One Year Later, Clare's Blog POV

Well, this past year has definitely been a crazy one. I went from crazy part girl, to loner, to slut, to obedient house wrench, to mom.

After Eli and I decided to have the baby, my mother was pretty happy with that choice. Luckily, she was very supportive. My mom has always been such a strict mother, that I honestly didn't know how she would handle everything, but she has been perfect, a great grandma to her grandbaby.

After much debating and decision making, Eli and I decided to move into the city. Now, I used to live in the hills, but when I city, I mean the big city, which is what we call it. Any other person would say it's not a big deal, but it was almost an hour away from home. Eli and I unexpectedly got jobs in the city. I got a job at a retail store, and Eli got a job at a coffee shop, as well as an internship with a magazine company. We decided we would keep going to school. Eli decided to jump on the band wagon and do online school with me. He even is taking online college classes now.

When Lauren told her parents about being pregnant, they were mad. I mean really, really mad. They didn't throw her out immediately, but they told her she would have to move out before the baby came. Reluctantly, we gave Lauren a place to stay at our apartment. Given that we only had a two bedroom apartment and one room was the nursery, Lauren has to sleep in the living room. We put a bed in there and everything, and since Eli and I decided to co sleep with our baby, the nursery is practically hers. Ken never did step up to help with the baby, but we did hunt his ass down, and his parents pay child support since he is still a minor.

The three of us all live pretty okay and comfortably, but then three turned to five.

We had our babies on the same day, April 24. She gave birth to a girl, Gretchen Angel Smith. I gave birth to a boy, Adam Parker Goldsworthy. They came home the same day. That was fun for all of us. Luckily my mom came and stayed on an air mattress to help the three of us out with our babies.

Welcoming the babies' home was as smooth as it could be. The babies both learned to sleep through the night pretty quickly, despite their young age. They have been growing at a perfect rate. Lauren and I have gone a wee bit crazy, making every thing was child safe, even though we don't have children, and we have babies. Still, everything is ready for when they are. Living with the babies has been a challenge to figure out, but the rewards so far have always been worth it.

Right now, little Gretchen and Adam are both three months old. We like to do all those cutesy annoying motherly things and Eli always rolls his eyes, but he loved being a dad. He loves taking little Adam out for walks and he likes holding him. A lot of the time, Adam will sleep in Eli's armpit, which is way cuter than it sounds.

I even once heard Eli talking to Adam, telling him all the things they were going to do together, like play games and sports, which Eli doesn't even like, but I would never tell Eli I heard that.

Right now, Eli and I are doing fairly successful in both of our jobs, and we've been saving up a lot of money, so we are talking about the idea of eventually moving into a house. We don't know what Lauren would do if we moved out, but Lauren have to learn to be independent.

Things have always been crazy in my life, and I'm sure that if anyone from my old school were to see me now, they would just laugh their asses off and say 'I told you so," but honestly, being a mom has changed me for the better. I've learned to think before I do, talk before I freak out, and love before I get scared. I know not all of that makes sense, but I've done thinks that don't make sense, so bare with me.

I know I still have many years to go. My baby is only three months old. As long as he keeps growing than so will I, but at least I have a pretty handsome guy to help me get through this.

Oh yeah, and Eli's not too bad either ;) We are even thinking about getting married this summer.

Make of it what you will :)