Before I start, no, I'm not dead! But the 'RIP' emails were sweet, I think. Gawd, I don't think I've written in like, a year. The reasons for my prolonged absence involves overdosing, a hell of a lot of therapy, and being very unhappy with my life. I've been getting a lot better lately and thus! More writing! The idea behind this one is fairly simple and I'm just trying to get a feel for everything again. I hope it's not terrible.

fall

L dies quietly. He dies like shadows die in sunlight, dies like forgetting. L dies like someone who was never supposed to be alive anyway so maybe it doesn't really matter.

With his last breath he sucks all of the oxygen from the room and the only one who isn't too stupid to notice it is Light, but Light doesn't need the air to breathe because he has just become a god. There is a wild quiet as Light holds this fallen king in his arms and L's eyes are fucking screaming. Light smiles because this is what he's been waiting for and what he gave up everything for but really what he's thinking is don't look at me like that you bastard.

L's eyes tell him that they represent the world's future. Light's eyes tell L's eyes that they are as good as dead, but then he catches himself. Light can hear L's laughter in the corridors of his mind.

(You are not one of the gods.)

bored

It takes a single day for Light to realise he has made a mistake. Boredom greets him like an old friend and he realizes too late that this isn't what he wanted; playing god is only fun when you have someone to watch you triumph. He misses the game, the one he got so caught up in trying to win he didn't notice how fun it was to play. How much he needed to play.

(How does it feel at the top of the world, Light-kun?) not-L's voice whispers inside him.

Light wants to reply the world has turned grey, but why should he admit that when he can just keep doing what he's doing?

funeral

L's grave is unmarked, located somewhere between the screaming trees of nightmares and the real world. There is such futility in giving the man a resting place. He doesn't really need it now that he's made a home inside of Light's head. Even in death L doesn't sleep.

Light doesn't pay much attention while the others speak because honestly, there is nothing to say but goodbye.

Light says his goodbye and then rips apart L's grave.

near

Light is frightened by this young albino boy who declares he will end him. Near reminds him of that detective who died so long ago, who has been dead in the ground and buried in his mind for years and years and years and years and years. So much has changed since then and it's like L has sent this boy to haunt him, almost as if to say you can't get rid of me Light-kun. As though Light hasn't already been aware of that for five long years. L is still fighting him even from beyond the grave.

death

Kira dies loudly. He dies like glass breaking, dies like remembering. Kira dies like a god who was once a man but lost everything. His eyes scream murder betrayal guilty fucking kill them goddamn it I'm supposed to be god.

Light dies like a child. His eyes scream nothing. Inside he cries.

Not-L whispers an eye for an eye.

I don't really think I like this much but I'm going to post it anyway. Also keep in mind I haven't watched Death Note in like two years. Please review and tell me what you think!

~Ratt Kazamata, 2/18/2014