A/N: Sorry for the delay, just been so busy the last couple of weeks. I got such a good response to this story, it really shocked me so thank you all for that. I really want to continue this story by doing a sequel to this but I have 3 other open stories just now that I want to finish, so maybe I'll do it once they're done. Anyway, here's Part 2, enjoy and review!

JJ's knee bounced rapidly and she bit her nails as she tried to keep her anxiety at bay.

Emily was upstairs getting changed and JJ was sat on the couch contemplating how she was going to approach this.

'How can I tell her this, she'll hate me.' JJ thought, positive her wife would leave her after she found out. JJ found herself begin to panic even more, she could feel her heart beating through her chest and her hands were shaking.

Before she knew it Emily was kneeling in front of her. "Just calm down, baby." Emily said softly, looking at JJ with nothing but love. 'This is probably the last time she'll look at me like that.' JJ thought sadly.

"Please tell me." Emily said sitting down beside JJ.

JJ took a deep breath. "I-I-b-back when I was in the warehouse when I was chained up, H-Hastings, h-he" JJ squeezed her eyes shut tightly, trying to get the words out. "H-he touched me."

Emily froze for a second before her eyes darkened. "What do you mean he touched you?" Emily asked although she knew the answer.

JJ kept her eyes close, not wanting to see Emily's reaction. "H-He touched me…everywhere. He almost rap-"JJ stopped at Emily's gasp. "He didn't." JJ said quickly. "He didn't, he a-almost did, but Matt h-he stopped him, gave up his code." JJ reluctantly opened her eyes to see Emily's face hardened in anger but she mistook it for disgust and disappointment. "I-I didn't want him to do it, I p-promise, I-I didn't. P-please believe me; don't leave me, p-please!" JJ begged desperately trying to explain everything.

Emily snapped back into reality at JJ's words. "Oh god, JJ, I know that! I know you didn't want…" Emily trailed off grabbing JJ hands in comfort and reassurance. "I would never leave you…wait is that what you meant in the bathroom when you said 'it's my fault'?" Emily asked shocked, JJ nodded in confirmation.

"This was in no way your fault, it was that bastard." Emily clenched her jaw in anger; if JJ hadn't killed Hastings on that rooftop she would have done it herself. "You're so brave and it wasn't you fault. I love you." Emily reassured softly, placing a kiss to the back of JJ's hand.

"Th-there's something else though." JJ said pulling her hand away, knowing this would push Emily away for good.

Emily nodded nervously, she had no idea what else JJ could have to tell her.

"W-when I was in the Middle East, we were all heading off base and w-we were ambushed." JJ said her voice raspy with emotion. "T—the trucks were bombed and there was a shootout. Hastings obviously planned it all. A lot of our team died that day, I-I got shot in the stomach." JJ whispered. Emily was shocked, she had seen a small scar on JJ's stomach but she must have had surgery to make it look like a minor injury rather than something as serious as a gunshot. It devastated her to know that JJ had been through that kind of pain.

JJ began to shake again as she prepared to tell Emily. "A few days before, I-I found out I was pregnant." JJ whispered her heart clenching as she looked down.

It took a few moments for Emily to process what her wife was telling her but when it finally registered, her heart shattered. "No." Emily whispered. "No, no no." Emily kept repeating.

"I'm so sorry." JJ sobbed.

"Why didn't you tell me? You could've told me." Emily said heart broken, they had been having IVF for months, before the Doyle situation happened, Emily just assumed it never worked.

"I know." JJ said still crying. "I was going to tell you after Doyle was dead and you could come back. But, you were so lost and broken Em, I was afraid I'd lost you, I couldn't hurt you anymore. I didn't want to bring you anymore pain."

"Oh, JJ." Emily whispered, tears rolling down her cheeks. "I wish you would have told me."

"I'm sorry." JJ whispered again.

"I know, it's ok, I just hate that you had to go through that alone and you felt you couldn't tell me." Emily said.

"No not for that." JJ said shaking her head and standing up.

"What do you mean?" Emily asked confused.

"I killed our baby Emily, I couldn't protect our baby!" JJ sobbed again, sliding against the wall and collapsing to the floor.

Emily sat shocked for a second before rushing over to her distraught wife. She sat down next to her gathering her in her arms and keeping her in a comforting embrace.

They both cried together, mourning over the loss of their unborn child, the grief overwhelming both of them.

Emily didn't know if JJ would stop blaming herself for her near-rape and the death of their baby.

JJ didn't know if Emily truly forgave her for everything

But deep down, they both knew that their love for one another was strong enough to get them through this and that was evident at this very moment.

Because for every "I'm sorry" JJ said, Emily replied with 'It's not your fault'.