanfiction on request and as I´m no professional writer, please show me some mercy!)I hope you´ll enjoy it.

Rated T. Hurt/Comfort, Angst. Some strong stuff hunting scenes. Josh and Nora, who tells the story of her first transformation as a first-person narrator here:

Let This Cup Pass From Me

Chapter 1

I stopped the car on a narrow pathway. To the left and to the right were nothing but bushes and trees. The moon didn´t even lit up the area on both sides despite it was the night of the full moon.

Full moon!

That was the reason why we both were out here, far away from Boston or any inhabited rural area. Josh had me urged to drive so deep into the woods. I had been somewhat hesitant to go so far but there was no further discussion when he had explained me that it had to be so. No people, no unintentionally killed human being! A fully turned werewolf was a beast that might go on a rampage when the blood lust would become overwhelming.

I even had the slightest clue if a werewolf was able to think rational in its state, rational in a common human sense. Or if it was only driven by animalistic instincts, hunting down and killing what ever might step into its path unfortunately.

IT...!

Josh wasn´t an IT, he was...he was a human being, a man, my friend and colleague. It wasn´t easy for me to look at him as my upcoming boyfriend... Too much worse than bad memories were connected to the image of men. No, I corrected myself...not men in general, as there were loving and caring friends and husbands and fathers out there...but one had been a badass, an asshole who had done me violence. Not only once but multiple times, leading to the night when he had thrown a bottle of acid at me in his violent temper. The scars from it would decorate my belly for the rest of my life. Not that I thought of me as being a woman who would never ever trust again any man in her life, but I felt uncertain with it.

Maybe any day I would meet the man who would break down my walls out of good reason. If Josh would be this man...I didn´t know now!

He had scratched me accidentally, not by intention. Josh hadn´t a hell of a temper like my former friend. It had only been a scratch and it hadn´t been bleeding much. It even hadn´t gone deep down under the skin... Yeap, there were thin scars from it and a doctor had said that I´m a person who tends to develop scars from injuries as it was out of an overreacting connective tissue. Idiopathic and nothing to worry about...as long as I won´t get severely injured on my face!

I managed a nervous smile and looked at Josh who was digging through his belongings in the foot space of the passenger´s seat beside me.

"You can leave this stuff in here, Josh! I will keep an eye on it!" I said more to myself than to Josh.

The moon was fully developed now and it would only take half an hour to the latest before Josh would go through his next turning. Since three years he inevitably turned werewolf on every full moon. And in the month of a Blue Moon, what meant two full moon states in the same month, he had to suffer his fate twice! But Josh had some experience now to cope with it, making it less worse as in the beginning. Lots of liquid before and after the werewolf state helped to sooth it at least a bit. The guy, Ray, who had turned him, had given him some lessons in werewolfism.

"Okaay, Nora! We are so deep down in the woods that only by coincidence any guys might come ahead here, going for the car rather than for a pair of shoes, a shirt and an old jeans, Nora!" Josh gave back.

My mind was fixing onto such minimal things, as useless as they may be, to distract me from the information that stuck to my mind. After Josh had scratched me I had started to go secretly through every snippet of information from the legends about werewolves. My point of interest had focused onto the way an infection might be transferred. There were rumors from...any, even the slightest, scratch is enough to get you infected...up to...you have to be bitten deeply and the saliva has to stay in the wounds for some time, what sounded much more than a rabies infection. Josh hadn´t bitten me, he had slightly scratched me and there had been no inflammation. I had read so much contrary stuff on it and I fearfully clung to the got-bitten-theory as it would mean I won´t turn into a werewolf! Waking up amidst the night, bathed in cold sweat, my heart racing wildly when I woke from nightmarish dreams of monsters chasing me through the woods, catching me and mauling me or I was turning into a growling monster going for every throat available around!

With fumbling fingers I had regular checked for my side, in worse cases my trembling fingers went for my mouth, feeling for monster teeth growing in!

To be honest, since Josh had scratched me I haven´t had any peaceful night anymore until now. The time until the moon would turn full and I would...fearfully, hopefully...learn to know that it were only simple scratches and nothing else, had seriously affected my mind´s health. Oh, what a strong word. I wasn´t suffering from a mental disorder or disease but I was literally suffering from a lack of mental peace! I had tried to calm myself down by the repetition of the fact that I had gone through traumatic experience before by my Ex and I simply was somewhat overreacting and thin-skinned by now!

All would turn out well! All would turn out well, Nora! I repeated like a prayer wheel.

"Okay, I will strip down now and I´ll go over there..." Josh directed to the left side of the pathway. Josh would turn with 100 percent certainty now, but mine was...

...not happening!

It won´t happen to me! It simply couldn´t happen by now as I was convinced that it was the bite theory! This was the only option that kept me from running into the woods panic-fueled right now. My mind jumped back and forth while Josh stripped down until he was completely nude. Any clothing would be a hindrance now and it would get torn to pieces in the process.

He shot me a look and anything in my facial expression must have given him the feeling that I was feeling...

...pretty wrong yet.

Not from ongoing deformations but from fear and stress. My inner condition seemed to be written right into my face and I felt when I started to tremble from inside. Clinging my fingers to the steering wheel helped a bit, at least it was hiding the trembling from Josh. I didn´t want to give him the impression that he might not leave me alone in the car when he was running the forest in monster shape. In animal shape, I corrected myself. Josh wasn´t a monster, he simply had to cope with a very special problem and all would turn out well when he won´t meet any human. Hunting down a deer or a moose was less problematic. A blood bath, yes, but people were regular hunting those animals for fun and for food. A werewolf won´t make a difference to it when it came to the animal dying from a bullet or an uber-wolf. It was rather naturally. Bullets weren´t natural as no predator ever developed a gun instead of claws and fangs.

The thoughts brought a nervous smiling onto my face, not being suited to calm me down or the less to hide the fact that I was growing more fearful with every minute that went by.

"Are you okay, Nora?" Josh sounded concerned and I guess he could read and smell too the nervousness within me. His senses had heightened over the last two or three days as usually and this would stay until a couple of hours after the full moon night. Being able to smell from afar that you have had pasta with tomatoes and sweet basil the last day, was a sometimes funny aspect of being a werewolf.

It gave me a calming effect that I haven´t had this effects over the last days. I could only smell on a normal human level. No heightened senses at all. My nose worked normally, my eyesight was normal and I couldn´t feel any electric or electromagnetic fields as some animals can, as long as I won´t push my fingers into a power socket. And I couldn´t smell any wolf smell on Josh as Aidan had indicated once before.

I didn´t feel funny right now. My heart was beating faster when Josh bent over to me and his lips touched my lips and he kissed me tenderly. For a moment all seemed to be and to feel so normally, but the moment was gone when his lips left mine and Josh´s hand went for the door.

"I´ll be right back in the morning...guess I´ll make it back to the car again, so don´t search for me anywhere in the woods. We would only miss each other for sure, Nora!"

Josh was confident as usual, but this wasn´t his first transformation and he had gotten used to it since this happened to him since 2009...more than two years yet! He had some routine in it now even when he despised his inner wolf.

Josh gave me a last kiss and smiled at me, his hand comforting my temple and then he opened the side door and got out of the car. He looked back at me for the last time and then he started to run for the woods. The darkness closed around him and he was off sight within a few moments. I was all alone in the car. I looked out of the side window of my driver´s seat, into the direction in which he had disappeared. Then I lifted my face to the dark black night sky until my eyes got sight of the full moon.

It was silver and white and the night was so clear that the craters on the surface were clearly visible. The Mare Tranquillitatis, the great plain surrounded by the crater walls and other larger and smaller impressions made by a couple of impacts.

It looked so peaceful and I hoped for Josh that his night would become a peaceful one too. I had no definite imagination how a werewolf was living thru the night of full moon. What would he feel and see and smell and with which eyes was he going to see the world in transformation state? The process of switching from human shape to a werewolf itself seemed to be very painful because the structure, the shape of the body became a different one...

"I hope you will find some peace out there, Josh!" I whispered. I looked at the moon and a wave of peace swept over me and for a moment I could distract myself from my fear and my disturbing speculations. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. The air in the car became strangely thick and was crawling up to my chest like a harness made of lead. I suddenly felt the urge to get some air and I wound down the side window, taking a deep breath when the cool air from outside came in.

The air was fresh and cool and had a hint of moss and leaves. It was so much better than the air of Boston. I felt an urge to get out of the car to make a small walk. Josh had me warned not to leave the car but it felt safe when I would stay near the car, so that just in case I might it make inside again very fast.

Josh...Josh would never attack me! He hadn´t attacked me when I had lost out unborn child, peering from under the locked door he had looked at me in my agony and his eyes has had an expression of pity and deep sadness instead of wild and uncontrollable rage.

I inhaled deeply and found back into the reality.

The full moon had risen to full extend and was standing high in the sky, the pale silver light was shining through the branches of the trees and was painting white stripes and blotches on the ground of the fall forest.

The moon was completely full now and nothing...

...nothing had happened. Josh was out there and he would turn immediately. Nothing had happened to ME! I had been right with my research! A scratch meant nothing, only by being bitten one got turned into a werewolf. I was entirely and utterly safe!

I lifted my hands and dared to open my eyes.

My hands looked normal. No claws, no paws. I could smell the air from outside that streamed into the car.

"Let this cup pass from me!"

For the first time since a very long time I was praying.

I hesitated for a moment and decided that God had shown me mercy, finally. I have been right! I won´t transform into what Josh had become and would turn into every month until his death. I breathed with relief.

From anywhere within the forest I heard a long scream. It had to be Josh.

"Thank you! Oh! Thank you!" I prayed and looked at my hands and a wave of peace rolled over me. My fingers clung to the steering wheel and I stared at them. I moved them in front of my face, checking them for the last time and then I started the car´s engine to drive home. I would pick up Josh in the morning. The motor came to life and I switched on the lights. All was...

A sudden wave of pain swept over me. Starting in my legs and moving, crawling upwards, grabbing for my belly and it felt as if my intestines were tumbling over and wrenched from the socket. I moaned and my foot slipped from the accelerator pedal and the car stopped. My fingers clung to the steering wheel in agony and suddenly my mouth seemed to shrink.

Shrink?

It didn´t shrink but I felt my jaws obviously moving out of position and it became pretty tight in my mouth cavity. In panic I lifted my face and grabbed for the rear mirror, pulling it around.

"NO! NO! JOSH...!" I screamed in panic when I saw that the canines in my lower jaw had started to grow in. The canines in my upper jaw became longer and longer until they matched those from below. My incisors became sharp and pointed and I got problems to breath. It felt as if somebody had knocked my nose to pieces and I groaned. My heart was beating wildly and the pain in my chest had spread over to my back, almost wrenching my spine from the base.

"JOSH! JOSH!"

I turned my head from side to side in sheer panic, groaning from the pain from inside. My hands felt for my teeth, my jaw, my chin. A look in the mirror made me scream again.

My jaws had turned into the fangs of a predator!

In panic I stared at my hands which seemed to stretch, growing, the bones under the skin moving and stretching and the nails on my fingers turned to a dark grayish color and grew to the size three times of the normal. I screamed in panic and the pain in my back had risen to a level as if each spine bone was torn and twisted and moved into another position.

With a sharp cracking noise the shirt in my back broke and started to peel off my back. My back was arching and it felt more extended. All this went on under waves of almost unbearable pain and cramps. I pushed the door open and tried to get out of the car, in my fear and panic I entangled myself in the long safety belt that I had strapped over me before I started the engine.

Now it became a trap for me.

I struggled and fought to get out of it, to get out of the car, uselessly grabbing for it. I threw myself forward wildly and than the seizures came. I screamed and screamed and hanging halfway outside of the car my claws at the fingers dug deep into the metal of the door to the back seat, scratching over it when I tried to get any hold. Any.

I doubled over in pain and my screams became louder when my whole body twitched and twisted.

Josh growled and was crouched down to the ground, waiting for the transformation to go on which had started a few moments ago. He suddenly heard screams, screams that were coming from a woman.

"NORA!" He jumped up to his feet and started to run. The screams were leading him the way and he had no problems to follow them.

"NORA! NORA!" he shouted when he was breaking through the scrubs, leaves and branches hitting him in the face and on his chest. He didn´t care for the cuts.

Nora! He had to get to Nora fast! She was transforming!

Nothing else could be happening and he had known it, denying it to himself that he had turned her into a being like him. That he had turned her into a werewolf that night. But there was no doubt any more!

Nora had become a WEREWOLF!

The thought of it filled him with almost unbearable guilt! Not enough it was him who went through this every full moon but he had infected Nora with it too.

"NORA! Oh my God!"

Josh was running now with almost preternatural speed as he was only inches away from a complete transformation. With the full moon he developed skills equal to those of the vampires; inhuman strength, running at full speed, heightened senses of hearing, smelling, tasting and improved eyesight at nighttime. This time of the month they were even stronger than vampires when it came to physical strength, able to fight and hunt them down like they were a bunch of running rabbits.

Josh growled and pushed bushes and branches out of the way. The trees opened to the pathway and Nora´s screams had reached a new level. With one big jump he reached the car, the door was hanging in the hings and metal was peeled off the side door...

I screamed and struggled, my back was extending and arching and my face felt as if it was wrenched from my head and my facial features got distorted when my nose grew in, forming a long snout finally. My arms stretched, extending and the muscles felt like made of steel. My hips moved upwards and backwards, my legs stretching and growing to an inhuman angle, my feet became longer, the toes had claws now and a thin layer of fur covered my hands...no, no more hands and feet but forepaws and hindpaws!

I was trapped inside the car now and it felt like being in a cage. All I wanted now was to get out. I growled loudly and I could smell Josh in front of me before I saw him.

"Nora! Nora! Oh my GOD!" His smell was overwhelming and the transformation had begun on him too, definitely...

I could smell the male wolf on him.

Josh fumbled for the safety belt lock and pulled and growled when he tried to rip it apart with raw force. There wasn´t much time left for him until he would completely turn into the wolf. Finally with a tearing sound that threatened to burst my ears, the safety belt gave in and I was free.

The interior of the car looked as if a rabid animal had raged in it. The steering wheel cover was torn to pieces and the seats were ripped open. Long scratches covered the driver´s side of the car and Josh jumped to the side, crouching down to the pathway when the transformation cramps got hold of his whole body. He groaned deeply and his face turned into a snout.

I leaped out of the car the moment I was free and I growled and with a giant jump I dove into the woods beneath the trees...

To be continued