Title: Lost in Despair
Rating: T
Pairing: Leah Clearwater/Jacob Black
Summary: During the last battle with the Volturi, Seth is killed. Jacob takes it upon himself to look past his own pain caused by the pain of losing the younger shifter and focus on making sure he did not lose another. Drabble
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything from Twilight!
AN: For the purpose of this story I am saying Jacob never imprinted on Nessie and Embry did instead. This is just a one-shot unless I get people who want a full blown story.

It had been a little over a month since the final battle with the Volturi occurred and for the most part things had gone back to normal, but in other ways life would never be the same. Leah Clearwater was one of the few that would never be able to go back to the way things had been and considering how crappy her life had been before, it said a lot that she wished to go back to those days. The worst part was knowing her mother hated her for not being the child who had died. At the funeral of her baby brother, the she-wolf had been physically hurt by her own mother when sue slapped her and broke her hand in the process and then verbally assaulted when what she really needed was for her mother to comfort her and tell Leah it wasn't her fault and there was nothing she could have done to stop Felix from snapping his neck when he had tried to be the hero and stop Caius from killing Irina.

Jake had been the one to confront Sue on how horrible she was treating Leah. He had been the one who followed her, after the casket was lowered in to the ground, to a nearby stream and stood there as she hit him over and over with her fists before bursting in to tears and allowing him to hold her in his arms as they fell to the ground together and he spent the night with Leah in his arms as he rocked her gently while she slept fitfully. It was the alpha who was there for her when she needed someone. Even though he was in pain from losing a pack brother he chose to look past that pain in order to help the only daughter of Harry Clearwater. By being there for Leah, Jacob knew deep down it would help him deal with his pain and guilt over the death of Seth, the one he had not been able to save because he had been much too busy making sure Bella was alright even though she was a newborn vampire and had the ability of creating a mental shield.

There were days when the young alpha thought his friend may be doing better and finally dealing with the death of Seth, but then something would happen and any progress she had made would fly out the window leaving them both at square one. Still, Jacob wasn't planning to give up anytime soon or even at all for that matter. He would keep pushing past her walls, breaking them down one by one no matter how many she put up or how strong they were. This was just something he needed to do for himself, Leah, and in the memory of Seth Clearwater. He wasn't doing this because he felt he had to, but rather because he wanted to.

"Why do you even care?" Leah snapped out one day when she happened to be in a particularly bad mood because the Cullen family had gotten permission to come on to La Push land to bring Leah and Sue a gift basket and an offer to help them with anything they may need including the cost of the funeral, as if it would bring Seth back. "I get you were friends with my brother, but he's dead now so I don't get why you're sticking around. There is nothing here for you now so just get the hell out of my life and stay away."

"I can't do that Leah." He responded quickly knowing she wouldn't want to hear what he had to say next. "Seth wouldn't want you to push everyone away. If he were still here you know as well as I do that he would-"

Jake was cut off mid sentence as the she-wolf jumped up from her position of sitting on the couch so she was almost nose to nose with Jacob Black. "It doesn't matter what he would want because he isn't here anymore. He's dead! My baby brother is dead! He is never going to come back and you know whose fault it is? It's your fault Jake, all your fault, you're the reason my brother is dead and I hate you for it! If you hadn't been so obsessed with Bella than Seth and all of the other shifters wouldn't have been recruited to fight for her. She has her own family and made her choice you and the mind rapist pretty freaking obvious since she not only married him and had a child, if you can call that thing a child, but she also gave up her human life for him and you just don't seem able to comprehend that she's just not that in to you."

"This has nothing to do with her and you know it." He told her before taking a step closer to her. "You're not really angry at me and even if you are it wouldn't compare to how much I hate myself for what happened to him. You're angry with yourself and instead of dealing with that pain you push everyone who loves you away, but I am not going to allow you to do the same thing with me."

Leah could feel her hands starting to shake. "How can I push away those who care about me when everyone I love is now dead? You really don't get it do you Jake? I have nothing left in my life to live for. The only reason I was trying to better my life was because I knew it's what Seth wanted, but now I no longer have that. I no longer have anyone to fight for. I'm without a purpose without Seth around."

The tanned male frown before suddenly wrapping her up in his arms. "You're not alone Leah; I am here and I'll always be here no matter what. I won't lose you the same way I lost Seth, I don't think I could handle it and that's why I am here, why I will always be here."

AN: This is just a drabble and I may continue it if people are interested, but if not it is a short one shot.

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