when I arrive at dauntless compound everybody is up and in the mess hall for breakfast. I slide into the seat next to Christina who says through a mouthful of bread "where have you been?" I just shake my head and reply "couldn't sleep so I took a walk. That's all" She shrugs and continues eating. I load some stuff on my plate absently, not really in the mood to eat. I stop when i see four come in through the metal double doors on the other side of the mess hall. He looks pissed. He looks at me then shakes his head and sits down next to another boy with brown skin and short hair. I believe his name is zeke. I look away very confusingly. When breakfast is over we all file into a line and follow Eric into a room. "this" he says. "is where you will face you fears. You will be called one by one through that door. Got it?" he says all nod. He walks away. "oh almost forgot. You will be ranked on this so, as they say in candor... break a leg" then he walks out. Soon after the first name is called, then next after next. When peter stepped out he was crying. I smiled at this. Then my name is called. I stand up and walk to the door. I exhale slowly then push the door open. I Nearly have a heart attack when I see the same chair they used for the aptitude test. I take a step back into the wall, but then I realize it's not a wall but a person. I hurry up, jump off, and spin around to see four. He points at the chair and I hesitantly sit in the chair. He takes a box and removes a syringe filled with a blue liquid. He reaches for my hair to move it out of the way. The simple gesture makes me shiver. If he notices I can not tell. He injects it into my neck making me wince. He taps some things on the computer then walks over to me. " in thirty seconds you will be connected to a simulation. You will face one of your worst fears. I'll monitor it through the computer..." "wait you can see my fear?" I say "yes your brain is connected to it. That's what the injection was for" he gives me that look again that strange conflicted look. "be brave be-" but the rest of his words and the world dissolve in a swirl of color and sound. When I open my eyes I'm on top of the dauntless building. One of the tallest buildings in the city. At first I don't understand how I got here but then I remember I'm in the simulation. I'm not afraid of heights but for some reason I shake and back away as the wind pushes me farther towards the end of the building. Then I remember fours words "be brave" I take a step further and throw myself off the building silently hoping this will end before I reach the rapidly approaching cement. I open my ryes and sit up holy straight. I curl into a ball and kinda rock back and fourth. "how long did you think you were in there' four ask. I think about that. "30:00 minutes" I stares at me. "2:00" the second lowest time in dauntless history. "but you looked aware jutting the simulation. Your not suppose to be aware. " he looks at me. "your divergent" he says it more as a statement than a guess. I look at him. I fell like I can trust him. "yes" I whisper. He sighs and turn towards the computer. "more work for me" "what are you doing?" I ask. "I'm editing the film so know will find out" he says simply. I nod and start to walk out. He grabs my arm when I reach the door. I keep my eyes down. "you can't tell anyone about this" he says. "I know"I respond. He nods and let's me through. I still feel tingled from where his skin touched mine. -page break- Later that night after dinner I walk off and onto the train tracks...waiting. When I see the bright light of the train I wait for it to zoom by them hope on. I wait till I'm away from dauntless compound to look out of the cart trying to not be seen. I lean out the car letting the wind hit my face. I fell free and smile to myself. Then the train hits a bump and I lose my footing. I'm about to hit the wheel of the car when a pair of hands pull me back in. they spin me around so I'm face to face with four. I pull back immediately and blush. " thanks" he nods and looks out the train car. Only later do I question how he got in without my notice. The train slows down and I start to get off when four says " no. not yet" I stay on even though I never gave him permission to lead me. I mean the nerve of this guy. The train picks up again and we speed off into the night. When it slows down again I notice where in the same spot I was the last time I was with four. He jumps off gracefully and I follow his pursuit. We trudge through the forest until he stops in a clearing right across from the lake I was at the first time. This spot I even better with there rolling hills of grass and the view of the never ending lake that reflects the lights of the city. All of a sudden it hits me. I use to come here when I was a young girl in abnegation. I used to skip stones with a friend. How'd he know this was here? It's very well hidden and this is abnegation territory. You'd have to live here and explore to stumble upon this place. Four stares off into the city. "nice huh" he says it with a twinge of humor for some reason. I don't know what to say. He sighs tiredly and stares at his reflection in the glassy lake. I walk up and stand next to him looking at both our reflections with the stars in the background. "I'm tired tris" he says tightly. i don't respond knowing for some reason I'm not suppose to say anything...not yet. " I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of you not knowing" at this he turns to look at me. he takes a step toward me. I'm tempted it to take a step back, but I don't. He stares at me which makes me bring my eyes to his and for the first time I really look at him. Under the moonlight he looks years younger and years older at the same time. I look at his face. He's so close that I can see a few freckles dotting his nose. His hair needing to be cut hangs low on his forehead. I look into his eyes as they look into mine. With a jump I realize his eyes are not black but...blue. Just like a drop of a coin it all clicks together. The eyes, the fact that he knows this spot, and the necklace. He must see the realization on my face because he takes a step closer so were sharing breaths. I bring my hand up as if to touch his face but then think better of it and put it down. " its ok" he whispers and takes my hand in his. He guides it up to his cheek witch is warm in the cold of night. He closes his eyes and sighs the words "so tired". When he opens his eyes again there gleaming. My mind is racing on how this is even possible. His dad told me he had died two years ago, but then there was living proof right in front of my eyes. He takes my hand away from his cheek but only so he holds it in his hand, fingers intertwined with mine. He smiles sadly at me seeing the disbelief on my face. His smile fades and he starts to lean into me. His lips brush mine uncertainly. It sends a twinge of electricity through me. He becomes more certain and kisses me full on. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back. The kiss deepens and he pushes me up against a nearby tree. We soon break apart from air foreheads touching. "Beatrice" he whispers. It was not a question nor just a word. It was a statement that was my name. "Tobias" I whisper back.