Authors Note: My first G Gundam fan fiction ever, so please don't be too mean on it! It's only a short vignette-kinda thing; a piece I didn't have to put too much thought into (in terms of plot and themes and all that stuff included in regular fan fiction). I wrote it after nearly bawling during episode forty. I hope you like my attempt at a 'tear-jerker'.

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Disclaimer: *through tears* I don't own ANYTHING okay?! If I did do you think I would be as poor as I am?! Geeze…just rub it in why don't ya?

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WHAT ABOUT HIS PROMISE?

By: PegasusAcc

She walked around the crowded streets of downtown Hong Kong, scarcely aware of the direction her tired feet were carrying her. Her mind was too distracted- blurred and distorted with too many thoughts and too many painful memories. Streetlights flickered and reflected off her anguish-etched face; their bright, luminescent colors danced in the cloud-covered sky.

It took every ounce of her strength not to stop; not to turn around and run back, retrieving her letter only to shred it to pieces. But with strong resolution she continued, trudging through the puddles at her feet. She would keep going…she had to keep going…there was nothing left for her back there. Not now.

'But had there ever been?' she wondered despondently, thinking back to Domon's anger-ridden face.

"I can find Allenby on my own!"

The words echoed through her head, like an ever-constant drum, pounding it's way into her memory and into her heart. 'Yes Domon,' Rain murmured silently, the shattered bits of her heart scattered throughout her body. 'You can do this alone. Whatever made me think that you would need me?'

She sighed and let the cool crisp air of the night fill her lungs. She needed to get away…to escape the memories that plagued her splintered soul. But where?

Rain's hand rested gently on her pocket, the bulky outline of Neo-Germany's mask tangible under her quivering fingers. She could go back to Schwarz, possibly spend the night with him. But she wasn't ready to do that yet. No…she wanted to be alone…alone to collect her strewn thoughts.

As her feet again began to guide her to some mysterious destination, her mind again began to wander. Her heart screamed with torment as Domon's face filtered through her memory. Her heart yearned for him, or what of her heart was left. She understood that he didn't need her anymore and that he didn't want her as a partner any longer. He had made that quite clear at the hospital.

"You don't deserve to be a Doctor! And you don't deserve to be my crew member!"

The pain again washed over her in sinking torrents of sorrow. "I'm sorry Domon," she whispered, inaudible to all but herself. "I don't deserve to be near you."

She stopped, looking out over the infinite expanse played out in front of her. She had come to the shoreline, the majestic deep blues and greens swirling in a depth as deep as her own emotions. She reached down, carefully pulling the boots from her sore and aching feet.

A cool sea breeze ran it's fingers through the tendrils of her hair, the chilled sand molding around her feet. She made her way across the grains, the small imprint of her passage the only thing daring to follow her. A dock loomed in the distance, silhouetted by the lights of the bustling city. But as she soon discovered, the underneath was dark and secluded…a perfect match for the feelings swirling within her own, upturned state of mind.

She stood with her back against the weathered pillar, it's rough and calloused texture. There was a clap of thunder in the distance, rolling and vibrating through the ominous gray-blanket lying draped across the sky. 'I should really be getting home…' she told herself, staring longingly across the water's serene surface. Reaching down to collect a small shell, she tossed it across the water. It sank with a muted 'thlunk', the ripples disrupting the tranquility.

"That's what's wrong," Rain realized, watching the rings steadily grow. "Such a small thing can cause so much change. It starts off so trivial, until it escalates and grows…" She looked down at her sullied hands and clenched them into fists, her nails digging into her tender flesh. "Not being a fighter, I don't know how to communicate with my fists." She unclenched her fists, small trickles of blood running down her palms.

"I don't deserve you Domon," she whispered silently. "I'm nothing but a burden to you." She gazed up into the sky, a streak of lightning piercing through the blackness. "But all I've ever wanted to do was be beside you. To help you, to have you let me help you Domon." She gasped as the realization hit her.

She slouched against the pillar, sliding into the sand. She pulled her feet to her chest, hugging them protectively. No longer could she keep the tears from falling. She had kept them concealed, crying only inside her withered soul all afternoon.

But now they began to roll down her heated skin, the salty droplets falling and diminishing into the fabric of her dress. Suddenly the clouds broke and rain poured down from the sky. It drenched her clothes and chilled her skin. Raindrops dripped from her lashes. She shuttered slightly, uttering inaudible words though her sobs.

"Oh Domon…I love you…"

Abruptly she knew she had to go back. Just to see him, just to see his face one last time, no matter how briefly. She didn't care if Domon wanted to see her or not; she would remain hidden, away from his piercing gaze. But she needed to see him…

Swiftly she pulled her boots onto her feet, not even bothering to wipe the wet sand from her soles. She stood, brushing the sand from her clothes. Then she took off in a sprint toward the warehouse.

She ran full out, a stitch sewing itself into her side. Panting, she pushed onward. "Domon…" Puddles splashed under her feet.

Finally she reached the warehouse. Her heart swelled with sadness as she laid eyes on Neo-Japan's fighter. The rain dripped from his soaking cape and hair. He stood perfectly still, his back against the brick wall, staring blankly out into the distance. His wet clothes clung to his body, outlining the defined contours of his body.

Quickly she ducked behind a dumpster and peered from behind the corner. Tears continued to spill from her eyes and splash into puddles on the ground.

'Maybe it's for the best…" Rain thought, attempting to convince herself desperately. 'But Domon…I love you! All I've ever wanted to do is be beside you.'

And as Domon went back into the dry shelter of the warehouse, her heart reached out to him. "Oh Domon…" she cried, feeling like she would go out of her mind with anguish. 'Oh Domon…but what about your promise?'

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Authors Note: Well, there was absolutely no way that I could reflect the feeling that I had while watching the show…let alone the feeling Rain must have been going through. This fan fiction could NEVER do that justice. It's just out of my skill…please forgive me!!! -' But all the same, please Read and Review!!!